Stupid Me

A year passed after that 'graceful meeting'.One day when I was wandering on the corridors with Jessie, my bestie, our eyes met, I felt confused enough to ignore his eyes and look towards Jessie. After some time I realized that this ignorance of mine shouldn't have occurred. I felt heartbroken, though this doesn't look like a great issue my insights were killing me, "repeating such a fool you are!! He should've felt ignored."

Though he didn't show any major changes in expression, still.

now this gave me a reason to talk to him...I tried to talk to him but he was always found with his friends which made me lose my confidence and my apologetic behavior. One day my friend followed my crush on social media.

conversation between Eric Thompson and Millie...

Him-Hey! Does Katherine have an account here?

Maybe..yes or no...

Him-Are you sure about her having an account or not?

I am not sure

(conversation ended)

After some time, I got a call from Millie. she explained the whole situation to the dumbstruck me. I felt a mixture of emotions, undescribable....tickling me inside and giving me goosebumps. I was happy, nervous and of course, extremely exited at that time.

I got this feeling, insights telling me that he likes me too, cause I just told my name once like he was super surer about my name.

I hurriedly installed that social media app or whatever because for a nerd like me this was bullshit(no offense to nerds using social media) and pretended that everything was fine and natural but you know nature plays the opposite. Intense heart-throbbing, beautiful images appearing in my mind and stuffy atmosphere. I gasped for air literally.

After a million years the app got finally installed...CREATING AN ACCOUNT?SERIOUSLY!!!!!! HAVING A COMMON NAME MEANS HAVING A PRACTICE OF CREATING DIFFERENT USERNAMES AS SIMPLE AS THAT. At least ten times'username already taken or username invalid'...on the twentieth time, yes twentieth time I got blessed with god's grace and an account of mine was created.

The saying goes right that problems are paired. for a newbie searching a common name is a hell thing...I just typed there Eric and it showed a million accounts...JEEZ!!!!THIS IS SO TOUGH!!!!!!!!! After spending like ten to fifteen minutes in this struggling, my low IQ finally told me to call Millie and ask about his ID and stuff.

I got his account, followed him, drooled over his photos for like million years..and finally gathered up the courage to talk to him. ( CONVERSATION BETWEEN HIM AN ME)

conversation between him and me....(oh I forgot to tell write my id here which is Katherine-1001)

Him-Is it you Katherine?

um..yes hey what's up?

Him-Hey! Katherine, how are you?

Me, I am fine what bout ya?

Him- So do i ....so your friend talked about your secret ...

HOLY JESUS!!!!!!MILLIE DIDNT TELL ME ABOUT THIS STUFF!! WHAT TO DO? WHAT TO DO?

What secret (pretended to be calm but..you know the rest)

Him-It is your secret, what would I know?

Ohhhh...it was about you.

Him-Me! what about me?

No..just nothing to be offended ... I told my friends about how I met you etc stuff

Him-Ohh..so any crush?

Me?

Him-Yup, you...

Yes, I have one...

Him-Who?

(seriously!!!!!how could I tell my crush about huim.?!heck this is pathetic)

Leave it you won't like it...

Him-No, you shouldn't you have to tell me this instant!

Are you sure like you wanna know it... you won't be happy after reading the text message coming next if you agree...are you seriously sure?!

Him-Would I be joking?! hell yes!

I like... you. I KNOW THIS SOUNDS DISGUSTING but I can't hold it longer .. I ve been liking you for a year. I know it sounds crazy but if you don't feel the same I am of course cool about it and we could be like best of friends right?!~please don't be offended... (CONVERSATION ENDED)

I knew it, there was no reply for like an hour or something. I was extremely nervous like scaring the crap out of me. I know I should 've talked to him for longer then confessed, but what to do? Instead of feeling nervous every second it was better for me to confess today also we are not that close so henceforth it would be easier for both of us to forget each other.

But it was a lie about his personality, he is a sweet-talking dick with a harmless smile. I will tell you about his wrongdoings and the pain suffers by me because of that dick head.