CHAPTER 172
Ryland
The last few days have pretty much been a blur. I haven’t seen or spoken to Gracie since she walked out nearly five days ago. She wouldn’t answer my calls or texts. And I have found myself in a bad place. I was staying at our old apartment, drinking every night, but I only had it for another two days before I needed to hand the keys in. I hadn’t gone to classes or work that week at all. I only left the apartment to get food and drink. I had spoken to Ben because he wanted to know I was alright, and I texted my mom to tell her I was okay without really disclosing the whole situation. Other than that, I have had no further contact with the outside world. I went back to the new apartment and made sure no one was home when I went to pick up some things to keep me going while here.
I felt utterly destroyed. I had never experienced the pain I had right now. I couldn’t handle being apart from Gracie. It was too much, and it was like a part of me was missing.