I feel so lonely
So distanced
So weak and lost
So hollow
So empty like a broken angel
Falling from grace to dust
Rejected by every entity
With no sense of living.
Cast out by society
pushed around by their expectations.
As I bore the punishment
A burden from the past
Abandoned after being used
Overshadowed by others
Voiceless and unheard
Forced on a silent vigil.
Like an invisible shade
Damaged I may be yet a facade I must show
Forever a picture of strength
Despite my crumbling wall
Cry that I can't
Because
I must be absolute
I'm suffocating inside an iron maiden.
Struggling
But a blind eye is turned to me
For fear of the vultures
returning to add more weight and
leave more scars both invisible and visible
As I wander with no destination or goal
Similarly confined with Boulder and fear.
Want to let it go
Simply
Don't want to die
Yet
I want to kill the pain inside me
I feel nothing more but
dreams of old going dark.
Life Is a puzzle