To be at the top
Abigail Fan was rendered speechless as she attentively listened to Lexi's continues storytelling. She felt honored that Lexi shared this sensitive topic with her, and touched at the same time.
In retrospect, Lexi had always this huge invisible wall around her that no matter how Abigail Fan showed her loyalty -- she won't ever gonna see it. However, right now, Abigail Fan felt the vast distance between them gradually lessened. Hence, she believed that Lexi's realization wasn't a play pretend but sincere.
Pursing her lips, Abigail Fan looked down on her fist that was placed on her lap as tears started to form on the corner of her upturned eyes. Is this how Lexi care? Abigail had mixed emotions for some unknown reason. It's as if the previous image she had with Lexi slowly shattered and only this understanding yet slightly changed woman were left.