Chapter Nineteen: The Empty Bed

Kara stormed off, hurt and confused. She made her way back to the room Margaret had given them and got into bed, staring across from her at the empty bed. " You fucking asshole " Kara cried. How did things go so wrong so quickly. They finally had everything they wanted. They did everything the world wanted and yet somehow still they end up with nothing. " I guess Margaret was right" Kara cried. Perhaps she and Gabriel were doing more harm than good to the world. Perhaps everything got lost in translation and they were never meant to be. Maybe everything was wrong. They had sacrificed so much to even get this far. And now there was no way back.

Earth had been destroyed, the Underworld was still a mess and nothing seemed like it made sense to Kara.

Did she even want him or did she want to fulfill her purpose? Did she really confuse everything so much so that she gave up Gwen? Someone that she didn't even love anymore? " Why did everything happen this way " Kara's cries increased the more she stared at the empty bed across from her. As much as she wanted to believe this was some sort of a trick that Cassie was behind. Manipulating him somehow without him having a way of knowing, she knew she had screwed up.

" I don't love Gwen dammit. I really don't. I was fascinated with her at best..confused of my feelings at the time. And maybe that is why I called her mine. Because she wasn't my true love. But my biggest mistake that I pay for every single day now. And being with Gabriel...reminds me of that mistake I made" Kara continues to cry.

" Maybe that is why the bond doesn't work with us. Maybe my guilt is what has hindered me and him" Kara knew that the bond was not as strong as it should be. She could feel it. He wouldn't be pulling away if it was strong. " He wouldn't pull away if it was strong" and that is when Kara realized. " The bond...it didn't matter. If I had any form of resistance to it. Anything..then the bond didn't matter. It would have never worked. Not with me and Gabriel. As much as I love him, love is not enough. I have to be able to give myself completely to him and that is mind, heart and body and my mind..my mind still isn't clear" Kara felt horrible. She now understood better what she had truly taken away from Gabriel. Not intentionally but whether it was intentional or not. It doesn't change that it happened. And there was nothing she would be able to fix this. Unless. She could clear her head.