Return of The Last Piece of Memory

I've started to get used to the situation in which my memories returned. Just like usual, I stood in the conference room to

deliver my speech.

Naturally, my legs trembled like newborn fawns, and I sat back in my chair. And then, I felt two warm streams on my cheeks.

The result was the same no matter what. I failed to reach that lake in the northwest, Shar and everyone still dead.

Especially the fact that Shar couldn't leave North Grand. In fact, she died as soon as she left North Grand, that was the proof

of everything.

On the other hand, Shar would die for sure if she stayed in North Grand. In short, She dies either way. I could only guess that it

was caused by something. I mean, she just died without showing any abnormalities before. What a joke, this city aside, I

couldn't even save the life of a single girl.

「G-Gil, is something the matter?」

Chigi asked in hurry upon seeing my state.

「No… It's nothing.」

After muttering those words, I left the meeting room with a tottered gait.

I flopped on my bed, and stared blankly at the ceiling.

I had been rushing recklessly in the last few months. Yet, I still failed to escape from this nightmare.

Though I knew that the strongest existence was looking at the situation right across that acid lake, I couldn't arrive in that

place due to Urokonu's barrier. I've failed so many times to the point I had enough of it.

In the end, I succumbed to despair and decided to only bring Shar with me. And yet, she still died as soon as we left North

Grand, it was as if the reality was shoved right onto my face. 

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I've tried everything. I failed to protect everyone's peaceful daily life and Shar's smile.

I've given up, I really don't care anymore. I've tried every single possibility and still failed to escape from this hell.

「GIL!」

The door of my room opened up and the most important girl for the current me appeared from behind the door.

And then, after looking at my figure lying down in my bed, she trotted and dove into my bed. And――

「Don't cry, Gil!」

She shouted such simple words anxiously, and then pulled me in her embrace.

「Shar, please leave me alone for now.」

I barely managed to squeeze those words, turning my back toward her.

Just remembering the fact that she would lose her life in the next few days was enough to break my heart. Currently, I really

didn't want to think about anything and just slept like mud till that hellish day visited this city.

「Are you crying because of me?」

Hearing her ask such a question with a sobbing voice, I,

「It's not your fault.」

I didn't deny it immediately. Shar suddenly embraced me from behind, burying her face on my back,

「Sorry. Actually, I feels like a princess in the bedtime story told by Maria a long time ago whenever Gil embraced me.」

And said that.

「Shar?」

「But, despite vaguely aware that I couldn't leave this place, I-I still bring so much trouble for Gil.. .」

For a moment, I really had no idea what she was talking about. But――

Shar suddenly turned around and looked into my eyes, as if she made some sort of decision. Looking at her, I knew that

whatever she would say next was not a joke.

「Shar, did you just say that you can't leave North Grand?」

「Yeah, I'm having this strange dream since I was a child.」

「Strange dream?」

「Yes. In that dream, I saw myself tied to North Grand by a red pipe. I know that pipe is my lifeline. That's why I also know that I

will die the moment I step out of North Grand.」

Now I had no doubts left. She knew about this nightmare. She saw all the suffering I experienced in that long and lonely hell.

That's――

「Shar…」



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Unable to suppress the overflowing feeling in my chest, I embraced Shar while wailing like a kid.

I cried for a really long time as if to vent all my frustation before I finally regained my composure.

The me who felt refreshed as if all those despair and anxiety had already flowing out along with my tears was also

understand Shar's anxiety.

（Good grief, I really am hopelessly.）

But, that was me. I had to accept that I was undoubtedly a hopeless, useless, incompetent, and cowardly man.

I was such a small existence who couldn't do anything by myself.

My assumption was already wrong from the very beginning. I believed that I could reach the other side of that acid lake with

my own power. Or should I say, that was how I tried to convince myself? Alas, such a thing was impossible. It wasn't my role to

do that.

Yes. I've already got the answer inside those dreams. Those dreams were too realistic to be a dream. As much as I didn't want

to remember it, I wouldn't be able to escape from the fact that the past me was that lowlife.

Maybe, all I did until now was turn away from reality. Because I really couldn't admit the fact that I was such an outrageous

idiot.

I mean―― I afraid that I wouldn't be able to laugh with Shar and everyone again if I admit that fact.

――Thump

Suddenly, I felt as if a stake was driven into my head. Suddenly, it was as if the time had stopped.

And then, a blonde-haired pompous kid around eight years old with bob cut appeared before me.

――Took you long enough to admit that..

I already know his identity. Rather, he was the old me, there was no reason for me to not knowing about him.

（You're me, right?）

――Yeah, as much as I hate to admit that. But, the reason why you're in this situation was simply because you're

disrespecting That Personage. That was the reason why he forced you into participating in this game until you're willing to

admit your own timidness and cowardice.

（You're as condescending as usual huh.）

――Really? Well, I'm you, you're me. Meaning that you're literally criticizing yourself.

（Cheeky brat. So, what should I do to get the last piece of my memory?）

Maybe that last piece of memory was the key for me to face my own past.

The 8 year old me snapped his fingers, and then conjured something like a golden ball in front of me.

（Is this the thing?）

――The last piece of your memory. The moment you touch that, you'll remember everything.

Are you ready? 

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（Ready for what?）

――You know what I mean right? To face the people betrayed by you. Are you ready for that?

（Hahaha! Ready when you are!）

I won't escape anymore! Surely, I had to make up for many things by doing that. But, the current me had the people I wanted

to protect no matter what. They're the people I wanted to protect even at the cost of my life.

The moment I touched the golden ball, the scenery around me changed.

The current location was inside the forest, surrounded by trees from all directions. I remember this scenery. This was near the

place where I met Shar for the first time.

Few familiar figures stood before me.

The first person was a blonde-haired man with a regal appearance. I saw him in one of my dreams, my father, Edward Loto

Amelia. The second man was a black-haired giant, the prime minister of Amelia kingdom―― Johannes Roosevelt. The man I

feared the most in my dream.

And lastly, a black haired youth, that strongest existence.

My father, Edward took a deep breath,

「Gilbert, you just comitted a taboo for royalty, killing your own subordinate. And the reason why you're still alive right now is

simply because the mercy of those who you treated as lowly bug and tried to kill. As a father, I really wish that you can use

this trial to turn over a new leaf.」

And spoke to me with deep anguish apparent on good face.

「What are you talking about, father!? What trial!?」

I asked with impatient voice.

This must be the last moment right before I lost my memories.

My father had only closed his eyes without telling me anything and,

「Do it.」

He asked the strongest existence with trembled voice.

「Satori!」

Right after the strongest existence spoke, a green-haired girl with bob-cut appeared out of nowhere and was kneeling at

him.

『Have you just call me, Supreme Ruler-sama?』

「Yes, I want to ask your help to temporarily erase this guy memory. And..」

The strongest existence held his chin and seemingly pondering about something for a while but,

「Make it so that his memory will be back after he fulfilled the condition that I'm about to say.」

The moment he ordered so to the green-haired girl, 

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「This guy found the comrade he can trust and protect even if it means he lost his life.」

And relayed the condition.

The spectacle before me warped, and the 8 years old me re-appeared.

（I see, so that's what you mean by I'm already fulfilling the condition…）

――Yes, the clearing condition of this game isn't that difficult to begin with. The reason why this situation happen is because

That Personage made you into his kin, and because you sealed your own memories.

Now that I accepted the reality, I could see that I was truly the biggest coward out there.

Seeing the 8 years old me revealing a self-deprecation smile,

（I agree with you but, how to return my memories?）

――Hah! Just touch the book before you. You've already seeing it right?

Suddenly, I saw a book floating before me.

（Is this the thing?）

――The memory of Gilbert Loto Amelia has already been completed. The moment you touch that book, you will remember

everything. Or rather, you will back to being Gilbert.

（I see… Thank you.）

――Don't thank me. I'm you, you are me.

Hearing those pompous remark, I smiled and touched the book.

When I opened my eyes after I felt someone shook my shoulders, I saw Shar looking at me with expression as if she was

about to cry.

「Are you okay!?」

Her complexion changed as she asked me that question.

「Yeah, I saw a really long, long dream.」

Yeah. I woke up from nightmares that been haunting me for more than ten years after Celis death.

「What are you going to do after this?」

When Shar asked that question anxiously, I brushed Shar's hair,

「Naturally, asking for an apology.」

「Apology? To who?」

I let out a wry smile seeing Shar tilting her head in puzzlement,

「The best friend who I betrayed!」

After telling her that, I carried her up and made her sit on the bed.



6/7

This was a fresh start. If Kai Heineman was that strongest existence, it means that my big sister was right beside him.

At least, Kai Heineman wouldn't want to cooperate with me unless I got permission from my big sister and Tetle. Thus I had no

choice but to tackle this problem. This time, I would bet my life to protect Ket Nya. And my own skin as well!