Chapter 83

Havoc

I purposely picked this movie because I knew it would make her want to curl up next to me. Apparently, I’m a glutton for punishment, but I need this. After my day, I need to hold her in my arms, smell the strawberry scent of the shower gel and lotion she uses, and feel her soft skin against mine. Maybe I need it more than she does, because today, regardless of what that bullet hit, I’m feeling my own mortality and I need her next to me probably as much as she needs me next to her. I’m not stupid, and I know she cares for me in her own way. There’s no way she would have married me otherwise, and I’m not stupid enough to question it. Tonight, I’m willing to give into my wants, give into the way I know she can make me feel if I allow her to. Maybe tonight I wanna play with fire, and I’m willing to get a little singed by the flame.