CHAPTER 3 - Lost and Heavy Burdens

Have you ever felt lost, and you are confused about which direction to go in… is it the broadway or the narrow way?

Or you don't know what both the way are… here I will explain…..

Broadway - "you can do what you want in this route, be as free as you want with no responsibility, there will be problems in this route a lot maybe even life or death situations or other problems and in this route whatever you do, you will not have god's hand in your life"

Narrow way - " you cannot do what you want. you will have rules and regulations from the Bible such as the 10 commandments and so on… it is gonna be a very hard route.. but even if a life and death situation is there or any other problems… even if you suffer like JOB, you will have God's hand in your life…

Here in this path, you will have tests and challenges from Jesus and they are not gonna be easy… but if you pass, you will get a reward one day…

If you don't understand still, I will tell you about my life and how I left god for a week and almost died cause I went into the broadway because the narrow way was too hard with tests and challenges which I could not pass and failed all the time…

A year ago, I was going through a tough time with depression and suicidal thoughts… I was having dreams and scary thoughts… I was going through a hard time cause I was on the narrow path… and Jesus kept giving me challenges and tests that were so hard…

He gave me a test in depression, he let the Devil give me suicidal thoughts and the challenge was for me to get out of it and it was so hard and I said to god, "I cannot handle this anymore I am done with this path and I going to the broad path"

Wen, I left god, the challenges became harder and harder… I cried to God "help me, save me".. but I did not get a reply for a week and I almost ended my life.

Then I started suddenly to see Christian songs and my heart started to weep and I cried saying sorry to him…

And I begged him to pick me up and put me back on the narrow path.

Cause I learned, WHEN YOU ARE IN THE BROADWAY, EVEN IF YOU ARE IN A TOUGH SITUATION, GOD'S HAND IS NOT THERE

BUT WHEN YOU ARE ON THE NARROW WAY AND YOU ARE IN A TOUGH SITUATION, GOD'S HAND IS ALWAYS THERE…

Then I learned I should never leave him or walk away from him… broadly, I was fighting the battles of everything on my own without god's help…..

But then when I cried for four days, suddenly my heart was filled with peace and then I got to know through a dream…

I was crying so loudly, that heaven heard my cry and Jesus lifted my burdens and made them light…

And after that day I choose never to leave him ever again.

This is why I tell you not to go broadly and choose the narrow. I know it will be difficult but the reward will be great in the last….

Even if you are having heavy burdens in your heart, DO NOT LET HIM GO… DO NOT LET HIM GO… CAUSE IF YOU DO YOU ARE JUST GONNA SUFFER MORE… ALWAYS REMEMBER WHEN YOU ARE HOLDING HIM AND GOING THROUGH TOUGH TIMES HIS HAND IS ALWAYS WITH YOU.