C 85. Great Actor

In all likelihood, the Big Shark has a good relationship with Leroy and his death will have terrible consequences to me and her.

Dr Khan is a monster on his own, I doubt the Big Shark anger will deter him. But something tells me he can't save me from the Big Shark.

Even though the Big Shark was just me speculating, a bubble of excitement builds up again, thinking about how to piss him off. Ideas clash in my head.

Yeah, let do it!!! I will let the craziness take over for five minutes.

I harden my expression and it turns into realisation. I raised my head and stroke my empty chin, smooth without any facial hair.

I gave up an image of someone thinking something serious, but my thought was where is my beard? I remember some strands were starting to grow when I was at home.

Hmm, maybe they make it stopped growing here.

Then I turn and looked at her, forcing my emotion to be confused. At first, she senses excitement then now everything is changing toward confusion.

And for me to achieve that is not manipulating my emotions to trick her, that is impossible.

What I did was bring one of the complex phenomena that I never understand and ponder about it. And that makes me feel confused.

Then a few seconds later I began to think about my nightmares and the fear I felt from them. And that makes my body tremble with fear.

I forcefully brought up the scene of the red room where I witnessed people killing themselves. And that caused sadness to wash over me.

I remember the time I was being taken by an old woman. She put something on me and my body followed her even though I was aware I couldn't do anything. And that brought helplessness in my mind.

~Sigh~

"Why do you call him Great Sage?" I asked in a sad tone.

"Well… Ahm… you did not hear what I said? Leroy brain activity has stopped."

She didn't want to answer my question, but I can do with that.

"Ye… yes. I see that. He is dead." My thoughts are elsewhere just not to break the tempo.

Well, it doesn't make any difference. As she was already anxious despite my assuring emotions, it may only get worse, but will also make the Big Shark upset.

"Great Sage, maybe it was just some Evil Spirit that possessed me or a Demon that just wants you to do his bidding.

Look what he has done. And now people will look at me for answers. His remnants confidence left in me and I ended up carrying out his craziness.

Miss Susan, why did you put your trust in him? You are a scientist, you should be sceptical about everything.

Leroy Vincent's body has failed, his heart has stopped and his brain activity has come to a halt.

He should have transformed into a massive tiger when everything is coming to an end. 

You see in the death session His Soul and the Tiger Soul should merge and become something the world has never seen before.

My hypothesis is he will miraculously create a Bloodline of Tigers. That means his descendants will have a tiger transformation ability, but now….!"

~Sigh~ 

I'm amazed at how my words and thoughts are running separately. A bit of my mind is conveying whatever comes in my lips but my thoughts and emotions are within the sad situation I have been in the past.

That my effort to fool her emotion Sensor into thinking my sad feeling is for the death of Leroy.

"Do you think…!" I saw her eyes were red. 

My eyes trigger the swirling of her energy in her chest increase but there is a subtle control forced on it.

She is trying to control her panic. That is what comes to my mind.

I quickly close my eyes to not perceive anything again as this may consume my energy.

My dive into meditation erased any thought, just listening to my three melodies, heart, blood, lung activity.

After my head was clear I dragged those sad situations I have been in and felt hopeless and sad.

Because of the meditation it was more accurate and I began to think about the day one of my aunts died, the sadness I feel and how sorry I felt for her young baby as she died during delivery.

I opened my eyes a bit red with moisture and tried to talk but I couldn't….. 

This is too far of an act! A part of me said.

I calm myself to end the whole shit because I'm beginning to hate myself.

"Do you think we will be fine, right?" I asked

"What do you mean?" She said in panic.

"His death wouldn't cause… problem. It's not my fault it is the baseless will of that evil spirit Great Sage…" I said in panic.

Poor Miss Susan, she looked as if she was going to cry. Her hands are cold, trembling from time to time. 

Her eyes wanted to dart behind me but she focused on me before she managed to say, "May… be if you look closely something is going on!"

I looked at the dead Leroy and concentrated but then I shook my head. 

Yes, my mind was elsewhere, even the concentration is just an act.

"I'm sorry!" I said. 

This time I really mean it. I'm sorry for her being the one I used to try and piss off someone that I don't even know.

It's just like that German, he insulted me by calling me a monkey but in truth, he was calling his rival a monkey through me.

"I'm sorry, Miss Susan!"

She did not listen to me as she was busy giving orders through some kind of remote.

"Brain activity deep scan and spiritual deep scan....!"

"Don't bother, we have been doing that. His spirit has disappeared long ago, what remains is his aura that is keeping the body in good condition." A woman in white said while she comes out of nowhere, she stands at the left side of the screen looking at me.

Hmm, her eyes are moist.

"He is dead!" The woman whispered.