Stupid Feelings

After revival, I searched for the killer with determination but when I saw her face I calmed down,Senpai's face didn't change at all but I can see that she's anxious,after taking a breath I started

"sorry for overreacting like that"

"don't worry"

she answered as normal but then unlike her usual self she continued

"is it that weird for me...to love?"

No it's not about that! I saw her feelings a while ago but I didn't expect her to tell me about them

"ah no, it's normal it just surprised me a bit"

"I see"

if I had to rank the most awkward moments of my life this will take the first place without competition, for refrence the second one was when I killed a monster to save a village only to find out it's their guardian

let's calm down for now,I have a lot of questions but the most important

"why did you tell me?"

I don't think she told Suzuki about it, I can't see a reason for me to be her first choice

"I know that you are not an ordinary human, so I thought I should ask you to help me"

oh right I did use my power around her, of course she would notice.

"so? you want me to help you get closer to him?"

"it's the opposite, I want you to "delete" those feelings"

"Why?"

I can't help but to be frustrated, from all the things why would she say something like that?

"love in highschool is just a burden, relationship won't last long and will just affect my studies"

what she said is undeniable, I can't just tell her that she's wrong and correct her

"because something isn't wrong, does that make it correct?"

"Yes"

"I don't think so, for me....no, it's something I learned from someone else,you can't see the future you can't guarantee what's ahead of you even if you followed the best path possible to happiness, then isn't it better to just do what do you want? deal with the problemwhen it come"

that's a horrible advice but she didn't answer,I think that's an evidence that she really love Makoto.

Normally she would see through my bullshit quickly and answer but now she's hesitant

"then...what should I do?"

Senpai is always like this, she killed her emotions to chase a future she think is best, no matter what decision she make I want to support her.

"I don't know, you're the only one who know what you really want,so let me return the question to you"

I closed the distance between us ,there's a lot of people here so no one cares about us, I don't care either.

"I can make those feelings disappear if you said so now, but if you decided something else I'll help you achieve it"

That's a bluff, I didn't learn any magic that can control emotions, I want to believe in her. she won't chose to leave everything and run away.

"I-I want to get closer to him, I want to spend more time with him, I want him to look at me, I want to...be his girlfriend"

I pissed myself already when she started talking, but now I feel relieved for two different reasons, more importantly what am I going to do about three girls asking me for help?

"I see, since you decided what you want, you know where to go right?"

"yes, thank you Sawano Aru"

her smile when she said it...Makoto is a lucky piece of garbage, I nearly fell in love from a smile.

senpai's running to makoto, her speed puts professional runners to shame.

I layed down on the sand,looking at the sky

"do what you believe is right...that's not like me at all, Iris will laugh at me"

I closed my eyes ready to fall asleep, but I felt something isn't right,I stood up to llok around and then I saw it, Kiriyama is being harassed by some random guys, she probably can take care of them alone but she's surprisingly calm.. I still have to help though

"uh, I really hate to be that guy but aren't you guys bothering her?"

waaah that's awkward, please kill me

"Huh? are you her boyfriend or something?"

""No""

we both declined fast, the biggest guy patted on my shoulder

"you can play the hero in another place ok? we're not doing anything suspicious so fuck off"

"I'm pretty sure sexual harassment is illegal"

the man really seems to be annoying, I would like to finish this quickly

"it's fine if she's ok with it right?"

"oh if that's the case excuse me it's my mistake"

yeah it's disrespectful to asums they're har-

"are you retarded ? if you're running away don't come!"

*sigh* I thought so, we should solve things with violence, it's 4 vs 1 it should be fine if I hold back enough

I don't know why but I'm really in a bad mood right now, I want to throw them into the ocean

as I was ready to start the fight,someone stopped us with a shout

"step away from my girlfriend"

Makoto is there hugging Kiriyama close to him, that's the cringiest thing I've ever seen, now that I look at what I was going to do it's really embarrassing

"tch, let's just go it's not worth it there's a lot more"

well I tried my best, but the protagonist events are for Makoto, no way I'm doing it again

but I still fell angry...I wonder if I can really throw those guys in the ocean

"I'll leave you with your girlfriend aloneso have fun"

I ran away, I saw the uncomfortable face of my senpai but I can't do anything about it it just happened.

***

the day finished and everyone is going home, in the empty train Makoto and Senpai are sleeping, I was going to do so too but then Kiriyama talked

"thank you about what happened, I didn't have the chance to thank you about it (even though you did absolutely nothing)"

that's surprised me a lot,let's not talk about the last part, but I didn't expect her to be honest, is she sick?

"don't look at me like that, I'm not a tsundere or something I just didn't like you"

" "did"? "

"don't make me say it, it's embarrassing to think about it "

I see, I can't help but to smile, I was worried about how bad our relationship was but it was only me huh..

"by the way....what did you think about my swimsuit?"

"hmm?"

"Makoto said what he thought so I just wanted to hear you too, don't get any stupid ideas?"

that what a tsundere would normally say...I can't say that and it's not like I'm thinking she's into me or something that would be embarrassing

"it looks disgusting"

"hmph I didn't want to know your opinion"

you asked for it....we both started chuckling since none of us was serious.

and so the four of us-

"wait...where is Suzuki?"

"I buried her"

Ah, I guess I'll go back to pick her up later, anyway

the four of us finished our long day and returned to our home,I really enjoyed it.