She picked up that knife

She went on her phone and was scrolling the internet and saw something about self harm for depression. 'What is this about' she thought. There was blood on the persons arm and it looked so… intriguing. 'I want to try' she thought. She went to the kitchen and pulled out the kitchen knife. No one was home so she wasn't afraid of getting caught. She took the knife to her skin and made a cut on her fingertip just to test it out. She widened her eye and thought ' why do I feel numb when I supposed to feel pain?' You see she had been feeling this way for a while she wanted to relive herself of pain. To become numb. Little did she know that this would become the new source of her pain later on.

The next day she was feeling depressed again so when no one was home she went to the kitchen again and grabbed the knife again and this time she cut her arm. And then she cut her arm again, she went back to her room with an expressionless face and sat down on her bed. Later that day was a dermatologist appointment. She did the depression screening test but this time she decided to be truthful. Her mom, the doctor were shocked to see such a high score. A few minutes later they called in a social worker. The social worker talked to her and then send her to the emergency room to be assessed again for suicidal ideation and intent. She waited not too long fortunately and was called in the assessed her and confirmed that she would stay in the CAPS for at least 3 days. Unfortunately she had got Covid and and to stay in confinement for those 3 days. She went home and was fine for a few days. Her mom had been distraught seeing that her daughter had to go to CAPS but when she had returned home her mom was fine much to her relief.

A few days later she was on her bed, alone with her thoughts. 'I want to self harm. I want to die. No one cares. That's not a surprise since no one cared from the beginning.' She thought. She went to her table and grabbed something from there. The knife had been taken away obviously so she would use these instead. She went into the bathroom an on her left arm made cuts all the way to the top.

The next day was a meeting for therapy in other words it was the intake appointment. When the the person interviewing the girl asked the mom to leave the room the girl showed her left arm after asking some questions. It was full of cuts. Again it was a trip to the emergency room and then she went to CAPS.

This time she didn't have Covid so she could go to the normal group stuff. She met her roommate and a day after they met they had become close and the created a plan. They were going to perform for these staff. The we're going to pretend that they were having a breakdown and start getting violent. Why you ask, for the fun of it. First was the roommate the roommate tarted by throwing things then her part was to tell the staff outside what was going on. She would then somehow get mad for a reason and then once the roommate was under control she would start hitting the walls.

It wasn't working the way they had planned so she decided to start throwing chairs around. This finally alerted them and they tried to stop her but she fought them off. One guy pinned her to the ground with her hands behind her back. She struggled and managed to get him off that's when they called security.