Chapter 40

Disclaimer: This is a translation of the Chinese novel 瞎娘娘 by 洗泥 > Translator: @Luxiufer

Xiao Bao came out from the inner room carrying the porcelain bowl. Worryingly said: "Master still refused to eat, Little Prince, please help to try to persuade him."

Rui Ze lowered his head, carefully and cautiously, he entered the inner room, went to the Blind Concubine's side.

The Blind Concubine's face was ghastly pale without any blood color. His eyes were hollow without any will to live. The jade hairpin which he used to bind his hair had gone missing. His dispersed hair was scattered to the both side of his cheek. His whole appearance resembled someone who had lost their mind.

Rui Ze stretched his soft and fair little hand, lightly caressed his face, getting his own face to inch closer, nearly pressed his nose to his face. Softly said: "I am sorry."

The Blind Concubine was staring blankly, his eyes were void and at a loss.

Rui Ze placed his forehead to lightly touch the face of The Blind Concubine which was cold as if without temperature, "I am sorry. It was me who was at fault."

"If you want to blame, just blame me."

"Don't be like this, alright?"

He was still a child, he didn't have any knowledge about what exactly had happened. Also, there wasn't anyone who dared to tell him.

He was still thinking that the Empress Dowager loved and endeared him. It was his own wrong doing. He was blaming himself. He only could apologize clumsily, at a loss of what to do.

The Blind Concubine slowly lifted his head, there was a layer of mist on his empty eyes. Afterwards, the tears gradually formed, accumulating more and more, becoming a pool in his eyes.

He couldn't see Rui Ze's brimming with tears eyes, Rui Ze's teary face.

Xiao Bao said that Rui Ze was like a small rice dumpling. Round like a ball. The robe he was wearing was of the finest silk and satin material. Running around happily and merrily.

After hearing this, he couldn't help but love him.

His love for Rui Ze, and his love for Yu Li, was all the same.

Although he was unable to see, the portion of his love not even the slightest amount could be lessened.

He couldn't blame Rui Ze. He could only blame himself.

If not for his existence, Rui Ze wouldn't have to encounter this kind of misfortune in his early age.

Being born in a Royal family, if he truly had to suffer this kind of incident sooner or later, he wished that it would come later, later in the far future.

The Blind Concubine with much difficulty lifted his arm, he took Rui Ze's small body into his embrace, firmly hugged him.

He gently touched Rui Ze's cold little face. His fingers came across the cold water stain on that face.

The Blind Concubine stretched his shaking and trembling hand, wiped away the tears on Rui Ze's small face.

"I don't blame you."

"I just hate my own self, it was me who wronged you."

His stomach was billowing , opening his mouth to vomit. However, he hadn't eaten for several days, his stomach was empty. Unable to throw up.

Gasping to pacify his breathing, he hugged Rui Ze even tighter.

He had lost Yu Li, he couldn't afford to lose Rui Ze and Xiao Bao.

The Imperial Palace was a very dangerous place after all.

Seven years ago it was like this, would it still remain like this for the next seven years.

He initially did not believe that in this gloomy and cold Imperial Palace a sincere feeling would exist.

He took the great pain to gain something by approaching the Emperor, he even had sacrificed his own honor. He only thought about getting the Emperor's temporary favor, so he could send Xiao Bao out of the Palace.

Unexpectedly, the Empress Dowager expelled him from the Capital. Even General Qi was involved and punished because of him. Now, even Yu Li was also had gone.

He almost harmed Rui Ze.

The Blind Concubine closed his eyes. From his throat, a burst of sweet and fishy smell roused.

He honestly wanted to leave this place.

The more he thought about it, the more his heart was seized like being twisted.

Ever since that day, seven years ago, since his eyes were never able to see anymore.

He would never forget the person who trampled and blinded his eyes. Forever.

He buried his hatred and grudged in the deepest part of his heart. Putting on an indifferent expression on his face. An Expression without wave nor billow.

Once in a while, he would put on a smile.

The hatred in his heart did not lighten the slightest bit. Instead, it had become more and more deeper.

The overwhelming hatred almost drowned him, making his pair of eyes soak in the red color of blood.

He already couldn't see anything.