The alternative me who is happy

Sitting at the edge of the rooftop, I wonder have I ever been happy?

Has there been a moment where I didn't feel like I was forced to do something?

I had asked my self this cuestions for most of my life.... I never found the answer to this cuestions

But now that i'm sitting rigth here, whit the only thought in my head being dead, I have finally found the answer, and it was so simple, but so dificult to find do to all the things that have happen to me

I was happy during my childhood....During the time where no mater how many things happen I wouldn't get affected, my parents didn't have so much expectacions on me

But that was definitelly something that I could never go back to.......

So knowing this.... now I could finally jump, whitout any regrets, becouse I knew in this life I would never be happy

(Gets up)

(My life flashes before my eyes.................................

How I was as a childe....... my parents fights...... how my friends used me and replesed me... how my only relathionship turned out to be a bet.... my parents disaprobale on my dreams..... getting kicked out of the house becouse of my sexual orentation and not wanthing to do what they wanted to do..........)

Well I guess this is the end.... the end of my suffering

{I look down at the city for one final time}

(Closes eyes)

{Jumps}

Wille falling I ask my self one final cuestion, which I didn't think would mater anymore

........Is there an alternative me who maneged to be happy?

{My body hit the floor whit a loud thud }

{I could hear the peoples screaming in horror, but I couldn't move an inch of my body nor could I talk or even move my mouth... }

{My head hurts, I thougth, I can feel blood dripping down my head

I'm starttig to feel dissy....hehe I guess I really am dying hehe.......}

I wish that I'm at least happy in my next life......}