Zeyden

"Is it people don't understand me or is it I don't understand people?"

Zeyden was always asking this question to himself even though there's no sign he will get the answer. 

He was walking home from school alone, not wanting to look at anyone anything. Staring blankly at his walking feets. There was not a single day he wants to go to the school neither he wants to stay home. 

The world feels as if he doesn't belong here. He belongs somewhere far away. He doesn't want to get close to people neither wants to be alone. He wanted to feel loved but not ready to love yet. He pray daily but isn't sure if he believes in God or not. 

He was tired of these loop days where he wake up, eat something so he won't starve, go to school where he have no one to have fun with and return home questioning his existence, having dinner cause mom say so and sleeping. 

Some cars and scooters were passing by as he was going home. He look up and saw a mother dog and her little puppy walking on streets. 

Maybe if he was a dog he could've live better, if not good at least not like this. At this point he was jealous of dog lives. He doesn't want to live neither he have courage to kill himself hoping someday will come and he is too young to give up. 

He again stare at his walking feets and lost in thoughts he don't even know what is he really thinking. 

The dog was walking and the puppy was running with so much joy watching him would make you energetic well zeyden in exceptional. 

A black, expensive car came in full speed drove on puppy. The puppy scream in pain and shout more making noise. 

Zeyden heard the puppy screaming and take a look behind him. He saw a car stepping on puppy. 

"Hey... Stop.. Stop the car"

He ran toward the car. Instead of backing off the car, the driver panic and drove the car up the puppy and the puppy was totally crashed. His inner organs were shattered here and there, blood was flowing like there was a big explosion. No way anyone would recognize it as a dog at first glance. 

The mother dog came running and start jumping and walking around her baby body as there was nothing she could do. 

The car stop for some second, little far from dead puppy. 

"Don't stop, let's leave. It's just street dog. There are no owner. We'll just get into unwanted trouble", the driver wife who was sitting beside him said. Applying her lipstick, holding her heart shaped hand mirror. 

The husband didn't say anything and start the car. 

" hey!... Stop the car! Stop! Don't go puppy is dead"

Zeyden ran behind car but it was futile anyway so he stop. He wish he had some super power so he could stop them or maybe save the puppy before anything happen. 

"They didn't even look back... Oh puppy"

The was still walking around his dead baby, crying. She was sad and she was crying. 

"What should we do?"

Although he doesn't understand anyone. Zeyden is still kindest guy anyone could find. He don't want to get close with anyone but he still want to be kind and nice to everyone thought that's the reason his life is fucked up. 

"But... ", driver look at mirror, at zeyden. 

" but what..?", now she was wearing mascara. 

"No.. Nothing", glance at window mirror again. " huhh?"

The dog was running after car, barking very loudly. He increase the car speed. Cause of sudden speed mascara got all over lady face and poked her eyes. 

"WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU DOING?", she said very furiously. 

He glance at mirror again. " what..?"

"slow down the car! I poked my eyes!", her voice was all shaky. 

" I can't, the dog-"

He was about to take a glance once again but it was too late. Now the dog already enter inside the car from window direct into his lap. 

"WHAT THE FUCK?"

"SORRY.. SORRY.. AHHH"

THE dog scratch them on face one by one giving both of them chance and ran into their lap. 

"Heyy.. Watch the car... Car..! "

The car hit the wall. 

Zeyden pick the puppy body and take a close look. 

"It dead."

A middle aged man who was passing by saw puppy and zeyden. 

"Hey kid leave that disgusting thing there. Some people will come and clean it"

"Yeah.", he smile at the man and man just leave. 

He took the puppy toward forest area and dig. After digging and covering the puppy inside he close his eyes and pray. The dog was beside him laying on her baby grave with tears. 

" are you sad?" He said patting dog. "yeah.. Me too"

"What are you sad for?" Familiar voice said from behind but zeyden couldn't exactly recognize only by his voice and he look back.