Ch. 1

The slight light from the midday Sun slipping through the window to point abrasively at he's eyes that woke him. He was laying in a hospital bed wrapped in enough bandages that moving proved to be to monumental to accomplish so soon from waking.

Denial was the first thought to scream through the fog of sleep. Followed closely by fear and panic. His breathing starting to speed up as a early sign of a panic attack coming to fruition.

" Get it together Nic your going to be okay"

But he knew he was lying to himself. Even if this wasn't some kind of dream or delusion, and he wasn't actually sitting in a padded room right now strapped in a strait jacket ( which would coincide with the bandages hindering movement). That meant he had somehow ending up merging with some no name background character in a anime.

He was never going to see he's parents, sister or anyone else that he loved. Sure he was going through a rough patch at the moment. Depression hitting hard and seemingly lost in life after quitting he's job and moving back to his hometown with he's parents at 28, but he wasn't ready to give it up yet. If there was one thing from all the stories about what has happened to him there is almost no way back, and if there was it will take a lifetime to find. Even then the probability that the outcome would be good after doing so I.e no time had past for them( not however long it took home to return) then he would have to leave behind any new loved ones here but reconcile everything that had happened to him without being thrown in a looney bin. Again if he wasn't in one already. Those kinds of things never really seem to work out.

Along with that he also has the memories of Nic from this world. Being raised by his grandfather, going to school and making friends, learning to protect the village and gaining his headband as proof that he had what it took to follow in the footsteps of his patented that he never new.

The stories make it seem easy. 'Oh look at that I've reincarnated/transmigrated/isekia. Cool! Time to become the strongest do what I want!'

Yeah right! Sure reading those stories a persons daydreams and thinks what they would do, but the realty is another thing altogether. It makes a person question everything they ever new about life and the universe. Religion now has a faint question mark on it. Discounting the existential crisis there's the blind terror of questioning sanity and everything around you.

Slap! " Come on Nic your falling down the rabbit whole" deep breath in deep breath out.

'Okay so if I don't want to turn catatonic I need to work through this and figure it out. Just keep the freak outs to mini sizes and sporadic until I have a handle on this.'

The door slowly opens just in time for Nic to have pulled himself out of his downward mental spiral.

"Hello glad you are awake. Let me check your bandages real quick then I can fetch a doctor to give you a run down in your condition. We are still swamped but luckily it has slowed down the last few day" gently says the sweet looking nurse that walked in.

I slowly nod my head in acknowledgment as she looks me over while blabbering on about what has happened and how about how long I was in a coma.

I drifted off to sleep with one part of wishing I'd wake up back in earth while, but both wished that the events that happened were all just a nightmare. Sadly neither side got their wish.

I was released a day later. Strangely my grandfather never showed up to check on me. The worry about him added on to everything else that was worming itself inside me. Hurrying to our house I was relieved to see it standing up until I got past our neighbor Granny Ce. She was close friends with my grandfather and as soon as she saw me she rushed to me crying.

Tears started falling down my face as we hugged each other and went to our knees. I cried not just for my grandfather of this world, but for my family and loved ones from earth. After a while she told me that she checked on grandfather after the attack and found him on the floor. He had died from a heart attack caused from the massive amount of killing intent that the demon fox gave out.

I thanked her for telling me and stumbled into my home that was both strange and familiar at the same time. Again I fell to my knees crying over everything that I have lost.

Now, now I was truly only in this terror filled word. At this moment the merge completed it wasn't two peoples memories in one body but one person with strange memories of two life's. They were one person and the were all alone.