The play I

It's Monday, and things are really awkward between me and Julia. We tried to talk like nothing happened, but things didn't went like we wanted.

At first, things looked like going well, but at some point I could hear my heart tearing apart.

It's really hard pretending nothing happened, when I talk with her, I only think about getting my hand on hers, but I know it won't happen, so I need to do my best, so I can forget about her.

She called me to McRonalds after class, but I said I'd not go, if a keep at her side I'll never overcome this feeling. So I said that I would be busy with a new scene, and as the play day is getting closer each day I need to focus on it.

— But, if you want, you should come and see the play. I'm sure you'll enjoy it. — I said, but I was feeling guilty saying this.

— Course, you can count me in. — Her big, innocent smile while saying this made my heart skip a beat.

It's really childish, but I called her knowing that she'd see me kissing someone else, even if it's fake, and I wanted to see her reaction. Maybe, if she sees it, she may realize she likes me.

While I was waling in the aisle, I met Jessie, going to the acting club, so I called her.

— Hey, Jessie. — I said, running, until I got at her side.

— Ho, Mr. No kissing, you're following me? — She said, fear and playfulness mixed in her voice.

— This time your acting isn't going to work on me. — I said with triumphing eyes.

— Actually, I wanted to talk with you about the scene. — I said, my voice wasn't afraid anymore, it's just a professional thing, even if I'm not professional yer, but I need to be prepared to the day I'll be.

— Ok, we should find a place and talk about it. — She said, then walked towards a classroom that had its door open.

I followed her, she sat on the teacher desk, and I sat by her side. I wanted to tease her. She didn't seem embarrassed, so I didn't move away.

We kept talking about some details, about the rule of 'no tongue' during the kissing scene, and I strongly agreed.

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Since that day, feels awkward when I try to talk with Lee, every time I ask if he's busy with something he says that he's practicing a new scene to the play. I hope that after the play, we can be as we were before.

I was going to my house, walking the aisle, but I saw Lee. I tried to run to talk with him, but when I was about to do it I saw him with another girl, I didn't see her face, but she looked pretty, even when I only saw her back.

They were having fun, I couldn't hear it out, but I'm sure that they are laughing right now. I don't know why, but my heart felt like it'd crack. My mouth got a bitter taste, looking at them, is it jealousy?

I don't know why, but I followed them, they went to a classroom, and sat side by side. They were talking so smoothly, seemed like he had already forgotten me. I don't even like him, so why am I feeling this?

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Weeks passed in a blink of an eye. Finally, today is the day of the play. I've been practicing this whole time with Jessie, my acting didn't level up, but I feel like I'm close. I'm really confident, we did our best, so it will be a nice play.

— Mom, don't forget, you should be there at 8 p.m, you'll see your son on stage for the first time, so don't be late. — I said and run, full of excitement about today.

In the morning, everything that I did was reading the script. I know every word of the script, but became a habit reading it.

When the class ended, I went straight to our school theater, as soon as I got there I saw Jessie.

We became really close, we spent a lot of time practicing together, so I think it's obvious we would be friends. This time I learned my lesson, I don't think about her as anything than a friend.

We talked a bit about what we wanted to be in the future, we didn't talk about the play, as we practiced so much, we were trying to cool our heads before the play.

Julia and I got back as we used to be, but every time I went to practice she looked upset, probably I'm overthinking it. I'm glad that we are not in that awkward atmosphere, like before.

My feelings for her are cooling down as the time passes, and I'm only seeing her as a friend.

Sometimes I still get lost looking at her and think about asking her out again, but I won't, if she doesn't demonstrate any feeling about me, I'll just hide my feelings deep in my heart.

Some time latter, I walked to the stage and looked at the empty places, that soon will be full. Why full? The hole school is coming, because Brian's family is a huge patron of the school.

I breathe out to exhale all my anxiety and fears, this will be the beginning of my story, not only my story, but many stories that will gain life through me.

I got back to the backstage, changed my clothes to a Greek tunic, It's exactly what you imagine Zeus would dress.

Jessie was changing her clothes too, but I hadn't time to see how she'd be with the clothes, I had to go to the stage.

I confidently walked to the stage, using my skill to have a body language that exhales overconfidence and arrogance.

— Many eons ago, I was not a god, I went through many things in my human life. — I said, looking to apparently nothing, but I was looking to the past.

With this, they play begun.