Story of an Introvert

People say you learn to socialize from a very young age from your family. Then you grow up & go to different places & learn new things from new people who are not your family. You enjoy to be with those new people. As you grow older you add more "mew people" in that list. You create memories with them. You enjoy those long conversations with those new people. Well, fortunately or unfortunately I didn't experience anything like this .

I grew up in a middle class household. My parents are the pillars of this household. They are nice and protective and everything. One thing that was missing in them as parents is the virtue of building a. healthy relationship with their child. No, they didn't forget to give me food 3 or more than 3 time a day. They didn't forget to buy me clothes, They didn't forget to give me a roof on my head. They also didn't forget to provide for my education. But one thing they forgot to give me was a friendly relationship with them. Now you may think "that is not a basic need". Yes this isn't a basic need of a human. At least this is what the society knows. But when you start to feel lonely in a house full people you know , when you can't share a great thing that happened to you with those people even when you want to, when you can't seek for help from those people, when you forget to express real feeling you definitely feel a need for a friendly relationship. This need seems more important than food, clothes etc. But then again you think "I'm just overreacting. There are so many people who doesn't have foods clothes & all the basic needs that I have ". And forget about the need. But there's always a void inside you that's eating you alive everyday.

When you get out of home you expect to build that " friendly relationship " with other people. You try to seek for help from other people. You try to express your feelings to other people. But Oops! ..... you don't know how to do that. And the time for you to learn about these things has gone. You see a person sitting beside you talking to a stranger with no hesitation. Laughing with that person like he/she knows that person for ages but they just met few minutes ago. You see your classmate who's sitting beside you in class sharing their feelings that they have for a guy with her friend in such a calm way. You see your classmates getting friendly with teachers & they get attention form teachers. But you don't know how to do these things. But hold on, they has food in their table everyday, they have plenty amount of clothes in their closet, they have a nice house . You have all these things too... but what is the thing that is missing from your life because of which you can't do all these things like they do.