Chapter 3: BAD BREAKING NEWS

The next day I pretend to be sick .

Momma: Darling ( as she opens the door) you just overslept

Alexa: Momma, am having period cramps ( as I put on a show )( I put my hands on my tummy and hold on to it tightly as if I was under some serious pain.)

Momma: ( Puts her hands on mine) Shhhh! everything will be fine Loves, I will tell your friends to cover.....(I interject)

Alexa : Momma ,don't

Momma: But they are you friends

Alexa: Exactly why I don't want them worried

Momma: If you say so , I've gotta go baby , take care and if it gets worse ,just call me .

Alexa : Okay,love you

( She replies hurriedly and walks away. Sincerely speaking,I was not in the mood to see my friends .

{ Who even flirts with their friends crush}

After mum leaves ,I do some chores then proceed to watch some new Movie I had heard about " Sierra Burgess Is A Looser".

Alexa : Maybe am Just like Sierra ,a sore looser.( After watching half of the movie ) I still don't get how she's a loser, she's a genius ,,I mean after reading all those books ,, she's just a philosopher ... is it because she just pretended to be dumb ...anyway we have one thing in common...

( Right at the moment the door is opened slowly ,I can't see anyone just someone sobbing)

Alexa: That's strange ( as I stand and walk towards the door ,the scene is so heartbreaking)Momma , what's wrong ?? Momma ,please talk to me ,tell me something ( she says nothing, I don't know what to do next .I just sit side beside her and after sometime she breaks the silence.)

Momma: It's gra.....grandpa (sobs) ( I look at her waiting for her to finish her statement) He's..... he's no more.....

Alexa: Whaaa...at! ( in a breaking voice)

[ Ever since I was young ,this is the first time am loosing someone so close to me . A sharp piercing pain goes through my heart it's like it just stopped and at the same it's like I was out of breath ,I felt like screaming but my throat was dry ,tears flowing, I couldn't utter a single word to comfort her and clearly that's what she needed . The pain I felt Is one of a kind ,, a kind that I had never felt before. It's like I was paralyzed for sometime because trust me I can't tell how we got to the house .The next I recall is when I was in my senses and I was with Dad, Momma and my bro .

Alexa : Momma, momma ( I wake up with my hand around my head ,I was having a severe headache)

Dad: Shhhh! relaaax my child , you'll be fine .

Alexa: ( crying) Daaa..d ..grand ...pa ...

Dad: All shall be well ,,

Alexa :Paaa....my heaaad ( and I passed out again,the next time I was coming back to my senses was in the middle of the night.I did alot of straining to be back to my actual senses.Later I walked down to the kitchen slowly because I was weak. I poured myself a glass of milk and sat by the kitchen counter staring at my grandpa's photos. I swiped from left to right ,from one picture to the next , from sorrow to more sorrow ,pain to pain .I couldn't control my tears .

{ I grew up knowing you , as my only grandpa .You were my source of joy and strength.You were my advisor. You were always there for us ,.life will be different and empty without you ,R.I.P Grandpa.}

( I posted one of the videos we were with him , singing and captioned it 'REST EASY'. Soon there were many people replying to my story ' May his soul rest in peace , Sorry for your lose ,take heart ,all shall be well .' )

( Sincerely speaking I never knew what to say , should I say Thank you ,Amen for those who said May his soul R.I.P. or was I to tell them how much I broken , how I had spent my last days with him and he assured me that all shall be well. Instead of drinking the milk ,I just sat there restless, crying, staring at his pictures and it hit maybe I wasn't angry at all. I went to my room and cried myself to bed , Coco's call woke me up at around 5.)

Coco: Heeey , how's you fairing on? Am sorry for the lose bbg.( I began crying again)

Alexa: Cee ,, Grandpa's....no more

Coco: shhhh! calm down babes , you'll be fine ( I spent sometime explaining how he assured me that all was well before I heard Kiara from the background)

Kiara : Is that Alexa ?

{ wait ,they are having a sleepover without me ? I was absent but they never came to see me }

Kiara : Am sooo sorry girl for the lose. We will be there in the morning

Alexa : No need ,I'll be travelling to my grandpa's in the morning

Coco: You can't go without saying goodbye,

Kiara : Exactly, when will you be back?

Alexa : Obviously after the burial.

Coco: That will be long ,but we will be calling you every night

Alexa : I bet that will be more comforting.( Call disconnected)So this biitches are having some good time and they didn't even come to check.why I was never in school? ( I put my phone aside ,go to the shower , put on my heavy clothes as the weather is sooo cold ,I pack a few of my things and by a half past we were headed to grandpa's.)

( I really thought I was miserable till I saw grandma , you could clearly tell she was in shock , weak , cried the whole night and had no sleep at all. After momma hagged her ,I approached her and gave her a tight hug. That night I was so sleepy, I switched off the phone and slept.I woke up at a quarter to nine in the morning. The first thing I did was to switch on my phone . There were so many voicemails but Coco's and Kiara's were many. I called back ,they were already in school

Coco : Hey ,you kept us worried ,what happened

Alexa : Hey guys how are you ,(as I rub my face)

Kiara : You just woke up ? ( I nod) So hows everything there ?

Alexa : All is well , but painful

Coco: We understand. When's the burial ?

Alexa : Am not sure yet. I'll tell you once I know. Bye talk later

Coco and Kiara : Bye ,love you

( Later on Momma told me and my bro that the burial was in two days time. On the day of the burial we were all in church. We were in white ,all of us. I mean that person laying in that casket is an angel . I stood in front of him , knowing that even if I called him , even if I shouted his name or called out for his help he won't and will never respond physically.Even if I moved him ,he won't Move. He won't get out to wipe my tears , he won't advise me on what to do next , life was so empty without Him. Later after mass , his body was taken to the graveyard and burried . The pain I felt on the day he passed away I felt it once more .When he was being lowered I felt a sharp piercing pain in my heart , I was out of breath ,my throat was dry... I didn't pass out luckily,but one of my aunties did . )

After the burial , we stayed at grandma's for another two days before going back home. I was so happy to be home .The Next was on Monday and Dad had to go back to his place of work and Bro had to go back to school,same to me. )

( Both my friends were happy to see me ,so was I .After classes we headed to our chilling spot, Kiara's place. As we got in ,her mum,Kassandra, was leaving

Kassandra: Loves all will be well, when people die, they live in our heart's,they protect us and give us warning. ( I smile gently) Kiara ,I will be home late .( she walks away. Almost immediately, Marvin walks in)

Marvin: Heey , darling (Kiara smiles at him and goes to hug him)

Kiara: Boo bear, I missed you ( she throws her ams around his neck and he puts his arms around her waist ,they maintain a 5-second eye contact and them kiss.)( It was so painful , unbearable,I felt betrayed , I felt like someone had stabbed me right through my heart and pulled the knife away, at the same time it was like someone had just added more salt to my fresh cuts. I felt weak and dizzy all over sudden ,I held my head with one hand and the other I placed it on the counter. Coco noticed and came to my rescue. She helped me to sit .

Coco : Heey, relaaax, breeeath in ,( 3 seconds pass) now out( I exhaled the negative energy but it approached me this time as human beings.The two love birds notice and turn to us. At least they stopped fornicating before my eyes)

Kiara : Bbg ,what just happened here ,should I get a glass of water ?

Marvin : Can a pair of extra hands help ?

( Deep in my head there's this voice that wants to say to him' ,{ asshole you rejected me coz you had eyes on my BFF. } that wasn't necessary but I gave them a piece of my mind)

Alexa : For starters I'm not thirsty, secondly get your filthy hands of me (though she was shocked she pulled her arms away from my hand ) and for you ( as I turned to Marvin) Who do you think you are ? offering a pair of extra hands ? oooooh Mother Teresa , or is St.Johns Ambulance,,or Did you just assume the form of the First Aid Kit...

( Everyone was shocked , including me .)

Marvin: What's that supposed to mean ? ( before I could tell him to ask his girlfriend, Coco interrupted)

Coco: Marvin ,you have to excuse us this is an emergency ( he didn't oppose , and his girlfriend never stopped him.He Gabe her a kiss on the forehead and walked out)

Coco : What was all that?

Alexa : How to deal with Judas's right on the spot.

Kiara : I can explain

Alexa : As you can see am not one of the new customers in your store who's lost , and am not blind ,I can clearly see and tell things right from (mimicking Marvin) someone's reading some steamy shit , right to am not in school and you never bother to a sleepover right on time a burial which gives you more time to bond and ( to Coco) cover up the whole story .

Coco : You really want to blame us , didn't you say you had no crush on him? ( that was right ,but wait that's not true)

Alexa : I didn't say that.i never agreed to your thoughts of crushing on him coz you were being too much.

Kiara: I'm sorry , I can break with him( tears down her cheeks)

Alexa : ( I walk away from the counter when one of the customers approaches) Had this been some witch story , I'd be the good witch and you two could make the Evil Wizard.. Apologize to yourselves not me ( I walked away but I kinda heard what the customer said when he got to the counter)

Customer: That was intense .

( Immediately I closed those.doors I did regret what I said ,I never knew where to go .But deep down I had a comforting voice { it's nice to be Evil.} With that I walked away smiling)