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So Will I

"Going to jump off...!!" "No" "Then, what...? you here for fishing at this hour, in that position…!! "…." "That night., whenever I think about it, it never fails to amaze me. I wonder how I ended up at the edge of the bridge." A mumbling voice escaped from a mouth as that person stretches his arms and scratch his wrist. "All I knew was a massive headache caused by all those excessive alcohol. But maybe it was what people say, "Fate"! This is the story between 20 yrs old Kim Newmoon who is a confused extreme overthinker and a cold, detached, and reserved personality Lee Haemin who doesn't give a damn about people, and things...happened to get entangled strangely by fate one night. However, Both of them had a lingering past that they are prisoners of. As the saying goes, 'the present is the outcome of the past', Will they ever be free from the past? Will they ever embrace their true selves? Will, they ever be successful in unfolding every trivial secret that lies beneath their dark past? Or surprisingly got more tangled with it? And last but not least or the love between them unaware of? Note= Guys this is going to be a slow-burn romance. I hope you will not avoid and stay with me on my journey.

Mipany · LGBT+
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Chapter=10(Thank god at least you knew that!)

"Unfortunately I have already deleted the whole messages..no, to be honest, deleted the whole social media as well!"

"?"

"yaa, if you want to lie then at least lie in a certain way that makes sense! what's up with the lame excuses if you don't wanna send just say s-

"I don't wanna ..now happy?"

Newmoon denied straightly.

"Such a cold-hearted, just over a screenshot you- pulling out such huge drama and bragging out!"

"No matter what you say or do. I won't mean I won't!"

Newmoon stubbornly denied it as he thought, "I don't want to show it to you. It feels like I'm just showing you so that you could feel you owe me or something similar. I hate this kind of feeling! yeah, I indeed did it for your sake, even add some sugarcoating things just like you ordered me to but what I told there also contains some truth that I don't want to you know!"

"Mr. foodie is the most loyal person I have ever come up to interact with!"

And also picking out how he spilled the truth, Newmoon would better choose to die up than share it!

"Woah! Look at certain someone whose courage has grown up like a huge tree in a while."

Newmoon could feel the grit through his teeth,

"Alright alright, I will let you go only this time because of the fact I owe you!"

"Thank god at least you knew that!"

"Ok then, I will get ready for class, Talk to you later!"

"Haha, Come to think of it, you have become our junior you know that? And I am your senior!"

Mr. foodie surely was enjoying every second.

"…"

"Hmph! Serves you right though! Who told you to let yourself-

"- Mr.foodie I'm getting late! I'll hang up first! Take care! Bye"

He threw the phone randomly over the bed and then goes for a shower.

Shaa~Shaa~ Shaa~

With a 'Shaa~Shaa' Newmoon stood still, facing the gray pattern of the wall, water sliding across his body with two hands laying on the wall.

One drop of water sprinkled on his forehead out of nowhere. Slowly and swiftly it rolled down his eyebrows eventually marking its territory to the way down his eyelids.

Newmoon stared still, not blinking even once...dazed out in the abyss.

"Hmph, serves you right though! Who told you to?

As if it's in a loop a Newmoon's mind was constantly roaming around Mr. foodie's words, again and again.

The drop of water finally became heavier to the point he had to blink it.

For a split second, it almost gave an illusion that it was his tears rather than the drop of water.

~~~

He went out and stood in front of the bus station. There was already a long queue almost looking like a colony of ants waiting for a bus. Usually, it wouldn't look like that but,

"Woah, what the- It's more like a-

He looks around suddenly as if he was searching for something,

"Is there any concert going on around..or secretly black market is re-opening again? Why are there so many?"

His footsteps slowly stopped before he could dissipate himself into the crowd.

His small little finger starts to shake.

Subconsciously his footsteps backed up on their own. And stood a couple of few miles away. He tried to make it natural and avoid certain eyes and attention pretending to sure act normal and not weird.

As if his wish got heard by god, He suddenly got a phone call.

Without looking he instantly picked it up before even it could even get a chance to ring fully!"

"Hello"

"Woah, now this is what I called sprits! Haha did I hit the sore spot earlier that bad to a point you're picking up the phone in one shot! Rest assured I won't speak evil or curse things like that-

"- yaa, It's no use of sugarcoating me I have already deleted the conversation for real."

"oh! Do I sound like one?"

Mr. foodie argued as if he was wrong.

"I don't even wanna know anymore okay?"

Newmoon's heart thumped a bit and he questioned back instantly. A cold sweat sparkled over his forehead.

"Why? Did she tell you?"

Now that he realized the fact that until morning Mr. foodie's girlfriend surely didn't open his mouth about the conversation proving a little bit of honesty and dependability. That's how he thought until then..but now??

"Hell no! How could she say.., she confessed the same as yours. which adds more fuel to my curiosity. Just what you two discussed? So secretly that you won't share me? She did tell me in summary but not much."

"HAA!"

Newmoon let out a long sigh of relief whispering to himself underneath, "Till the end, she chained her mouth. she indeed knows how to keep a secret...!"

"I know you two must have made out a deal regarding it huh?

As he was talking deep on his phone and losing in his thoughts too while on the other side the bus came, students entered like crazily and left. All he could only see was the tail of the bus when he looked around.

However, he was speechless. If the timing would fall on the other occasion he would probably be losing his shit but the fact he was secretly relieved that he missed the bus.

Why? Because the reasons were short and simple.

Too many persons!!

Finally, he could stand at the bus station now. Alone and much more peaceful. He doesn't even care about the timing of the class. He had a mindset that has been installed from childhood like it's okay to be absent and late during the first few days of the class or semester cause either way students wouldn't be there too!!

He jumpily sat on the bench with a wide smile that almost showed the entire white teeth along with the gums of the side mouth too!!

While on the phone a constant shouting of Mr. foodie could be heard.

"Yaa yaa, no need to shout man. I am right here! Just recently missed the bus while being busy talking to you!"

"ooh. Serves you right! You only have to use your mouth to talk over the phone. Where were your eyes?"

Hearing the second sentence, his expression faltered at once.

He couldn't believe what he heard now!

"My my you traitor!"

"Call me whatever you want but the fact is true!"

If you observe it more dearly then he wasn't wrong though. It's entirely his fault. However or not?

Before Newmoon could take time to analyze the situation and run into the deep roots Mr. foodie spoke immediately.

" oh, btw I wanted to ask why you didn't say your name to her?"

"Give me one reason why should I? To a stranger? To somebody's gf? My work was to communicate with her about you and I did! My Job finished at that moment on! You say what's the use of it-

"- Haha I know right that's why I tell her on behalf of you!"

"…"

"I mean I saw there were no reasons to hide it.. you know so I randomly said your real name!"

Not even Acebook profile's name but instead real name? What was he thinking back then?

Yeah, it was like a devastating scenario for him.

He ranged, "Yaa, why would you do that?"

"What do you mean why I did that? Wait why are you so hyped up for that? It's just a simple name she asked for! you don't have to make such a huge issue regarding that!"

Newmoon clenched his teeth and tried to hold himself. It was unknown to him why he was acting like that himself.

He inhaled and exhaled a long breath.

"You are one of the strange kind of men! getting worked up just for such trivial matters as a name! Anyway, I wanted to tell you-

"Mr.foodie, my bus has arrived. I'll go now. Talk to you later! Bye"

*BEEP*

"…"

His eyes drooped slowly as he sigh once again.

"Hmm..sometimes it never fails to amaze me.

"Anxiety, Overthinking, and insecurities get the best out of me!"

Ohh-!!

"That's a cool quote I just spilled out of nowhere! Gotta write it down so later on, I can transfer it on the Acebook profile!"

It didn't even take him a couple of seconds when he finished copying it down.

And when he finally lifted his head upwards..suddenly a sweet, relaxed familiar sweet fragrance hits his nose as the strong breeze flew from sideways. He only could slant his eyes to know where that smell was coming from!

A pair of black sneakers and gray long pants! He could only see that much.

Yeah to be true it didn't matter much even if he could look directly into that person's eyes but the fact Newmoon's anxiety was overpowering him during that period he was compelled to only stole the glance of the shoes and a little bit of lower outfit too.

"Somehow the smell is calming and slightly familiar too?? Should I ask what type of perfume that person used-?

"Over my dead body!"

There he goes fighting with his thoughts.

"-wait, For how long he was standing there? Did he listen-?

Before he could dive into his overthinking, the bus came and they both got in.

Newman's eyes widened a bit.

"Woah that person is too-

Before he could close his mouth a sudden stare of every single soul fell upon him.

"Wait not over me but him okay?"

The fact that person was behind him so, of course, he could feel that. However, Newmoon wasn't arrogant and knew his place more than anyone.

Within certain seconds, more eye gaze struck him. Looking around the maximum amount of people were girls whose heads were following that person. So one thing was for sure.

"It's a boy!"

It wouldn't have been that hard to acknowledge whether the person was a girl or a boy but the fact nowadays the world is growing rapidly and so does people's tastes upon fashion too. Therefore make it hard to distinguish people's gender on the behalf of their outfit.

Finally, Newmoon spot a seat and sat there.

"Woah windows seat hehe!"

Surprisingly Newmoon laughed at himself but that laughter didn't last long when he felt the body of a person sitting on his side of him.

This time he couldn't avoid it and had to look at that person.

As soon as he turned his head in a confused yet enthusiastic look, a bus moved forward causing the breeze to enter through the windows hardly.

Hair flew a bit sideways of Newmoon but it didn't affect much to his goals.

"…"

What he saw there really threw him into a pit hole. It caught him off guard.

A soft silky, milky-like feather hair fluttered over the forehead revealing his eyes back and forth. Just over his hair, Newmoon was already lost. Coming down over his eyes, double eyelids and an angelic way of looking down things captivated him. A long high bridge nose added a more mesmerizing appealing appearance and not to talk about lips too. For a low-key person like him, Whenever he encountered somebody who has a long high bridge nose, he naturally finds himself to be envious and crushing over their nose.

"Wait did he apply some rosy lip balm or is it natural?"

His thoughts began to whisper to him.

"Woah so thick! don't his lips ever get dry?"

For 2 minutes straight he kept on staring at him shamelessly.

Not knowing he was presenting himself as creepy unknowingly made the other person uncomfortable.

Again his gaze just couldn't leave his nose area.

However this time their eyes got caught.

"..."

And instantly as if nothing was wrong Newmoon swiftly turned his head around and faced towards windows.

"Newmoon are you a creep? It was okay to steal a glance if it was a girl but a boy-

"-wait- He scrunched his brows as If he felt something was wrong.

"Wouldn't I appear way creepier if she was a girl?"

"However, to some point, I guess It's okay to get taken aback by some handsome man's appearance too! Umm...Yeah, that's true!"

But-

Once again he naturally lifted his hands from the pocket and slowly but naturally he touched his nose and commented in his head,

"That nose is my ideal nose!"

He slid his nose bridge and pretended to rub it in front of others.

"Mine is super low and look at him..!"

Indeed Newmoon had a lower nose bridge and now compared to that person it felt even shorter than it already was.

Newmoon's heart sank.

"why life is so unfair hmm??"

*RING* *RING*

Newmoon became serious all of sudden when his eyes stuck on the screen.

It was non-other than Mr.foodie.

"…"

He turned silent.

~~~

The classroom scenario was the same. Hustle and bustle like a fish market. It had barely been one day and the whole students were patched up into a group like glue as if they have been best friends forever(BFF) for years and years.

Seeing it Newmoon could only sigh secretly like he have been doing for a long time.

Once again he sat in the same place.

Suddenly he recalled something.

"Go and visit the principal!"

"…"

He was almost about to get up but froze in the mid position.

"Hmph...Later on!"

Finally, he sat back.

Just when he was about to lay his head down on the bench he smelled the same sweet, soft fragrance out of blue.

"?"

"If I am not wrong then this familiar smell..from earlier-!"

And what was surprising, was the perfume getting more and more strong and more pleasant to smell as if somebody was approaching the same way.

Newmoon couldn't help but look up to that person!

Who would have known Newmoon wouldn't need to bother to move an inch for that.

With a short 'Shrug', That person dragged a chair and eventually sat on it just beside Newmoon.

Only then did Newmoon realize that the unknown person he had been encountering earlier was non-other than 'Haemin lee!"

'Haemin lee?'

Yeah, it is him. Yesterday he hadn't seen properly his face because of the fact he was neither wearing glasses nor an eye lens. But now he had seen more than enough to a point where he had crossed every boundary from coming together in the same seat, on the same bus to comparing his nose as well in zoom too. And now on the same side of the classroom?

"But as far as I am concerned didn't he wear glasses yesterday?"

No matter how he couldn't see the clear version of people's faces, still he could figure out their gender and overall more or fewer physics. And even in a blur of moments, he did notice that the topper 'haemin lee' were glasses?

So at least his eyes weren't that bad to the point where he couldn't know people's gender?

"It never crossed through my mind for a sec that- wait-!"

"Sh*t. How can I be this Foolish?"

Yeah. Of course, he could wear eye lenses instead of glasses.

"He must have had changed it because people gossip too much about it like following the stereotype of being the genius..ke ke..!"

Only by that time did he know why he was familiar with a fragrance too! Cause the smell was engraved in his subconscious mind!!

All of sudden Newmoon began to emit highly negative energy from himself, Lowkey at his assumptions and overthinking.

To a point, even haemin flinches secretly.

When he finally laughed secretly enough, he mumbled in all seriousness.

"God I have a feeling I won't be having a peaceful college life from now onwards!"

His eyes penetrated and were cold.

All of the entire girls' faces were turned back. Some use excuses to be near to haemin, while the rest of them as if they had known their place, low confident ones only satisfied their heart by stealing his glances every once in a while.

Here comes Newmoon's luck. He wanted to be far away from the spotlight and because of that he chose that spot but who would have known God would never leave his sight, loving him till death.

Newmoon lifted his chin and assured,

"God, don't love me more than this. I am fine the way I am,

This must be because of what I told way back at the Han- river!"

Not to mention that he had poured everything that he had been holding on to for a long time and complained and even cursed in front of god, naming god blah~blah~. So he thinks from that moment on he had been under the care of god's eyes.

"Woah! Haemin Oppa never fails me to be stunned. Look at him today he isn't wearing any glasses and he already looks more than an idol."

"Oii when did he become your Oppa? Give him some respect and space girl!"

The rumors and gossips were so loud that it was almost breaking the edge of the ceiling. And being crushed in the middle part of haemin and the girl's communication, Newmoon couldn't help himself but get distracted by the girl's chattering like how the other day he listened to the boy's jealous ramblings.

Now you can say it's the girl's turn now.

"Yaa! Let me, girl, At least I could say that to satisfy my heart. I know my place I can only be able to build the castle on the air. Even so, it's beautiful to admire him from a long miles away."

Newmoon,"…Woah..! today I learned something new. So, This sort of thing also happens in the girl's group hmm?"

As though Newmoon knew what he was thinking he shook his head in a way he wanted to woke up!

"Stop! What am I thinking huh?"

"Good morning everyone!"

Professor lim?

Thus, Professor entered the class. And thanks to that all the chattering flew down and the girls moved back to their respective places. Not to mention all of them returned. Some of them stubbornly sat across the haemin shamelessly.

Seeing that, Newmoon couldn't help himself but to wrinkled his mouth in disgust.