Prologue

Things didn't go great, not only did I lose the last piece of hope in my life as I stared down at the foreclosure notice on my mothers house. I now had to face the realization she will probably never come home. Watching someone wither away, knowing there were once full of life, They were once the biggest influence in your life and now they were reduced to skin and bone, bedsores and a machine breathing for them as the life slowly drained out of them, blood sucked. I thought for sure that will be the hardest day of my life when they rang to tell me there was nothing else they could do for her.

Yet I still held out hope, held onto the possibility no matter how slim it was that she would return to me, just wake up like nothing happened. Scrunching up the foreclosure notice, I toss it in the bin before adjusting the box tucked under my arm. I walked to the trunk of my car dropping my mother's alcohol stash in it. I couldn't leave it in the storage locker. No flammable liquids but I couldn't bring myself to throw it out either, mum loved a drink. I hated that she was a drunk but now I would give anything to see her with a drink in her hand while laughing and telling me stories. Sighing, I closed the trunk and hopped in my car looking at my childhood home one last time before saying goodbye to this part of my life. I was truly on my own.

Breathe, just breathe it's only temporary I told myself as I looked into the back of my cramped Honda civic. At least I still had my job and my health, even though that was dwindling away. As long as I could keep that I could remain normal I tell myself. Yet as I drove myself to work, Knowing afterwards I had nowhere to go to and am now officially homeless. I couldn't help but wonder if this was how my life will always be now.