Stunned by the hateful glare
If Su Wan wasn't afraid of ruining Lin Rui's farewell she would have sobbed like ugly sobbed until her eyes were swollen, but she couldn't. Shedding tears while saying goodbye wasn't a sign of good luck, so she hugged Lin Rui as tight as she could. Trying to put her feelings in this one hug until she would see him again when she was a kid she could never get the love of her mother and thus, she became a bit obsessed with the idea of a man loving her.
Which was why she jumped on Wang Tao's wagon at the slightest show of gentleness from him, she didn't even know him that well only two months and yet she handed him her entire life just because she thought he was kind to her. By the time she woke up from her obsession, she was an old woman in her thirties with a cheating husband on her back and lots of broken pieces of her heart that she had to pick up from the start.