what am I even doing
Theo
I felt like an idiot for acting like that with her. What was wrong with me? If she doesn't hate me. I hate me.
***
Theo has never been in love, he's never cared about a woman as more than a friend. He had flings and fun but always just that fun. They only wanted power or position or my looks. The women he'd slept with were shallow. But he was learning to feel for the first time.
***
Orion. She was different. Sure that could be the bond talking, but really. She was.
She didn't let her parents tell her what to do. She lived her life how she pleased accepting the consequences. That was rare. She seemed foolish at face value, but she's not she just has ideals that would seem naive and child like. It's good she's 133 basically 19 and still has those same ideals, unchanged by the world. That was brave something to be admired. And that power she had over me. In one conversation she almost had me on my knees begging just to hold her hand. She had me at my breaking point. I've never wanted anyone so much in my life.
Gods what was wrong with me? I'm pathetic. I've never had to beg for anything from a girl. They were always lining up for a chance. I've never met a girl who would run from me, let alone reject me. It was insane, but I was intrigued, excited even. I've always loved a challenge. Just you wait Orion. You weren't to be with me. Meant to be mine. You will be MINE.
The possessiveness is starting to show, I wonder how far we he will get with her.