[Thoughts About The Past…]

I was reincarnated as a dragon… I hit the jackpot in my new life. Although my past life wasn't the best, but it wasn't the worst necessarily. This all still feels like a dream though.

I can't believe this would happen to me of all people, I was a new nobody who seemed to be invisible to everybody.

I was never good at social interactions and I worked a common desk job, it was extremely boring and I did work myself to the brink of exhaustion every day.

I always wanted to do something more I had always been an otaku over fantasy stories but I still had quite the talent in martial arts on earth.

It's no wonder I was born in this new world with some luck in life, I had almost none back then the things I had to go through were unspeakable.

I don't want to remember any of it ill probably never open up to anyone. I would bury my feelings even in this new life and hopefully, it wouldn't backfire.

I didn't have any family back on earth all my close relatives lived out of state or passed away so I was pretty much a lone wolf

I had a few colleagues but I wouldn't call them companions most of my friends from my childhood lived out of state as well and we could only really talk to each other when we played with other on the game.

I can't say I was that attractive or anything back then, though I most certainly wasn't a virgin Hehe. I hope I will have more confidence and luck with women in this life, I need to be handsome chad as well haha I bet they would love to have a dragons baby!

I don't have much to miss from my old life and I'm looking forward to exploring this new world to the fullest leading me to new Nakama and adventures.

I still remember the way I died I saved a woman and her child from a drive-by shooter on my way home from work I lived in a bad area riddled with crime and shootings every day.

I saved them on nothing but mere instinct I knew that it might've cost me my life but I don't regret it at all I had been prepared to die for a long time to live in peace I was honestly too tired.

I'm the type of person who only thinks about myself I had been like that for as long as could remember.

I only ever had myself to rely on So who could blame me for being a little selfish but I really felt at peace giving that kid and his mother another chance at life only seemed right at the time.

My life wasn't one worth living any way I was merely existing going through the motions every day. I still remember a few the traumatizing memories that remained stuck in my head, things I could never forget. Things I could never forgive.

I was also abused and bullied as a kid in school, I had always been different and more mature than everybody else. I was actually classified as a genius by my teachers, I had gotten a lot of crap over it from some hard-headed students.

I was also much taller than everybody else scaring a lot of potential friends away before I could even show them my gentle personality. It only infuriated me though, some would ask if I had been my age or if I was stupid or dumb and if I got held back in school.

Even after high school I still had no dreams and no future waiting for me only isolation, solitude, and loneliness awaited me. I had become severely depressed and on top of that my anxiety went through the roof, there were just things I couldn't recover from I guess.

I was 18 when I died so I lived on my own for a while barely getting by check after check just trying to have somewhat of a good life, but things just never worked out for me which was the story of my life I had 0 luck and things in life just weren't that simple.

I went through countless foster families getting physically and verbally abused having absolutely no hope that I would be saved or even hopes for the future I may one day live in, I just kept all my feelings and emotions tucked away.

I guess what I'm saying is I don't really have any attachments to any family or humans at all for that matter. I was only a play thing for most and once I became a burden they would toss me out without hesitation. I won't spare humans in this world just because I used to be one but I also wouldn't take my anger out on them either.

I had done a lot of bad things in my childhood from drugs,parties,violence you name it. That was all I knew, I turned to the only things that would give me some sort of comfort. Even though it would only hurt me in the end.

Drive-by to shootouts and unnecessary squabbles I had lived through my life definitely wasn't the easiest one I can tell you that. That's why I prayed that this new life would prove to be better.

I harmed a lot of bad people I wouldn't mind it at all didn't even effect my conscience. I always vowed that I wouldn't harm the weak and innocents

since I gave my life for them after all but I will show no mercy for those who stand against me or the ones that I'll value in this new world.

I hope my new life will be filled with adventures and memories I can treasure forever. I hope I can meet valuable nakama and allies and maybe even become someone important finally. That's all I ever wanted, I always felt I was a just a burden to others so maybe that will change.

I know there will be a lot of hardships and challenges I will have to face, but I'm willing to face them head on. I will keep moving forward no matter what happens, no matter what it takes!