I Must Take Control Of My Fate!

My heart was racing so badly—there was nothing like what happens in novels. I didn't instantly become a mass murderer or feel nothing.

The pain and guilt from taking a life existed.

It was eating away at the last of my human soul. The idea in my mind was a fight between, "I have to do this—now I am a demon! They are nothing but the enemy."

Yet it was not even 1 hour since I came here...

People cannot become psychopaths that easily!

Sitting on my throne, I watched the dots slowly move forward, the single dot in the right passage and three slowly slugging forward in the left.

"I must NEVER think this is a game; always treat it like real life!"

My logic was simple: whenever I read games or novels where the MC took lives thinking it was a game, they just denied reality, lying to themselves. Then the problem grows until they have an existential crisis or whine for 100+ chapters!

I must not be that kind of person! The rubbish must end now. I can cry in the soft tits of that goblin if I need to!

"I WILL deal with it here. I MUST take control... Oh, trembling hands, this is for our survival...My racing heart, please accept reality. Ah, ~ cowardly mind running away in Denial."

"WAKE UP!"

"They are here, and we must fight!"

*Tap-Tap-Tap*

My face leaned towards the right as the male seemed to be coming closer—looking down at the map for a moment, I closed it into a mini form that hovered just outside my vision.

"I will take my first direct life. Make sure to overkill them and then move on!"

[The dungeon offers the service of an injection that will kill all your human emotions and thoughts, accept?]

[Yes] / [No]

"Forgive me for rejecting. I will not abandon these feelings. They might save my life one day."

If I am to fight Humans, discarding those emotions is a stupid folly; if I forget how these things feel, they might trick me.

That doesn't mean I will allow them to rule me! I will conquer them and use them for my desire and benefit!

The male was close—I could smell his deathly air, the thick scent of blood, sweat and fear. I lifted my right hand, feeling Mana pooling down my arm like a small cut as the blood seeped. That was how Mana felt when moving...

Once it reached my fingers, 7 triangles appeared, all mashed together, each indicating a different sin. Sigils and runes began to draw inside each triangle with a blasphemous language different from the 7 virtues humans used to cast.

A huge flame began to gather rapidly; within 1 second, it was the size of a soccer ball, spiralling around my palm, then growing larger as the Mana seeped from my body.

I was filled with a euphoric feeling of pleasure... Ashamed, I even felt sexual excitement as it started moving faster the more used to it I became.

"The blazing heat... It warms my heart and soothes my soul."

⟪Super Fireball⟫—MP: 80/100 (-20)

An infernal burst covered everything 3 meters in front of me. The grassy moss and mould were set aflame immediately as the Mana left my arm and dispersed, leaving only charred ground as the Fireball shot towards the door, unable to curve midair.

The moment it reached 2 metres from the door, the male appeared, his armour broken arrows stuck in his side, as blood seeped from his body, then the Super Fireball shot towards his heart and impacted him.

BOOM

⟪60 Damage Dealt⟫

I saw a huge yellow number show over the man's head as the Fire spread 7 meters further, scorching the metal doors, causing an enormous explosion that was drowned by the man's anguished scream, which reverberated in the tunnels, followed by silence as his burnt body fell limp to the ground, the armour cracking due to the heat.

Fire could never compare in range to wind or lightning spells, which had a 30 and 40-meter range, respectively. However, Fire could have 2 different effects and explode upon impact, causing damage to an area.

⟪Super Fireball⟫ Cost: 20MP —Effects: Exploding flames; Range: 15m

Like the smoke from a fired gun, I felt the mana particles disperse from my right hand... Yet why did I feel no sense of guilt or terror anymore? Inside, I felt cold, alone on a quiet beach or with my mother.

[Level 2 Human Died: +20 DP] (Direct Kill!)

⟪DP: 200⟫

"Hmmm? Why did I get double the DP? Does Direct Kill mean I get a bonus for killing myself? Does this apply to my summoned monsters?"

[No, this is merely a slight benefit only for you and is related to your [Born of Fire] Skill, which allows you to absorb double the normal DP for killing intruders.]

⟪Restored 10 MP: 90/100⟫

There wasn't much time to rest as the group of three would soon appear; the feeling of dread and fear was gone.

Something happened, and I don't know, but the moment I watched his death. I think something important broke inside me, something that made me human.

Seeing the charred corpse, the disgusting scent of burnt meat, hair, and steel... Instead, my mouth watered, my stomach groaned, and my tongue moved; I felt hungry... His corpse seemed to be... my food.

"It took almost two seconds to charge a super fireball fully... then what about a normal?"

⟪Fireball⟫ Cost: 10MP —Effects: small Ball of Flames; Range: 15M

"Would using two triangles allow me a faster charging rate?"

I wondered if I could cast faster using fewer of the 7 runic symbols, which caused a lot of Mana to get wasted... My hands lifted, and both began to fill with that pleasant feeling, Mana surging down my arms as 2 fireballs formed slowly in my hands, one with 7 triangles forming.

In contrast, the one with 2 Runic symbols was already formed, but the Mana taken was double...

2x ⟪Fireball⟫—MP:60/100

"I can use fewer runes, but it uses more of my Mana, and I can cast two spells simultaneously... Nice to know."

Slowly, I waited for those three intruders to come, a strange feeling of glee in my stomach—looking at the golden experience bar on the holo map, I could see it was 3/4 full!

The next moment, two people rushed in, with a slower person at the back. I shot both fireballs at the vanguards,

⟪15 Damage Dealt⟫ ⟪15 Damage Dealt⟫

Both rolled on the floor as a woman screamed while helping her companion, who was burned and slightly injured.

Quickly, my left hand lifted. Mana surged into 7 triangles. I shot another Super Fireball as it curved towards the two downed people; suddenly, a flicker entered my eye before a howling wind sounded. The next moment, I felt a stabbing pain in my right shoulder.

⟪Hit by an Arrow! HP - 30⟫ HP:770/800

⟪60 Damage Dealt⟫

A moment later, an explosion sounded as the woman and male tank were burned alive by the Fireball explosion.

2x ⟪Level 2 Human has Died: +20DP⟫ (Direct Kill!)

⟪DP: 220⟫

"Nice trick, but late..."

My body stood from the throne before pushing both hands towards the archer, his eyes filled with tears as 7 Runic triangles danced around my hands; I planned to use all of my Mana to kill this bastard.

⟪Restored 10 MP: 50/100⟫

I cast 2x ⟪Super Fireball⟫ The pull of Mana this time was not pleasant but painful as the feeling of being sucked dry caused my chest and heart to feel tight.

Nevertheless, the huge flaming balls dancing on my palms caused the archer to look horrified, his body about to turn to flee, when I tiled my head, placing a [Spike Trap] just one step behind him.

⟪DP: -30⟫

⟪DP: 190⟫

⟪120 Damage Dealed⟫

His scream resounded for 2 long seconds; his body was pierced by several rock spears, which grew rapidly and impaled him.

The archer's bow and blood fell to the ground, leaving an odd, gut-wrenching, disgusting smell to enter my nose; my face wrinkled before walking towards his corpse.

⟪Level 2 Human died: +20DP⟫ (Direct Kill!)

⟪DP: 210⟫

On the holo map, I realised my Mana dropped significantly, and it seemed the less Mana I had, the more pleasure I gained from killing and slaughter.

The two flames in my hands no longer had usage... so I tossed them at the corpses of the humans because the stench of human excrement was disgusting.

The next moment...

"MASTER!?" A sweet voice, one filled with two parts affection and one part worry, sounded.

A small goblin with lovely white hair and brightly shining blue eyes rushed to my side, hugging me tightly, as she seemed to be... Crying? But her Metal armour hurt my body.

"Muru, why are you upset?"