Chapter 10: The Road Ahead Is Difficult

He has no wife, and his daughter has suffered so much.

He was not a good father; he has been a father in vain.

Old Lady Niu was also standing aside and wiping her tears. That's it. Xiao Qing Ci has a father, and it's fine if she has a father. In the future, she won't have to live alone, a four-year-old child without anyone to take care of how would she survive?

Shen Ding Shan wrapped his daughter's small body with his coat, he wiped his tears, and then carefully touched his daughter's small face.

"A Ning, daddy will take you and mother home, okay?"

Shen Qing Ci still had a small face, she didn't cry or laugh, only those hollow eyes slowly got some expression.

Daddy is still there; Daddy is not dead.

Shen Ding Shan thought that his daughter was frightened. After all, she was only four years old, but she had witnessed the death of her mother in person. Now it was only normal for her to lose her mind. But no matter what, he must take his daughter home and cure her. He would also give her everything. He would give his daughter her mother's share as well.

His little girl was the most noble daughter of their Shen family and the only daughter of him, Shen Ding Shan.

Shen Ding Shan's eyes were red, and there were still tears in his eyes.

Shen Qing Ci put her little hand into her chest, then took out a blood-stained embroidered handkerchief from her clothes and placed it on Shen Ding Shan's hand.

Shen Ding Shan took the embroidered handkerchief with trembling fingers, and then looked at the embroidered handkerchief with bloodstains on it; his heart hurt as if it was twisted with a knife.

He squeezed the embroidered handkerchief in his hand, and then carefully put the embroidered handkerchief back on his chest. He picked up his daughter with one hand and was about to take her back. He didn't want to stay here for one step. Will bring his wife and daughter home. They will return to their home, whether they are human or soul.

But Shen Qing Ci stopped him.

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"Knock…"

Old Lady Niu was holding the soles of her shoes and heard the sound of someone knocking outside her door. She quickly put down the soles of her shoes and went to open the door, and the door opened, as if there was no one outside, but when she saw down, she found Shen Qing Ci standing outside the door.

"Xiao Qing Ci, why are you here?"

Old Lady Niu squatted down and touched the child's hair. "It seems that your father will take good care of you. It's okay, you can go home with your father."

When Old Lady Niu said this, she couldn't help but choked up, she couldn't bear to let go of this child. She thought that she would never forget her in her life, how did a four-year-old child carry the bundle of firewood which is heavier than her body every day?

Shen Qing Ci stretched out her little hands and hugged Old Lady Niu, and Old Lady Niu's tears flowed.

"Alright" she wiped her tears, and then took Shen Qing Ci out, "Let's go and find daddy".

A carriage was parked not far away, and the children were surrounding the carriage. Because of this commotion, even the adults came out and started whispering. Maybe no one would have thought that the Madam Shen who came to their village would be like this, even though they still didn't know what her husband does, from the looks, he must not be an ordinary person.

Then isn't the Niu family really going to strike it rich this time? They helped with Madam Shen's funeral. They would be thankful to the Niu's family. They knew that they had done this good thing by themselves. Would they have done this for nothing?

Shen Qing Ci turned around and left. She ran to Shen Ding Shan's side, then knelt down and kowtowed three times towards their old house.

"Mother, when we go home, Daddy said that he will also bring mother back, but I feel like mother is here. Wait until A Ning has done everything well, and when everything is peaceful, A Ning will come here and then take mother back home. Mother, will you wait for A Ning?"

"Let's go" Shen Ding Shan picked up his daughter, and then gave her to a middle-aged woman inside the carriage. This was the wet nurse he found for his daughter. Although his little girl didn't need to drink milk anymore, she did need someone to take care of her, and he himself has never taken care of a child. Now he dares not hold the child because he was afraid of pinching his daughter to death, so he bought a wet nurse back, and when his daughter returned home, she would be well taken care of.

Shen Qing Ci opened the curtain of the carriage, looking at the direction of the village.

She will take a different path from the previous life, and this one would not be peaceful, it would be full of all kinds of dangers. She would be a good person this time, and she will never go down the wrong path again.

The road ahead is difficult.

There may be no chance to repent in life, but she does have the chance.

She lowered the curtain, and when she looked up, she saw the gentle and smiling face of the wet nurse.

"Little miss, sleep for a while." The wet nurse patted the quilt next to her. The space inside the carriage was large enough for an adult to sleep well, not to mention that Shen Qing Ci is only four years old.

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Shen Ding Shan held his daughter with one hand and then pointed her to the small stall outside by the road.

"What does A Ning like, dad buy it for you?" They stayed for the night here today, and he happened to go shopping with his daughter. In his memory, he hadn't got along with children like this. Although he already had a son and a daughter, he never cared too much. Maybe it's because they weren't his Xue Fei's children, so he expected less, and he was also not that close. But this was his little A Ning, she was his most precious daughter. He just wanted to give the best to his daughter.

"Is this good?"

Shen Ding Shan took a rattle drum and shook it in front of his daughter.

Shen Qing Ci stared at the rattle drum, then stretched out a small hand and took it, and then she shook it. Her little lips also curved upwards; she was smiling.

Shen Ding Shan touched his daughter's little head and then continued walking with her.

Shen Qing Ci shook the rattle drum in her hand. She was listening to the sound of the rattle drum, but her thoughts were about her previous life. It seems that Daddy bought this for her in her previous life too. This was her first-ever toy, she loved it and cherished it very much. But her elder brother broke the rattle drum accidentally. At that time, she cried without eating or drinking. Daddy beat her eldest brother for that. But even so, her eldest brother's never hated her. Without even waiting for his injuries to heal, he searched through all the shops in the capital and bought her all the rattle drums that were in the capital.

Why did she believe Lou Zi Yin's words in the first place, saying that her eldest brother just wanted the title of the eldest son of the General's Mansion, and just wanted to use her.

She was so stupid at that time that she believed it. She never regarded him as her elder brother. Obviously, her eldest brother never demanded anything from her. He just loved her and protected her the same way as her father. But it was this unconditional love that killed him and made him and dad die because of her. And since then, no one has been protecting her anymore.