chapter 93 __ I am all alone

Everyone turned to look at what Dorris saw that make her turn pale.

                     ^Flashback^

                       3 days ago

Dorris greeted Ray's care taker and walked into the VIP ward on the third floor, there her husband had been lying for years in between life and death. She was carrying a basket if fruit. She will bring fruits sometimes when coming to visit. It is as if she us expecting him to wake up one day and eat the fruits she's been bringing to him.

Seeing him, something triggered in her. She is angry. He lied to her.

She moved closer to the bed.

She examined his face. Though the caretaker used to clean him and shave him, he has grew some stubbles. Looking at her husband lying motionless on the bed, her eyes turned moist. Each time, she visits him, she always try to be optimistic. Over these years, she had grown stronger and more independent. If she isn't independent, who will she depend on? Ray is the only person she can depend on in this world without feeling ashame. But now that he's decided to leave her alone to carry all the burdens and responsibilities, what can she do? She even has a son to care about.

"Ray, It's our son's birthday in three days time. Our son will be four.",  she paused.

She sigh.

" You heartless man! How dare you do this to me? ", then she broke down.

" who told you you could just leave all your responsibilities to me? What am I? I'm your wife. Why should I be the one to make money and sponsor the family. Why should I work so hard. Why should I act as a father and a mother to our son? Why should I be a child to your parent in your stead? I have my own father too. Why should I be alone? Why should I do everything alone. I'm so lonely. I'm so tired within! I'm so weak. I'm fed up. All this should come to a stop. This is not how I want to live. I didn't picture my life this way. This isn't even my dream. I mean why should I live your life.", she hit his chest.

"This isn't what we discuss. This isn't what we promised each other. You promised me a wedding ceremony. A lot of couples had gotten married before us. You even made me carry our child pregnancy all alone. You made me go into the labour room all alone. I raised him all alone. Do you think it's funny? How dare you? You coward!",  she hits him again.

" I can't take it anymore. Come back and take your positions. I don't want to be the president of H&D anymore. I want to live my own life. I am fed up. You jerk. You fool. You useless man. Bastard. Liar! Cheater! You have to wake up very soon or else....."

She let her tears fall freely.

"I'm bored and lonely. I'm all alone. I want you Murray. Please, Hubby!",  she wept harder. She had stored it all in her mind, she wanted to be strong for everyone around her. For her son. For her parents in law. For her own father and for Ray himself but it seems that she is too weeks. It seems like she couldn't take it any longer. She wanted to shout. She wanted to talk to someone. She wanted to relief herself.

She wanted to show her womanly side just for today.

" Murray please. Think of our child. Think of me",a tear drop on Ray's face.

"You love me don't you?", she asked.

" I miss you,  Murray ", she said.

" I miss you so much. Only if you could give me a surprise. Miss you so much my Idol.

Miss you sooooooooooooo much....."

In his subconsciousness

The storm is blowing him around. This place is very familiar to him. He"s been here for a while-struggling.

He had been fighting hard for a while. He didn't want to cross over to the other side. He had been in this tug war for a while and he wouldn't get tired. He refused to give up. He is always hearing them calling to him up there. He can hear their voices clearly. He felt stronger the more he hear her voice had been his strength.

He held on tightly when he heard her voice as usual that day. Her voice is so gentle as usual but it suddenly turned hard. He heard her scolding him and calling him names. He felt bad for doing this to her. Then he heard her cries. She was crying. That woman was crying. His strength doubled tenfold when he heard her tears and  scoldings. He had to go back as soon as possible. He had to go back and console. He needed to clean away her tears. He struggled so hard. He had to stay on earth. He don't want to die. Why should he?

The storm blew harder.

The force from the other side grew stronger. He tightened his grip on the rope.

He can't lose this tug war_he is going to win.

The alarm went off.

The doctors rushed into the ward.

Emergency

Emergency

Emergency!!!

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Silence!

A great fish just left the sea.

A great man......