Rain Past Part 1
Every drop of your tears is a wound in my heart
# Gevan Radian Juniarta
Rain never made a sound. Rain was silent, he was engrossed in his thoughts. He didn't even look at Gevan for a second. Gevan was silent, he thought about what he should talk about again. Focusing on driving, Gevan cleared his throat slowly, hoping that Rain would turn his head, but he didn't. Rain didn't care at all. Gevan scratched the back of his neck that didn't itch. His hand reached out to the side of the steering wheel. He plays a song.
As Gevan expected, when the song stopped playing... Rain turned to him and smiled, so sweet, so sweet. If only Rain was an item, he would take it home and keep it in the closet, so only Gevan would have it. Because he was so happy to see Rain smiling like that, so happy. Rain was still silent and his smile started to fade slowly, he started to open his voice,
"You like One Direction songs too?" Rain asked enthusiastically and smiled back
"Yes I like it, I really like it. But more than that I like it" Gevan replied without hesitation
"Oh, besides One Direction what else do you like?" asked Rain again trying to keep smiling
"I also love and admire Taylor Swift, as much as I love and admire her" Gevan replied again
"Why are you standing still?" asked Rain which made Gevan confused. Gevan digested Rain's words, but no matter how hard he thought he still couldn't find the answer. Then with a confused look, Gevan asked,
"You mean?"
"Yeah, why are you standing still, having no intention of chasing after him or just starting to approach him?"
"Oh that, yes this... I'm still in the process of approaching him" Gevan replied firmly
"Good luck, I hope you win her heart, I will always pray for you Gevan," Rain said sincerely, although there was a little pain in his heart that made it difficult to breathe.
"It's hard to be beautiful, she can't be reached," said Gevan honestly
"Everything that is not achieved can be achieved by Gevan, you just need to try. May God always bless you, yes. And may God open the door of his heart so that you can visit his heart," said Rain wisely.
"Beautiful, but I don't want to just visit, I want me to be able to stay in her heart, her only priority"
"Gevan, don't be selfish, if Gevan thinks like that, Gevan's relationship with him won't last long"
"How can that be? What do you know about love? Have you ever had a lover?" asked Gevan in a row
"I've never had a boyfriend Gevan, but I've experienced it long before Gevan experienced this now" replied Rain
"Oh yeah? Let's talk, I want to know who is the lucky man who has won the heart of a Beauty," said Gevan. Gevan is getting interested in the direction of this conversation, with this Gevan hopes to get bits and pieces of information about Rain's life
"He is my best friend, I have been friends with him since I was little. We love each other, we are always together everywhere. We even openly say that we love each other. But unfortunately, we are never united"
"Why?" Gevan was confused, he was still in the process of digesting Rain's words. Loving each other? But never united? Is there a joke funnier than this? Ask Gevan in his heart
"Because of my stupidity. At that time we were very small. I was friends with him since childhood because I was next door to him, so we always spent time together. He had expressed his feelings very often and I knew it all before he said it, but we were still friendly. I always rejected him for one reason, and for that reason, I also lost him, until now. He was nowhere to be found, and I don't know where to look" Rain replied at length and displayed a sad expression
"What's the reason you always reject him?" asked Gevan again. This time he wanted to know about Rain's life
"Because he and I are friends" Rain answered simply
"Then? What's the relationship? What if you're already friends can't change the status from friend to boyfriend?"
"Can"
"Then why do you always reject him?"
"Because he is the only friend I have, I love him and vice versa. I am too afraid to change the status of a friend to a girlfriend"
"Why? What's your reason for that? You haven't tried it yet, why should you be afraid?"
"Because when he becomes my girlfriend, everything will change"
"Why can you predict like that? Even though you haven't tried it yet"
"Gevan in a relationship there will be fights, if we are not strong and not good at going through it and going through it is not something impossible we will separate. If we separate everything will not be the same again Gevan, the worst possibility is if we break up everything will not return same, we will be two strangers who don't know each other anymore, basically, I'm not ready if I have to lose him, because it's rare for a man and a woman who used to be in a relationship and then change their status to become an ex that will still be on good terms. Even though they were friends at first. I and he are like Soulmates"
Gevan was silent for a long time, until he spoke again "Then what made you two separate? Even though you didn't decide to go out, you stood by your stance, you remained friends with him, then why did he leave?" ask Gevan again