My heart and her thoughts

Waking up first thing is to the bathroom,

Take a breath and throw up all my gloom.

I look at myself in the mirror,

The reflection of an insomnia horror.

Nobody hears my internal cries,

Even I ignore them sometimes.

I don't want to live like this anymore,

What am I enduring this pain for.

I don't want to wake up like this,

I want sleep to be a bliss.

But I can't,

I just can't.

I drag those heavy chains,

Nothing will help to subside the pain.

They lock my feet to that one place,

It's you - chilly breeze! And your cold embrace.

It's so dark here,

There's only fear.

But I can do it,

I CAN DO IT!

I want to live to see a new horizon,

I was born to feel the freedom.

I don't want to be trapped.

I don't want to be controlled.

And I just want to live,

I just want to feel, what others feel.

Everything is going to be alright,

I know its been a tough fight.

Its been a hard day,

Speechless on what to say.

But we can live.

We shall live.

To fight, to wonder, to achieve,

And to finally believe.

Believe in yourself,

Even when you think you don't have help.

It's not just ones fight,

It's everyone's fight.

Don't be controlled by what others think,

Feel the comfort of those hearts that link.

Don't bound yourself to pain,

Don't bound yourself in a picture frame.

You are capable of so much more,

Look inside to that beautiful, strong core.

You've endured much more than this,

You won't be defeated by little things like this.

By Lucinda Melrose

Created: 2020

Edited and Published: 2020