Heartbreaks

​Heartbreaks hurts more than a broken relationship as it makes you lose your shit and you can never get into the perfect relationship you ever wanted in your life. It makes you feel fucking worst in your life and down to the fucking earth. Being through that phase is just worst as it makes you question what you are capable of and what you are made of. People say true love or just love can be found only once in your life but that is not fucking true rather just a shitty lie. You can't just bump into the right person on the first time. It is quite impossible to get into the fucking perfect relationship in the first time but shit happens most of the time. ​Jessica was one of the girls from the south side of California who lost her shit by continuously getting into the wrong relationship or getting into the mess by someone or by herself. She does not know how but this shit always happens for her, it is just her fucking fate to get into the worst fucking relationships forever until leaving everything behind once and for all. ​She was one of the brightest kids from Brighton high school but because of failing in her first love very first love where she fell in love with the best guy in the middle school, Harry but was afraid to say this to him. However one day she bumped into him in the hallway and to her surprise he started the conversation by saying, "Hey you are Jessica right, I have seen you. We are in the same class." ​Jess was like, "Science class right, yes I remember you Harry." ​"We should meet up sometime Jess. If you are out of plans." ​"Yeah sure Harry." It was one of the best days of her life talking to Harry but things did not go as she was looking forward to. On that weekend Harry asked Jess out for a movie. She was on cloud nine and was looking forward to meet him eagerly. They both met watched a film, ate some food and talked for the whole night. Jess was just admiring him. Harry wanted to be at a party and was late they just don't know how time passed by so he asked Jess to come to which she refused by saying that she was tired and wanted to hang out with her bestie. So Harry dropped Jess off at her friend's place but they both don't know that they are going to the same place. ​Harry got to the party to meet his friends who was friends with Jess and Harry was unaware of that. Harry's friends were asking him about the bet for getting Jess to fall for him but now Harry was in love with her for real. For his bad time Jess was standing behind him and heard everything she was just heartbroken and was unable to say anything and wanted to get out of that place but Harry was not ready to give up. However Jess wanted to move on and was not ready to believe him again and get fucked up by his lies. ​Right from that moment she stopped believing in true love until she saw Wade crazy enough like her but still she was not ready to get into something serious. Years after breaking up with Harry, Jess was just making up with her tinder boyfriends. Until she met Wade at a party crazy enough to catch her eye. In the beginning she just liked him for his craziness. However they made up in her house as they were both high on alcohol. For Jess it was just a one night stand but for Wade it was something serious he was in love with her for real. But he hid something from her. ​Wade was a con man who scams rich people to extort their money, cars and sometimes their houses too selling them to someone else without the owners even knowing about that. Jess was unaware of this but on their date night she came to know this and tried to break with him but Wade was not ready to leave her so he convinced her by saying that they both were crazy and end up being the perfect couple forever. ​Things were going well for days until Wade was caught by the neighbour cop of Jess, Tommy. However Tommy was in love with Jess so he gave a deal for Wade to leave Jess and go once and for all out of the city for good. Wade was not ready to do that but Tommy threatened him and got him to do that so Wade left Jess for good. ​Jess became lonely again but Tommy was ready to use this time to get to her. So he got close to Jess and her family but he was not meant for her too. Rather Tommy was just using her as he was a faggot and a cop. No one knows this truth except for himself. Eventually Jess started noticing something strange with him he was not getting close to her. Finally he admitted to Jess that he was only a faggot and was using her for making people trust him that he is just a normal guy. ​Jess was again cheated in the game of relationships. However as a good in a bad, Wade got back to her knowing that Tommy was just using her. At first she was on her nerves but after convincing her she understood everything and took him back into her life. But this shit was not the end of her life. There was another shocking truth for her that he was married to another women for his Canadian citizenship. However it was just for the record but still he need to spend time with his wife for answering to the authorities' questions. ​In the beginning Jess was mad at him but as time passed by she was convinced of this as she was with someone too meanwhile. And they made a craziest promise between them that they would never hook up with others. But that was not the case that is going to happen as life takes a new turn always and fucks you up the most whenever possible. However she soon finds out that he hooked up with his wife breaking up their promise so now she wants to live on her own rather than living with Wade who broke his heart. ​After several hours of thinking she finally comes to a conclusion that she should get a permanent job for herself. Fortunately she gets what she wanted but on the darker side it was just an overqualified job just for a minimum pay. Everything was good in the beginning like always in her life. But after six months of working there she finds out that her boss was trying to get her and interested in getting along with her. Again things took a different turn, on a trip to the nearby lake things were way too fucked up. ​Being angry with Wade Jess hooked up with her boss Chris. But soon realizes that it was a big mistake so she stops him from making love. However he understands her situation too, still that was an awkward moment for them both. For some days Jess was hiding from Chris and was avoiding him. Because of this she was unable to make love to Wade too. Soon Wade finds out that Jess was onto Chris but however he was unable to ask to her as he was cheating on her and breaking their promise too. However in a small quarrel between them they both confess that they broke their promise and confessed their dirty secrets. The mistake was on both of them so they did not speak to them after that. Jess tried calling Wade several times but every time it was returning her call to his voicemail. Eventually Wade disappeared from her life, now Jess does not know what to do she was depressed again but this time it was too hard for her to forget him as he was one of the best and those days were one of the best for her. ​Using this break up between them Chris tried to get on her. At first Jess was not onto him just because of that one night stand between them. As days passed by Jess started falling for Chris. But this time she started believing him still life was looking to fuck her up. She was very happy with him until she finds out a dark secret that was lying between them that Chris was already married and was cheating on her and his wife. But hesitates to ask that to him. Things were normal between them but still he was cheating on her without knowing she knows that. ​On a Saturday night at her friend's party Jess was alone and was high on booze. Knowing this a mutual friend of Jess's friend, Karl tries to get on with Jess. Jess does not want that however on being angry over Chris and being high on booze she made another mistake which resulted in another one night stand. However Karl wanted this relationship to continue but the next day Jess became normal again and wanted to end this once and for all. ​Meanwhile Chris tracked her down to the party place and finds out that she was hooking up with Karl so he picks up on a fight with Jess. Karl tries to stop this and gets beaten up by Chris. Jess now breaks up and says that Chris was cheating on her. Soon the party place was looking like a fight club with Chris and Karl beating up each other. Jess does not know what to do so she leaves that place and switches off her phone and returned all the calls to voicemail. Everyone was searching for her but no one was able to find her. ​A day later she ends up completely fucked up and being high on booze in front of Chris's house. She finds out that Chris's wife was inside too. She was reckless and shouting life hell breaking the windows of Chris's house and asking his wife to come out so that she could say the entire truth about him. Jess says everything that has happened and ends up telling the truth to Chris's wife. But still Chris wanted Jess over his wife. However Jess took her car at high speed resulting in an accident with a parked car. She was so high that she left her car there and left the place. ​Again she was missing for a day, the next day she attained consciousness and was looking like hell so she wanted to get to a hospital but could not move from her place and don't know whom to call. However she manages to get out of the place where she was and books an Uber. Soon she gets into the ER. After getting discharged from the hospital after two days he does not know what to do or where to go. So she makes one of the most important decisions in her life to get out of this south side and this country to go to someplace new and explore things out there alone. ​Finally she gets the courage to tell this to everybody. She decides to tell this to her friends and family. At first they were not ready to leave her go but eventually she convinced them to do so. So her friends and family decided to throw her a last party for her last day in this country. Jess agrees to that but things do not go as planned always. Without telling to any one she decides to go. ​Two hours later everyone arrived at Jess's house to find that she was not there and that she had already left. However she had left a note on her fridge saying about the things she likes and dislikes about everyone in there and about the west side. One final note for everyone over there and left some cash for her family too. ​Finally she leaves everything behind and goes to a new country where she does not know anyone and wanted to stay single and on her own forever. ​That is it no one can find the perfect man or woman for their selves because there is no such thing as perfect everyone has a dark and dirty secret under their skin. ​So for being happy the only choice is to stay on your own rather than seeing for someone who can make your life better. If you want to search for that one the only thing you can do is to just search because you cannot find that perfect one as there is no such person as a perfect one. ​Only you are going to be there for you.