One step

Looking at the ceiling after waking up, everyone was gone, so I took that opportunity to stand up. Looking around, I snuck into the bathroom to take a bath. I was letting the water flow filling up the tub. Once the tub was complete, I slipped into the water, still wearing my clothes. Sitting in the water with my clothes clinging to my body, I felt tears fall down my face. Finally, bringing myself out of my sadness, I stood up. Dripping wet, I slipped my clothes off myself and set them into the bathroom sink. 'No more time for being down.' Taking my medication, I slipped into the tub once more, this time dunking my head beneath the water. Flowing out of the bun, my hair fell flat on my back, making me seem as if I was covered in my hair. Sitting back up, my hair clung to my body. With my hair down, I grabbed a shampoo bottle and started to wash my hair.

I dunked my head once more under the water with my hair full of bubbles. I stayed there underwater, contemplating if I should bring myself to take a breath to end it all. Rising once more, I gasped for air. I know I shouldn't try to drown myself someone who wasn't suitable for me in the first place. Before I end my suffering, I need to see if I can still be happy. Grabbing the conditioner, I started to rub my scalp. Once done, I rinsed my hair out under the water. Reaching up, I grabbed body wash, cleaning off the grime from my issues. Clean, I stood up, bringing my hair over my shoulder. Drying myself, I looked at my reflection. I looked determined yet a little broken. patting dry my hair, I slipped on a robe.' Suppose anything will make me feel better. It ought to be me getting rid of all the things that remind me of him.'

Slipping on my undergarments, I grabbed a simple white t-shirt and blue jeans to wear. Stepping outside with the pillows, sheets, pictures, shoes, the wedding dress, and a few more things, I stepped outside. Setting all the items on the sidewalk, I got into my car. 'I need to buy some lighter fluid and a metal crate.' Buying what I needed, I put everything that reminded me of him into the metal crate. Dumping lighter fluid on top, I grabbed a match. Striking a flame, I released the match on where I poured the lighter fluid and grabbed a bucket of water. 'Just in case.' Sitting down, I watched the flames rise. Noticing smoke, some of my neighbors stepped outside to see me sitting in front of a metal crate with a water bucket. Looking closely, they saw that what was burning was a wedding dress. The pale blue faded away on the train, curling up becoming a brown than a black. It was a heartbreaking sight watching the fire burn away the beautiful dress and other items beneath. 'Burn away my pain.'