Teen idle

Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle

Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title

Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible

Feeling super, super, super suicidal

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This is your trigger warning for sexual content,abuse and briefly mentioned suicide.

Sadie watched from outside as the house burned down,Ramon's body inside of it still. She was un sure how to feel,as she had just committed a murder. She was shaking and crying as she watched the flames slowly spread from the bathroom to her parents bedroom. Her parents had died when she was little,and her grandparents took her in,however Sadie ran away from them when she turned fifteen. They died a while after that as well.

Her parents and grandparents had both written her name in their will,and Sadie had received enough money to get a stable house and to pay bills for a few months. Sadie worked at a hot topic in the mall since she was fifteen as well. She had no clue what to do now other than to call him. But,it was too much of a risk..she decided on it anyways. Sadie ran inside of the burning house and quickly went upstairs.

The fire Hadn't spread to her bedroom yet,so she grabbed a bag of clothes and a bag of makeup,shoes,etc. Sadie was always on the run,running from either something or someone. Then She ran outside to the nearest telephone poll and dialed a number quickly,still trying to catch her breath. She held the phone to her ear and waiting for him to pick up.

"Sadie,I'm not going to forgive you-"

"Adam,I really,really need your help right now!"

"I'm not helping you at all."

"L-listen,I know I fucked up,and that I made a mistake cheating on you but it wasn't my decision-"

"I'll only help if you agree to fuck me."

"What??"

"You heard me."

"No,no I can't! But after what happened tonight,not after everything everyone put me through!"

"Just do it. I'm really horny right now just thinking about you.."

"Ugh! Fine but I fucking hate you! And I'm not letting you do anything special,no weird kinks or some shit!"

"Good. Now tell me what happened."

"Well,it's a long story,but it started with me accepting a guys offer to sleep with me,a-and uh..things went south.."

"How south?"

"My uh,my house is burning and he's dead.."

"Woah what the hell?!"

Sadie didn't respond.

"Come over now,you know the address."

Sadie hung up the phone in tears. She hated how people treated her as some sort of toy who only existed to satisfy others sexual desires. She walked down the cold street,only a robe to cloth her cold and tired body. However,Sadie had an idea. It was a horrible one that was sure to get her in trouble,but it was worth a shot.

Step one: Have sex with him,easy,right? Should be..

Step two: when you leave,stay outside his house,then when he goes to sleep,sneak in and find his bedroom.

Step three: kill him.

Sadie knocked on his door,tears still in her eyes. Adam opened the door in only a pair of shorts. "Ok Sadie,bedroom,now." He demanded. "Please,just give me some time-" she tried to say,but he picked her up and ran up the stairs. She kicked at him and scratched him however this only made him un stable on his feet as the both fell down the stairs,however sadie landed on top of him.

"What was that for?!?" Adam yelled,making Sadie cry as she cupped her face with her hands. "I can't do it!! I just can't! I don't know why just please don't hurt me!!" Sadie yelled through tears. She felt his hand rest on her thigh,but she quickly slapped it away. "I don't think I'm in the right headspace to do this right now..I need time alone." She began to speak. "Find some other girl who's willing to let you fuck her brains out,I just can't anymore."

Sadie adjusted her robe to have a tighter knot. "I'm tired of people treating me like this,Adam. When we were dating,all you used me for was sex,I felt like I didn't even matter. I wanted a reputation,I didn't just want to sit there and be unknown by everybody." Adam got up and walked upstairs to get a box of photos. "Sadie," he opened the box and showed her pictures of them in places. "I really loved you,I really did."

Sadie looked at him in disgust as she also looked at the photos with the same expression. "Look me in the eye in those photos and tell me if I look happy or not. Tell me if I look like I felt good in this relationship." She looked at him with steady eyes. His breaths became shaken as her eyes pierced his soul with their intent glare.

Adam shook his head slowly,but understandingly. "I trusted you,I really did..until you decided to fuck me almost every day,making me look at my reflection in the mirror and tell myself 'it'd just be easier to die,and not endure this pain anymore.' " Sadie walked to the kitchen and grabbed a pair of scissors.

"Adam,I hate you..I hate you more than anything. I truely want you to die in the most gruesome way possible." She rushed towards him,however Adam grabbed her by the shoulders and kicked her. "Sadie.." he sobbed. "I know you don't want to do this,just please,I'll try to be better.." Adam said. Sadies arms and legs were bruised all over from constant fighting and being hurt by people she thought loved her,and shameful hickeys covered her chest.

"H-half of these are from you..I just never stood up to you." She began to get up. "You abused the shit out of me,you really think that's what love is?" Her words were shakey and unsteady as she grabbed the scissors and walked towards the hall mirror. "I'm changing for good. I just can't stand to look at myself anymore."

She began to work on her hair,chopping bangs and layers. Tears filled her eyes as she did so,Adam watching,wide eyed. Sadie looked at herself,satisfied,but also a crying mess.

"I'm going to be staying here a while so,better make me a room."

"But,just to let you know,I still fucking hate you. And I'll never EVER forgive you."