Sweet Tooth

Feeling sick of myself

Think I'll try to be someone else

Can't be hard to paint a person

In my head create a version

The parallel

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I'm going to work today,I can't keep taking days off,they'll fire me for sure. I cant lose my job,it's the only think I even have,the only people I have are there.

I look at myself,disgusting.

My brown hair is a mess and not combed from sleeping the night before,my clothes are wrinkled and there's dark circles under my eyes from lack of sleep and insomnia. Last night was the only time I got a somewhat good sleep last night,but still lonely. So,so lonely.

I button up my sky blue collared shirt and slide on my black dress pants,what I wear everyday to work. I dont put on my vest just yet,I keep it in my car anyways,so I can put it on when I get to work. I walk into the bathroom and look into the mirror,she's not there..

I place my hand on it and small tears fall from my glossy eyes,but I quickly wipe them away and open my bottle of concealer. I don't usually wear makeup,but I cant let my co-workers to see me this way,it'll strike up worry and concern,I might even have to speak to my boss.

I blend the concealer under my eyes to hide the shameful lack of sleep and rejuvenation,I look better but feel the same,I wonder if that's how people normally feel. I don't think so.

I grab my comb and begin working on my hair,it grew quite a big but I can just slide it to the side like nothing happened. The comb is fragile and flimsy,but gets through it. I use my fingers to move it out of my eyes and turn off the bathroom light,leaving the room.

I walk through the tiny house,watering my small succulents,then I open the door and leave,getting into my black car. It was small,but did the job.

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I step out of my car in the parking lot and close the door behind me. The air smelt of rain and the asphalt was wet,making a grinding noise as I walked and slid on my vest covered in pins,with a name tag for work.

I saw couples and families walking into the store early so they can get their groceries,etcetera. I didn't like looking at that sight,only made me feel even more lonely and broken,which was horrible. A horrible feeling of being alone. I walked and kept my head down,I cant look any longer. Who knows what will happen.

Hey,wanna know something? I've picked it up recently because I can't be myself,is what it seems.

I've learned how to pretend.

Put on a mask,hide what's underneath.

Hides the ugly truth of it all.

I step through the automatic doors and was greeted by the usual sight,recipt checkers and security at the front to make sure nobody steals anything,and a big sign with what deals are on at the moment displayed above. I walk through the entrance,but something metal and hard hits me in the legs. I look down,a new gate. I look around to make sure nobody saw and then go through the correct one and push the right way through.

I wave to my co-workers and put on a smile,seeing August and Mary already at their cash registers,they waved back to me. I head to my station,and flip the sign that said the register was closed so it said open. 

I did the normal,cashing out customers and helping around the store,easy.

Then,a worker I've never seen before came up to me,holding a box in her hand.

She looked familiar.

So,so familiar,

As soon as my eyes met hers I felt something.

A lovesickness

A longing,a yearning for her.

And then to hit me.

Those red cheeks,the eyes,her hair,her smile,without a doubt it was her..

"Y/N..?" I say,tears forming in my eyes,but she only looked at me with confusion. "How do you know my name? And why the hell are you crying?" She asked,her brows furrowed. I wiped my tears in embarrassment. "Do you remember me? It's Michael,why did you leave me alone?" I ask frantically,grasping onto her arms for dear life.

"I think you've mistaken me for someone else,I'm sorry." She says,I let go of her arms. "A-anyways,I have this box I need to get marked,a customer didn't get a sticker." She smiled,I could tell it was forced. "Oh right,yeah,I lost control of myself there,I'm weird as fuck sometimes." I say,slapping a sticker onto the box,smiling. She laughed a bit at that.

That made me happy.

A warmness I haven't felt in a while.

——-I spent the rest of the day with her,making her laugh,hanging out with August and Mary.————————————

Most of the emotion I was faking,I knew she could tell. She had the same personality,the same sense of humour,everything was the same but she forgot everything about fredbears,everything about me,about Sadie..

Sadie..

I haven't heard that name in a while.

She tried to kill me once.

Until she fell and ended up killing herself.

I scrub my mind of the thought and walk Out of the store,taking off my best as I did. It was sunny outside,like the world knew. The world knew light was coming into my life again. I smiled at the thought,a real smile.

I headed home and the drive was pleasant,I saw birds singing on electrical lines and green grass being mowed.

I got to my house and watched the Immortal And The Restless for a while,but I got a text from my boss.

I unlocked my phone to see a group chat with y/n,august,Mary,my boss,and me in it. When was this made?

The text read:

Hello,my star workers! For all your hard work you've done for the company,I'd like to reward you with a trip to Hurricane,Utah! All expenses payed by me of course. The day you'll be going is

June 17 [insert year]! Be there. You all deserve it.

Hurricane? Why there of all places? I haven't been in a while..I wonder what happened to make it Interesting up there.

I don't know if I can go back..

My father is dead,I know that.

My sister is gone. I know that.

I don't have anybody there,but..

If I just keep everyone away from y/n I can make her mine again. Make her love me,be warm again.

Feel love again.

This is your notice. The chapters after this will pick up where darling left off. Read it if you have not already,as it's extremely important. -bunni