Chapter 16.

Look at this picture, memorize it cause this is the last screen time you'll be getting for the whole day. Willow told lory.

I broke my ankle, I didn't have a concussion is this really necessary? She complained.

No, No don't do that the doctor said minimalize stress and you watching "When love struck " on your phone will only increase your rate of stress . She explained putting the phone in the drawer and locking it.

It's not my fault destiny is too dumb to see that Jason is using her, it's giving me strsss acne she defended.

let me see, No that's just regular acne she teased and pinched her nose.

During this past days Willow and lory had become closer, Lory realized who really cared about her.

Her mom wasn't back from her Business trip i means what kind of mother leaves her 14year old all alone with a broken ankle? She would often ask herself, even Celine couldn't be found in the picture, she claimed she was busy, she bet a hundred buck if she was to call her and tell her Chris wanted to see her she'd be there in an heartbeat.

Willow? What if I never cheer again?.

No shuush, don't ever say that you're gonna get better and you're gonna show those bratty cheerleaders that you have more moves than them.

Okay ,she nod and blinked back the tears threatening to fall out.

You know when I first saw you that day, smiling and flipping like a monkey I thought "wow she may be bratty but she sure is talented" So I believe that this little cast right here doesn't stop anything.

Bethany Hamilton an American surfer who lost are whole left arm to a shark in 2003, she tried out for a competition and still came out third place.

I believe in you lory this is gonna be a walk in the park for you.

The tears came pouring out like a broken dam

Thank you Willow, She said as she suddenly hugged her by the neck.

She smiled and gently caressed her back.

I'm ready.

Oh, I'll be right there, I have to go now lory I'll see you at three? She said breaking them hug.

Bye L. Larry called from the outside of her room.

When they were all gone she was left alone in her room the house was quite and all that could be heard were vacuuming noise the workers where probably still on and about their jobs.

She sighed and tried sitting up, but this damn cast was itchy as ever.

She gently placed her good foot In front of the bad one, she could do it all she needed was patient her crutches was by her bed side so she grabbed it for support and walked into her bathroom.

She stared at her reflection she didn't like who she saw, she looked pale like she was dying.

"You look pathetic "

There the voice was again

" No one will ever love you, you couldn't even land one simple flip? With all that practice? What really are you good at? Being a stupid nobody that everybody hates?"

That's not true, it's not true she mumbled.

"How many get well cards did you get? Certainly not as many as Veronica and she had the flu, you on the other hand broke your fucking ankle and NOBODY GAVE A FUCK! That's right, not even your mother or Celine, you are a LIABILITY, soon enough those who you think care about you will LEAVE YOU just like the rest, NOBODY LOVES YOU, EVERYBODY LEAVES, YOU ARE SO NEEDY"!

The voices were eerie and getting louder and hard to ignore or tune out.

Breath, Breath L , Breathe she tried to stay calm.

It laughed.

"You don't deserve oxygen, if it were up to me I'd say. KILL YOURSELF, what's a life worth living with no friends, no mother and no social status? "

She gulped.

She looked at herself again then to the bathroom sink there was a razor just sitting there.

"pick it up, pick it UP , PICK IT UP".

She picked it up,

"You know what to do, you know you wanna do it, the pain will go away, I'll go away"

She was hesitant. She looked at her pale arm and took the blade closer to her skin she was fidgeting, she closed her eyes and let the blade come in contact with her skin, dragging it all the way down.

"Fuck" she yelled.

"Feels Good doesn't it? Haaaah?"

Hmmm, she groaned as she rampaged the drawer looking for an ethanol based liquid.

She finally found one and applied it on her wound with a cotton wool.

Sweet pain.

What was this feeling? This thing? She was in pain but she liked the pain, she didn't understand, she wouldn't mind feeling that seconds of euphoric pleasure, when the ethanol hits her skin, that tingling sensation that travels through her body that calm and arousal that makes her eyes pop and her mouth water.

After applying more rounds her wound had stopped hurting. The pleasure was gone, she was breathing abnormally now and her heart was beating faster than normal.

She glanced around her bathroom was a mess, there was blood in the sink, lory hates cleaning but she knew she would have to clean this place up, She wouldn't want anyone to find out about what she had just done.

It was a bad thing,

people self harm,

she wasn't hurting body, it was a way to cope she justified herself, cognitive dissonance was in motion.

When she was done she slapped a bandage on her wound and soaked herself in a bath.

Atleast the voices in her head had died down, she closed her eyes visual representation of that day came flashing back. The look on their faces as they watched her in pain, were they happy? Were they embarrassed for her she knew she was embarrassed at herself she'll probably have to change schools, worst even state.

She had one job and that was to be perfect but if she wasn't good at that what else was she not good at?

*****

Miss Willow?

Yes ?

Would you mind marrying me and becoming the mother of my unborn specimens?

Of course I will.

I love you.

I love you too. Muaaah muaaah.

Willow? Willlow?

I could hear my name and slowly but surely I was being pulled away.

Willow?!

I stood up with half closed eyes,

Yes? Yes, I'm up I wasn't sleeping.

Gurl, you lieing it's past two aren't you supposed to be heading out?

"O my God" I completely lost track of time. Thank you.

Also Mr Calvary said he would like to see you, Edna said as she slowly but judgeingly took off the piece of paper stucked on my face

"Talmbout about not sleeping, gurl don't " with that she walked away to her desk.

I quickly arranged my dressing and stood up.

You called for me sir.

Yeah, have a seat. Or don't you could do whatever you want, you know what I'll stand.

Huh? Are you okay you seem to be sweating a lot.

Okay, he said as he stood up and walked to the direction of his blinders, he slowly pulled them down.

Just wanted to say, I would like you to have dinner with me this evening.

He was looking at me now and I was shook.

Was this the continuation of that dream? Because I read online that most times your dreaming and you wake from that dream going about your normal life just to find out that your still trapped in your dream state is that what's happening right now? Is my brain playing tricks at me I need to pinch myself.

"Did you just pinch yourself ?" he asked me.

O my God , this is really happening, I blurted out.

Uhmm, I dunno what to say, this is all so sudden, I Erm didn't expect this. My throat's all dried up, can I ?

Sure, here you go he said,walking to his table then turning around to give me an half empty water .

I gubbled it down. Thank you.

So? He asked looking me.

Erm of course I would love to have dinner with you, 9 ? Tenish?

Great, I'll text you the address.

Sure I'll be there I said.

He walked past me to open the door for me,

I slowly walked out looking back at him as I exit his office, He waved and smiled.

I gave a ackward laugh and sprint off.

I need to call Emily. I cleared my desk and dashed out of the factory.

Hey girl?

Emily we have a big issue.

Erm I'm kinda in the middle of work right now, could it wait?

No! Sydney just asked me to have dinner with him. I whisper yelled.

O my Gosh that's great news you like him don't you?.

Yeah I do but its weird because I just woke up from a dream of the two of us kissing and it's freaky, because he called for me and then offered to take me on a date, and then my mouth got all dried up, so he gave me water and he stood there while I drank off the bottle like an uncivilized mammal. I cried Help me.

Calm down I need you to breath, it's okay it's just a date, think of the bright side, this is going great, you both have been texting back and forth ,so, it would be weird if he didn't ask you out on a date.

You think so?

Yeah dummy, I get off work by 6 what time is the date?.

I dunno I said tenish.

Ten-ish? You're hopeless. She laughed.

This isn't funny.

Not to you, she continued to laugh.

Anyways I'll be back home to get you ready so don't worry about anything ,just calm.

Okay I'm about to go pick up Larry so when I drop him off and take care of Lory I'll head home.

Okay see you by Ten-ish. Laughs.

Oh shut up.