Chapter Nine_ I'm Done Being. Gentle Man

Valeria's POV Following what she said, I can't bring myself to think right away. I put my hands on my forehead in the hopes that if I let go, it would surely come out of my head. "Val, relax; as I said, we'll get through this. I told my boyfriend about you when he asked me to move in with him, and he doesn't mind if you stay with us." Sonia tried to make me understand what she was saying, but I wasn't very close. "Sonia, maybe you heard what you said to me just now? How might I move in with you to your sweetheart's home? How would you like him to perceive me? A weight? a bother? Even worse, I won't be a gold miner. I will sort out how best to take care of this issue." I did the breath-in exercise to calm my nerves after giving her a firm response. I woke up and saw Sonia gazing at me with mournful eyes, goodness! How could I have communicated with her in that way? I walked over to her and gave her a firm hug and stroked her hair. "Try not to stress dear, this isn't your shortcoming in any capacity, it's their misfortune not yours, you did all that could be expected, so quit crying and give mother a major grin… " Despite the itchiness in my eyes and the pain in my heart from wanting to scream at the world, I broke the hug and smiled brightly at her. I actually grinned like somebody with no aggravation throughout everyday life. She saw me attempting to squint back the haze of tears in her eyes yet would, she be able to grinned even as an episode of tears moved down her cheeks. "Val, you are solid." I broke the hug after she finished shedding all of her tears, she said as she sobbed as I hugged her again. "I will be back OK, and grab a bite, mom will smack your butt on the off chance that she saw you cried while she was out." She laughed uncontrollably as I left the condo, pantomiming blowing kisses at her. "Val, you are solid" I couldn't help but laugh bitterly as I heard Sonia's words. I just try to hide my feelings because I don't want to appear weak, but the truth is that I'm weak. I'm not strong. I looked for part-time jobs with immediate pay using my phone. In addition, I need to find a new job to take my place at the one I was fired from. Similarly, I attended an interview and was eventually hired as a three-hour part-time waiter. Then, I started the work right away and after some time it was at that point late then I loaded up a taxi to First class Café. That, yet I ate a few bites when I showed up there prior to taking care of clients. I also dragged my legs as I entered Sonia's apartment, and as soon as she saw me enter the living room, she began asking me questions. "Val, the effortlessness to abandon the house terminates tomorrow, so what's your arrangement? I'm here to assist you in any way I can." I completely comprehended her inquiry as soon as I returned from my final daytime part-time job. "Sonia, I haven't eaten all day, I need to eat," I said. She ran into the kitchen and strolled in with attractive food on the table. "Val, do you really want this child?" I looked at her with contempt as I stood up from the food on the table to answer her question. She beggars me by asking that question. "Since, in such a case that you truly need to keep the child, you won't be starving it how you are." I turned back to the food on the table after she said that. She is correct; I am putting my baby's life in danger by overstressing myself, but I can't help it when I am in desperate need of money. "So…" I received that signal, she said, giving me a questioning glance. "I found a cheap apartment for less than ten dollars a month; it's far away from here, but I can deal with that," the renter stated. I told her, actually chomping on the food in my mouth. "Val, you… " She was going to begin convincing me to move in with her sweetheart, yet I wasn't prepared to talk about this with her. Sonia might be okay with everything, but I can't do that because it would mean giving up my dignity and pride for her. "Please don't try to persuade me because it won't work; I'm fine with it." I said solidly, and I can see her press her lips into a slender line through my fringe vision. "All right, but promise to keep me informed." As tears streamed down her cheeks, she gently squeezed my right arm. "Yes, I will; now stop crying before I leave this table for you," he said. It worked perfectly for me to try to make the atmosphere lively. That evening, the emergency clinic messaged me showing the amount I'm owing them. I stuffed my assets prepared to leave the following morning since all that in the house isn't Sonia's nevertheless the organization's. Sonia was standing next to the hired taxi when I got ready to leave the following morning. "Be careful, make sure to call me when you get comfortable, I can't really accept that my slip-ups caused this." She needed to fire up one more period of wailing, however I embraced her firmly with a harsh grin, it isn't her shortcoming that things turned out along these lines. "Goodbye, I'll give you a call." Before the taxi I hired to get to the apartment that a friend helped me rent, I waved at her. I would prefer not to shed a single tear, but then I tasted something salty. Then I realized that I had been crying despite repeatedly telling myself to be strong no matter what life throws at me. In addition, before smiling once more to myself, I cleaned my face with the palm of my hand on the back. I also paid the driver before entering the older building. In addition, I found my apartment number as I made my way to the stairs. In addition, when I walked into the one-room apartment that barely had a bed in it and had nothing in it, not even a bed, I almost screamed in shock. In addition, I signed deeply perplexed—what am I to expect from a ten-dollar-a-month apartment? In addition, I forgot to bring my bag with me to my workplace. In addition, I tried to eat, but I suddenly lost appetite, kept going to the bathroom whenever I could, threw up in my lungs, and the frequent vomiting is making me weak. It was already past ten when I got to my new apartment, but when I opened the door, what I saw was not what I had imagined, not even in my dreams. The room was flipped around and my garments and archives were littered on the floor, and my two boxes were mysteriously gone. I attempted to get in touch with the landlord, but I was unsuccessful. My phone beeped while I sat on the ground. Similarly, I ignored the warning to let my exhausted body rest. I looked at my phone the next morning and saw a debit alert and missed calls from Sonia. Before I looked at the messages, I raised my eyebrows. After I read the message, I dropped my phone. "No! This cannot be true!" In disbelief, I yelled. My record has recently been cleared, the installment I got yesterday from two better places, the cash I should repay to my companion who assisted me with leasing this condo. It felt like as long as I can remember was disintegrating, and I didn't have a clue about the most effective way to respond. Tears appear to be far away from me and words miles away. How did I at any point merit this? It's as if I'm meant to only experience the negative aspects of life, while others are meant to experience the positive aspects. I got my telephone to cross-check the charge alert once more, maybe I didn't see it appropriately. Subsequent to perusing the directive for the 10th time, it then occurred to me that I needed to consider an exit plan. Abruptly, my telephone rang and it was an obscure number. The guest called two times, and the third time I chose to get. "Who am I talking… " The individual on the other line didn't allow me to complete my explanation before he said in an imposing voice. "Valerie, today marks the end because I've demonstrated sufficient patience with you. Forget about it if you don't bring your belongings to my place today. I can no longer be a gentleman." I don't need to ask him for his name because I know it's Christine because Christine yelled over the phone.