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Chapter 69

“However, Jeremy is from a part of the country where they won’t even discuss a rape program. How did you bring up the fact that you’re a…participant?”

Christian took quick, shallow breaths. “I told him right away. I didn’t want to keep something like that from him. He was perplexed, but he didn’t seem to be too concerned. Now I guess he’s wondering why it’s not going away if I’m in love with him. And why would someone want that to begin with?”

“An excellent question, Christian. I know that circumstances for you were unusual, but you still…allowed events to unfold. Why do you think that is?”

Christian blinked and steadied himself. He had to be honest. For Jeremy, he had to be. “Because I think, on some level, I must want sex.” His throat nearly closed, but he’d gotten the words out. He took a deep breath. “I can’t get over the feelings that it’s wrong. That I’m disgusting. So if I’m raped, it’s…it’s not my fault. It’s not my responsibility at all.”