Chapter 23: Cosplay Can Be Nice

(Perspective Rimi Kokorone)

I do not know what to do…

My life has always been a constant quest to fill the void in my heart. I'm not sure what caused this feeling of being incomplete, it's such an overwhelming feeling that it hurts.

This void was filled a bit when Ryuto-sama came into my life.

I remember our meeting as if it had been yesterday. I went to fight a group of fools who formed a group of martial artists, I defeated their leader and the rest of the fools were not happy so I faced everyone.

I could have defeated them, but that would give me permanent injuries and I didn't want to ruin my future as a martial artist so I couldn't give it my all. Ryuto-sama protected me and allowed me to join him. That was the happiest moment of my life, but at the same time it brought me a complex feeling.

I try my best to get Ryuto-sama's attention but he always treats me like a nuisance. He pushes me away and doesn't value my efforts to make him happy, it saddens me that Ryuto-sama doesn't want to accept my feelings.

Despite the pain of rejection, I was not willing to give up, Ryuto-sama was the first person who helped me fill a bit of the emptiness inside me so I wanted to be with him forever, loneliness is terrifying and I don't want to be alone.

One day Ogata-sensei took me to see Ryuto-sama. I was happy to see him after a few days apart but I freaked out to see him hurt.

Ryuto-sama had a fight with his childhood friend Kenichi, seeing Ryuto-sama's state, I wanted to kill Kenichi but Ogata-sensei stopped me saying that this would help Ryuto-sama's growth.

We left the city to return to one of Yami's bases as Ryuto-sama needed treatment and training however Ogata-sensei brought another guest, or should I call him a captive?

His name is Luis, he doesn't like that they use honorifics to call him so I call him by his name.

Originally I was upset since Luis was a friend of Kenichi but that annoyance disappeared when I learned that Luis was abandoned by the Ryozanpaku.

Ogata-sensei commissioned me to take care of Luis and we both became friends. Luis knows many things, he is a good listener, he does not bother with my nonsense and supports me in my dream of becoming a Hollywood celebrity.

Luis is a very nice person, he is the first real friend I have ever had.

I am popular on the internet and I have many fans but I know that none of them are my friends, they only appreciate me for my appearance.

I have the need to make happy men who treat me well, even though I do not intend to give my body to anyone other than Ryuto-sama, I like to wear cosplay so that those who see me are happy.

Although that makes others happy, Ryuto-sama does not appreciate my effort, instead, Luis has helped me by giving me cosplay ideas and even knows about sewing so he was able to help me make new designs while we met.

I like Luis a lot, I feel sad when I see his depressed expression on him every time he thinks of his fellow Ryozanpaku. I want to kill those idiots who hurt my friend but Luis insists that they were not wrong, especially his former teacher Shigure for whom Luis has strong feelings.

Luis is too kind, I wish Ryuto-sama was that considerate of me.

I felt jealous of Shigure being able to receive such sincere affection, as to whether I felt jealous because Ryuto-sama didn't love me like that or if she was for another reason is something I don't know.

It makes me a little happy that Ryuto-sama seems jealous of my closeness to Luis so he tells me not to get too close to Luis. Although normally that would make me happy, I don't want to abandon my friend, Luis supports me in my dreams so I don't want to leave him alone when he is suffering.

In my talks with Luis, I have realized that we are similar, we both have a void due to a complicated past with our families. My father abandoned my mother before I was born which made my mother always sad until she died of loneliness.

Luis's parents died a few months ago, but before that, they were very distant and even abusive. Luis does not mourn their deaths since he did not love them, however, this has left him a feeling of loneliness that haunts him.

Talking among us I realized that the emptiness inside me diminished with Luis's presence, having a friend is nice but for some reason, it bothers me to hear him talk about his teacher Shigure, maybe it's because Luis still loves her even though she left him, yes, must be it.

When we got to Yami's base, Ogata-sensei spoke to me. He told me that Luis lost his memory a long time ago, he used to be a disciple of Yami but after an accident, he developed amnesia so he did not remember anything about Yami and ended up joining the Ryozanpaku.

Now they were about to give him medical treatment to help him recover his memories and return to Yami so we will be partners.

This made me happy as I will be able to be with my friend, but the rest of what Ogata-sensei said made something inside me break.

"To prevent him from having a relapse where his mind suffers permanent damage, you have to become one of the pillars that stabilize him" - Ogata-sensei spoke in the most serious tone I have ever heard. - "Luis seems to have feelings for you so you are the one"

My mind went into chaos. Luis fell in love with me?

I could not understand. I know that I am beautiful but I don't think that love can be developed by looking good.

My heart only had Ryuto-sama so I didn't see love from Luis, but now that I think about it there were many signs that Luis was starting to develop feelings for me.

When Luis saw that I was annoyed when he talked about Shigure, he began to avoid the subject, he has always been attentive to me and worries if I show the slightest sign of sadness, he gives me comfort when Ryuto-sama rejects me, he listens to what I say with all attention and He does not try to end our conversations, he praises me not only for my appearance but also for my personality, talent, and character ...

Oh god, it's true! Luis is in love with me!

What do I do?!

My heart is only for Ryuto-sama but I don't want to hurt my only friend! This week Luis has given me more support and happiness than anyone else ... he has supported Me more than Ryuto-sama ...

My mind snapped out of its daze at Ogata-sensei's words.

"That's why I want you to form a bond with Luis ..." - Ogata-sensei continued explaining with a serious expression that said this was an order.

Luis's meditation technique involves sexual relations with a woman, if the woman is someone with whom he has strong emotional ties then he will be more helpful.

I know the importance of meditation for a martial artist, in a case like Luis where the mind is in a delicate state, meditation is essential to avoid future damage.

Now that I think about it, maybe Luis had training sessions with Shigure and that's why he's so attached to his teacher.

How strange, why does that bother me?

Ogata-sensei gave me the order to wait for Luis in my room to give him my body.

I wanted to cry, scream and even fight to avoid it, I didn't want to give my body to someone other than Ryuto-sama, but Ogata-sensei threatened to separate me from Ryuto-sama forever.

What ended up convincing me was that Ogata-sensei said that only I could help Luis since even if he meditated with other women, only by being with a woman that he will love is that he could avoid having a relapse in his mental health.

I didn't want to abandon Luis, I didn't want to betray Ryuto-sama, I didn't know what to do as my body moved automatically to get to my room.

I hugged my pillow tightly while crying. I did not know what to do.

Should I try to escape?

Ask Ryuto-sama for help?

As much as I thought I could not find a solution and for some reason, the idea of ​​resisting became smaller.

I don't hate Luis because I trust him, I know he won't force me to do something I don't want to, but I'm afraid that he won't be able to resist his impulses and decide to take advantage of me in the heat of the moment.

I kept shaking in my bed for several hours until the door to my room started to open.

"Rimi are you here? I've been knocking on the door for a while and nobody answers "- Luis's voice rang out.

I got so caught up in my thoughts that I didn't notice when he arrived.

Luis entered the room while I continued hugging my pillow. Although it didn't look much different, his expression had changed.

He now did not show that melancholy and constant loneliness that he maintained since we met, he seemed more cheerful, friendly, and motivated. It seems that everything went well with the treatment of him which makes me happy.

When Luis saw me, his expression turned one of concern and he approached me. I trembled scared but I didn't try to run away, I don't want to cause problems for Ryuto-sama or Luis… If this has to happen I'll let it happen.

When Luis is healthy I will apologize to Ryuto-sama and then take my life as I am not worthy of Ryuto-sama.

Luis did not take my body as I imagined, instead, he used his sleeve to wipe my tears while he hugged me.

"Rimi, what happened ?!" - Luis's voice sounded so anxious while his embrace was so warm that I couldn't take it anymore and I began to cry with all my might.

I buried my face in Luis's chest while my screams and tears came out uncontrollably. It hurt, I didn't want to betray Ryuto-sama and I didn't want to hurt Luis's feelings, no matter what choice he made he would end up hurting one of them.

"Everything is fine Rimi, cry all you need" - Luis spoke with a voice so soft that it tickled my heart.

I felt safe while he hugged me, it was the first time that the emptiness inside me completely disappeared, even if it was for just a moment I felt complete.

I was crying for an hour until I could calm down. When I raised my face I could see Luis's loving gaze.

Before I thought that that was the look of a friend who cares about his friend, now I know that it is the expression of someone in love who looks at his loved one.

I felt strange, I liked that look, it made me feel that someone valued me for who I am and not for how I look. At the same time, I felt sad because I couldn't reciprocate those feelings.

"Luis, I ... I'm sorry" - I wanted to tell him that I couldn't do it, I wanted to explain that I couldn't accept his feelings. - "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I can't accept your feelings, I'm sorry"

I felt like I did something unforgivable that deserved the worst of punishments. Luis did not let go of me and he continued stroking my back to comfort me.

"It's okay" - Luis smiled at me, it was such a sincere smile that it hurt, it hurt because his expression was kind while his look was sad.

"I will continue to support and accompany you because we are friends" - It was such a kind voice that I wanted to cry again.

I understand that feeling, it is the feeling of loving someone who does not love you. It's the same bitterness that I feel when Ryuto-sama rejects me.

Unlike my love for Ryuto-sama where I keep pushing even though I know he will reject me, Luis only wants my happiness even if he himself is not happy.

His love is more beautiful than mine.

I want to experience that kind of love, I want to feel loved, I want to know what it feels like for someone to love me that way.

It was a moment of impulse, without thinking about Ryuto, Ogata, Yami, or anything else I threw myself to kiss Luis, it was so sudden that Luis could not react and he fell back on the bed while my arms wrapped around him.

Luis did not reject me, one arm hugged my waist while his other hand caressed my cheek.

I'm not sure if this is a mistake or the answer he was looking for, all I know is that in this kiss I felt the love that I have sought all my life.

Maybe my love for Ryuto wasn't true love, this moment with Luis-sama makes my heart feel warm and fluffy. It is the most pleasant sensation I have ever felt in my life.

Loving someone who also loves you is nice, Ogata said that Luis-sama will have to be with other women, and if he falls in love with someone else I will no longer have to be with him.

That doesn't matter now, I want to be with Luis-sama, I want to feel this love forever.

If Luis-sama wants other women, it's fine as long as he continues to love me, now that I know how he feels, reciprocated love, I don't think I can live without Luis-sama.

"Luis-sama ... Do you love me?" - I separated our kiss and asked in a heated voice, although I know his feelings, I still want to hear it.

"Love is a strong word ..." - Luis-sama caressed my cheek. - "What I feel for you is greater than that, but since I don't know a suitable word then yes, I love you Rimi"

"Luis-sama ~" - I kissed him again.

If it's Luis-sama, I don't mind giving him everything I have and everything I am, Luis-sama accepts me despite my defects, he loves me for who I am.

Luis-sama ♥

--- (Luis Santos Perspective) ---

Ahem, well that was nice. Rimi has given me a new taste for cosplay sex. I experienced it before but hadn't enjoyed it that much as now.

[Mission: The love of an idol

Success conditions:

1) Win the affection of Rimi Kokorone (1/1) success

2) Convince her to join your harem (1/1) success

Failure conditions:

1) Rejection of Rimi Kokorone (0/1)

Reward: 1 Cosplay Costume, 1 Gift of Love]

I got the mission when Rimi jumped in to kiss me since until then she saw her as someone I liked to talk to rather than a possible partner.

It is the fastest mission I have completed, Rimi deserves a reward.

For now, I could use a nap that Jenazad's torture still bothers me. Having a nap while hugging a cute girl in a maid costume sounds nice so I'll just chill out for the rest of the night.

"Hey Listen! Muahahahaha you walk the path of a netori master! As expected of my partner! I am incredible!" - I feel so good after getting Rimi that I don't even mind Navi's stupid things.

This little jerk seems to have the tact not to interfere when I'm 'meditating', but once I'm done then Navi starts yelling as he flies everywhere.

Whatever, it's nice to hug Rimi so I'll ignore Navi for tonight.