I AM A FAILURE

"J-Jeane why?" That is what I first uttered since the current situation was beyond me. I have always maintained a cold attitude towards her, but what did I do to deserve this?

"WHY!!! You really don't know, you bastard. Despite being your sister what did I get in return? You sold me off to that playboy to ruin my future and you still expect me to be obedient to you."

"What are you saying, I never....."

My words are interrupted by as Rayna steps on my bleeding stump on the leg. The pain makes me want to puke, but I nevertheless try to remain silent. After all I cannot give the bitch the satisfaction.

She gives a cold look I have never seen before saying some seriously messed up shit.

"You don't have to lie. James has told us everything we need to know. Including you sending your sister to the fire pit to gain more power in the clan, and trying to drug me to make me 'yours'. I really cannot understand why I ever admired you before. Trash like you ought die. The sooner the better."

"What the fuck are you spou... ARGh"

This time the smug bastard James slams the halberd against the side of my face interrupting me yet again before putting forth his usual righteous bullcrap.

"You guys should really not spend your energy on filth like him. Let's just get this over with."

He readied his halberd to pierce through my heart before stopping and asking my sister with a disgustingly tender face "You know he is still your brother do you want to let him go. I can do it if you say so."

"No. He no longer has a place in my heart. Please big bro James, get rid of him."

Wow. That was all i could think. The entire episode looks like some kind of sick joke to me. I want to know where it went all wrong, I want to know it so badly. Yet, as I look at the mocking look the bastard secretly gives me, it all starts to click. I begin to understand.

The fucker comes close to me and whispers like the devil "Know this is your retribution. This is the revenge of all those who have fallen to you. Still I will end this vengeance with you. As for your sister, you needn't worry. I will take better care of her than you ever did. So go in peace."

When things came to this all I had in my head is the nerve of this fucker. He deceives my kin, seduces them, uses them to ambush and kill me all the while looking like he's doing the world a fuckin favour. I mean can you believe this shit.

Still when my thoughts were spiralling towards stupid shit like this,the bastard finally does me a favour and skewers me straight through the heart. Listening to his bullshit to me was more painful the my body that was currently in pieces. I use my one good eye to look one last time at Rayna, Jeanne and finally the bastard who is the cause for all of this. As I close my eyes for the last time, I was filled with regrets. I should have been more close with Jeanne, I should have listened to dad more, I Should have told mom I loved her more often, I should have been more open with my feelings towards Rayna. I suddenly realised that in my journey to be the most perfect heir for the clan, me as an individual was an abject failure. I was a failure of a person. I realised that even if I die today other than mom and dad, I don't think anyone else would be sad. Hell, some may even be happy since the death of the heir means that my other peers get a chance to once more compete for the position. Suddenly I felt that everything that I did till now was pointless. During my final moments it is not anger and resentment that fills me, rather I feel empty. If I was given a second chance, just one more chance the I would try my best to enjoy my life more, make it more colorful perhaps. But I still will definitely still butcher this motherfucker though. While thinking like this I finally fall into the embrace of the void.

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I still seem to be waiting for voids embrace though nothing seems to be happening. I also vaguely feel comfortable somehow. Kind of feels like when mom used to tuck me and Jeanne. WAIT!!! That's exactly how it feels like. I hurriedly open my eyes and to my absolute disbelief, here I am, in front of my mom who has just tucked me and another cute girl by my side to bed. I blankly stare at her and wonder what the fuck is happening when,

"What's the matter sweetheart?"

"Mom, why am I in heaven?"

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