Chapter 13: Axel

The new day came, I had a raging headache from last night. I would think from what happened in the past I wouldn't drink like that ever again but I had my weak moment.

I hate that I let it happen. That I couldn't do something different to drown my unwanted thoughts.

The non-stop calls didn't help the pounding in my head. Reaching over to my nightstand, I felt nothing where my table should be. Confused I cracked open my eyes, only to close them from the brightness.

"Fuck, who turned on the lights?" I said under my breath. Slowly opening my eyes again, I blinked away the blur, when my vision became clear, I noticed I wasn't in my room.

Slowing getting off the floor, it didn't faze me how sore my body was from sleeping on the floor all night. In the kitchen at that.

"Damn, such a shit feeling. I really gotta start controlling my drinking habits better."

Forgetting about my phone, I dragged my body upstairs, to my room and take a shower.

After I finished, I headed downstairs, with just a towel wrapped around my waist.

Just then, my phone rang again, remembering it was the source that woke me up.

So here I am getting out of my car. My sister called me, about how she wanted those pastries from the cafe she went to meet Kaname at. Asking me to buy some and bring it to her.

Any other times I would've refused flat out but today was different. I said I would go get it for her. And heavens know how glad I am.

On my way there I never thought that I would see the one guy that has been on my mind. I have been wanting to meet him but I don't know anything about him.

It was like I was given a chance. Seeing him looking as handsome as the night I first saw him. He is just perfect. I got to admit, I did panic a little when he tried to ignore me but I couldn't let the opportunity go to waste.

So I showed desperation, something I have never done before. But oh how I'm glad it worked.

At the cafe, there were so many things I wanted to tell him, but it was just a mess in my head. Then he called out to me and it was like my mind went silent, only one thing was clear.

I couldn't stop myself from blurting it out.

" Go out with me." My eyes widen in horror. Shit, that's not how I wouldn't to say things, I mentally scold myself.

Looking at him I saw his face. He is completely surprised. Of course, he is. He made it known he wants nothing to do with me, yet, it's the same guy who is asking him out. Okay, okay let's calm down and start again.

"Sorry, that's not how I wanted to say it. I meant to say that you captivated me in every way possible. Even though we haven't had a normal conversation I can't get you out of my head—" I paused, taking a breath in.

I look at him. It seems he calmed down in a way. Alright, I'm doing good.

"I don't want to scare you away, so if you give me a chance to get to know you and vice versa. As friends." I finished. I can't help but feel anxious. I'm nervous to hear what his answer is going to be.

What if— " just friends?" My thoughts were cut off. Making me snap my head up.

"What?" Stupidly I asked.

"We get to know each but as friends. That's it, right? And if I don't like it I get to cut off contact with you?"

I couldn't believe what I'm hearing. I never thought he would agree, seeing how I scared him away many times. This feeling of joy is that is spreading across my body, I haven't felt this way in a long time.

I almost forgot what it felt like, it's so overwhelming I don't know what to do.

"Yes, that's right. Just friends and you can cut me off at any time. Let's exchange numbers" I said pulling out my phone.

I see Kaname being a little hesitant. Maybe this wasn't a good idea? Was I too forward? Lowering my head, so many thoughts crossed my mind.

Just then I see a phone in view, surprised I looked at him holding out his phone, while, looking out the window.

Saying I'm surprised is an understatement, shock is more right. I couldn't help to chuckle, he looks so adorable—wait, is that—he's blushing?

Fuck man, is it too late to ask if we can be sex friends instead? No, no. This itself is a miracle enough. Don't get greedy.

Taking his phone, I made sure to accidentally touch his finger. And if that made me crave more for him, I'm afraid what would happen if I just hold him in my arms.

Finishing typing my number in, I called it and got his number. Naming him Kitten. He's feisty like one and scared as one. It's best suited for him.

I now know how a high school girl feels when she got her crush's phone number. It's the best feeling in the world.

Calm down, you're too old to be feeling like this. I tried to calm myself down. It worked to an extent.

Hearing a chair scratch across the floor, I looked to see Kaname getting up. Instinctively I got up as well. " I'll start heading back." He said. I didn't want him to go so soon.

"I see. Thank you for hearing me out and listening to my request, let me walk you out." I replied. He only nodded.

Walking out of the cafe, we both didn't move. Should I ask him out this weekend? I asked myself. What if he says no?

"I'll see you I guess." I heard him say.

I wasn't given the chance to say anything back when he sped walked away. Watching his retreating figure blur into the distance.

Disappointed is what I felt. But soon my mood left when I remember what he said.

"He said he'll see me! That means he's looking forward to being with me, right?" I asked no one in particular.

Okay, I'll text him. Let's do that later or tomorrow. I don't want him to think I'm desperate. I thought. Not being about to hide my smile.

With that in mind, I walked back, happiness in my heart completely forgetting my sister's desserts she asked for. I knew I'll be in so much trouble but one thing replayed over in my mind.

I hope I don't ruin this.

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