Queen of nerves

The Queen of nerves.

"Don't embarrass us and turn, Tena." She whispered. "You won't believe who's been looking at us and has decided to walk towards us as I speak!"

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As soon as Cat told me the name of the person, my breath hitched and I couldn't breathe anymore.

I knew this day would come, the day that Catherine's popularity would make the guy of my dreams walk up to us, the day that her famous stunts will finally be noticed by him and I'll finally be visible to him... But I'm still not prepared for it.

I'm so nervous and can't breathe right now.

There's so many things that could go wrong, so many for example, I could say something stupid like I always do. I always talk rubbish and Catherine is the only one who could put up with that.

Oh I need to calm down, today has come whether I like it or not. I just have to talk less... umm I'll try.

Breathe in and out, in and out, in and out!

I try to calm myself.

Cat was looking at me curiously before her curious face turned to an amused one and she tried to stop herself from laughing.

I rolled my eyes at her, soon I felt her getting tense and she focused her eyes on me, the cafeteria has also gotten quiet. And I just knew he was behind me. And there's also a nice cologne filling my nostrils that just smells heavenly, I know it must be him even though I have never been so close to him to smell his cologne before but it has to be him, I just know it.

Suddenly Cat looked up and smiled sweetly.

"Hi Asher, umm would you like to join me?" Cat asked, to someone behind me that I haven't gotten the courage to turn a look at.

But Cat has definitely become courageous, she asked him to sit with us, she wasn't like this before her dress ups, her popularity had changed so many things about her that I know and I guess it has also given her a boost of confidence.

"Yeah sure, that's why I came all the way here." His deep voice answered, hearing the voice behind me and really close sent shivers down my spine, my heart beat faster and loudly that everyone should be able to hear it.

The wind coming from the window blew the scent more into my nostrils and I just love it.

I even closed my eyes and took in a deep breath but when I opened it I saw Cat cringing.

I can't blame her cause that was really weird even for me but I couldn't help it, the moment came and I couldn't resist. I just hope Asher did not see me.

Cat knows I have a huge crush on Asher, no I'm in love with him. Madly in love and she just says I'm crazy.

Every girl in school is in love with him of course, he's the captain of the football team, a jock and a hottie. He's cute, he's a Greek god! He's perfect in every way, when he plays, interact with friends.

I love staring at him every time we have classes together.

He's amazing! Wonderful and perfectly made from his wonderful dirty blonde hair that's always messy every time I see him yet still gorgeous to his wonderful sky blue eyes to his jawline and his clear skin that's perfectly tanned. His kissable pink lips sometimes doesn't allow me to sleep at night and I always wondered how they would taste like.

And his abs are just drool worthy. I once saw him without his shirt on when he was in the boys bathroom, I accidentally gotten into the boys bathroom.

I was fluttered but couldn't stop looking at him mostly his torso and thankful it was Cat and I going into the bathroom that day and she dragged me out of there before I start drooling in front of him.

"So Catherine, you decided it was Cinderella today?" His voice broke me out of my thoughts and also the scent of his cologne which i now smell beside me.

My heart dropped. No I am not ready for this!

Tena will you calm yourself down?! He's a human being like the rest, like everyone here, he's just a human boy and you can talk to him because he's nothing... No he's not nothing he's everything to me!

Ugh even my head is in conflict.

"Yeah," Cat chirped, "this school needs some elegance don't you think?" She said with an Russian accent and smiled flirtatiously at him while batting her eyelashes.

She is just teasing though, my best friend knows about my crush and won't do anything to hurt me; that's why I love her so much.

"And I see you are giving it the deserved grace." He gestured to her and her dress and she giggled.

And another was heard too.

Hoarse and forced. Sounded terrible to the ears.

I wish the ground would open and swallow me.

I'm the most embarrassing person on the surface of the earth!

The giggle was from me, the terrible one that sounded dreadful. I didn't know how it happened? I didn't want to laugh, no I wanted to remain quiet until Asher talks to me himself so I'm really so confused how that escaped?!

Not like what she said was even that funny?

Two pairs of eyes were on me now and i would have loved it if it was for some other reason!

"Umm... She is... Umm the dress is..." I began stuttering. I try signaling Cat to help me out but she did not understand.

I try winking my eyes multiple times to alert her but it only looked like my eyes were twitching and she gave me a weird look.

"Are you okay, Tena?" She asked.

Seriously?! This girl I unbelievable! How can she be dense at a moment like this? She knows how nervous I can get...

I try my hardest not to turn and look at Asher cause I'm a hundred percent sure he's looking at me.

"Dude what's wrong with your eye? And your voice?" I heard him ask and my heart just sank.

Dude? Dude?! DUDE!

I don't even dress like a guy?! I'm not a tomboy so why is he calling me dude?

Or was my voice just so deep that he unconsciously considered me as one? Today is the best day ever, not. From great, worst!

I cleared my throat unconsciously then stood up.

I kept my eyes fixed on Cat, "umm what I want to say is... I need to use the bathroom."

I quickly left the table and was talking towards the exit of the Cafeteria.

Gosh! I can be weird at anytime but God why right now? My life is ruined!

I heard some movements behind me and I turned back to see and saw a group of guys, to be specific the football team join Asher at Catherine's and mine table.

They all settled down and even took my seat, Catherine was in the middle giggling and had a grin on her face.

I sighed.

I walked away and to the bathroom to clear my head.

Walking down the hallway, the air suddenly felt cold and I felt watched again.

No one was here with me, I'm all alone but not completely as I feel the gaze on me but I don't hear any footsteps.