Soon doll face

Why does time come to still?

Why does it is that even in the happiest moment we tend to feel sad?

Why is that we are so close to someone yet they seem to be far away?

At times it was difficult to understand what those love stories, phrases, meant. It had so many deep words that I would always frown at it. The longing, the yearning, it was all hopeless for me. Now I understood. Every meaning of it. True to it. Your understanding enhances when you go through it, Firdaus thought to herself. Just a mere gesture bought out so many untold feelings within them. Nothing could be said but their hearts understood everything. Their whole ride was silent. Asad kept stealing short glances at her while she kept looking ahead. Nothing was said but many feeling that arose from them was flowing within the car. Firdaus started to feel suffocated. As much as she longed to be felt loved from him his words did no justice to her so that she could feel his love. Her heart was yearning for him but her mind was putting barriers around it as it was feeling a lot and that was confusing her brain so to protect it from any more hurt it resorted to building walls around the heart so that it doesn't goes mad as it was it is. Past days where steady as she dealt with it and she had learnt her new living habit like that but then out of nowhere he came to knock her out. It was as if all her resolve was dissolving. But to be honest Asad was pulling her back or that's what she thought at least but she didn't know that he was not pulling her back. This time he wasn't. Unlike in past, where his feeling was not that matured now it had grown to intense. He needed her. He was not the same Asad as she thought she was. Time and situations alter persons inner beliefs at time. Many a time good people drift to wrong path and wrong people drift to right. Well that is what it is, Allah always take trails of his fellow people's. And why he shouldn't? Well he created us and he bestowed his blessings on us so he has every right for. Asad like that had went on a wrong lane with his relationship. Instead of choosing love he recruited for anger and ignorance and that path somewhere had to end. But mostly when wrong paths come to an end it doesn't leaves us like that, it surely does live Its impact on us. On our souls. Sometimes the damages are irrevocable. And that was what he was exactly afraid of. Firdaus was his. He will try to turn every stone and leaves if he has to so that he can have her back. This time there won't be anyone between her and him. It would be us. I won't let her ignore me or my feelings. She can't run this time. Because where ever she goes she would find me. In front of her. I will win her faith. With this determination he dropped her to her college.

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"Ya Allah Elnaz how much packing is left?" Jannat asked her daughter who was busy fixing her clothes. She was tired of this girl. If not for wedding then she would have already switched off to bed. Elnaz's best friend Shruti has her wedding this weekend and the whole family was invited. Only Jannat how much shruti coaxed them so that they would attend her wedding. Well three of them ready but she didn't know about Asad and Firdaus. Although she will ask them during dinner but deeply, she was having a feeling that Asad won't come.

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"Asad beta. Elnaz's friend shruti is having her wedding in Nainital. She has invited us all this week so what do you think can you make it?" Jannat asked her son while pouring water in her glass.

"Hmm." he seemed to be thinking for a while as he looked towards Firdaus who was silently eating her food. Well! She loves hilly regions and this short trip will allow me to spend some time with her. Moreover, everyone would be busy over there so why not have some fun in coaxing his beauty over there. On top of Its winter that means snowfall. Hmm...

"Yeah sure mom. I'm in." He replied as he cast a quick glance at Firdaus who was talking to his sister. God! Does this girl have a little of her time to look at me? He thought.

"Firdaus?" Jannat called her. Firdaus quickly composed herself as she looked at her.

" jee (yes)?"

"What about your beta? Can you make it?" Jannat asked her.

"Ammi actually Elnaz was speaking about that only. You guys are leaving tomorrow evening right but I have my assignment submission day after tomorrow. I think I can't make it." She hesitantly told her. Hearing this Asad broke in to fists of cough. What? He silently yelled in his mind.

"Ohh beta! It's okay we will go to her reception then." Jannat told her dejectedly.

"No Ammi please don't do this. You all go for it. I can manage myself here I'm sure." She quickly butted in.

" but beta we can't leave you here alone with no one of us around you. And we know you get nightmares-" "WHAT?" Asad bestowed on hearing that. That bast*rd has surely left an impact on my wife. Poor Firdaus. And he didn't know that she was suffering made him more furious. No one told him. Everyone where gaping at him. He then composed his demeanor and cleared his throat a little so that he comes out of his mind.

"Mom don't you worry I will stay here with Firdaus" he spoke authoritatively, looking at her mom with sincerity.

"But you don't have-

"No Firdaus either that or we are not going leaving you here alone. I can't be at rest knowing you are alone." Jannat interrupted her in.

"Mom don't worry I will stay here with her and as soon as she is done with assignment, we will leave for Nainital." He butted in sparing Firdaus a glance he made his point clear leaving no room to argue.

"Okay. Are you're okay with-it beta?" Jannat asked Firdaus who was all shocked from the discussion turning on the table. She meekly nodded her head while Jannat looked at her Husband Zayn who was already looking at her with his signature smirk on his face. He winked at her which made her blush. And they all resumed eating again.

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Next evening...

"Is all done?" Firdaus asked her sister in law. Who just huffed out loudly after finally being able to find her silver peep-toe sandal?

"Yeah pretty much." As she turned and scanned to check if anything is left. It was decided that they would stay a day or two more to explore Nainital. Not to forget that her father even mentioned that if they like the place then they even might buy a flourished hill top tented bungalow over there. You can say that she was pretty much excited. And who can deny it? Elnaz was a bubbly and innocent girl who found happiness even in small things. After freshening up both of them headed out of her room to hall while the driver dragged Elnaz's luggage towards his car.

"Ammi where is Bhai?" She asked her mom who was lecturing Sumaiya Appi about the house and her father was also not to be seen.

"He is in his office. He will see us at the airport. He got caught up in the last moment." Jannat replied her daughter.

"And dad?"

"He is waiting for us in the parking area lower ground. We should hurry before it gets late." She told her daughter as she turned towards Firdaus who was sorting out the things on the table.

"Beta Firdaus. Come here child. Ya Allah! I don't know how I would be there when I know that you are alone in this house. It's the same feeling I get when Asad or Elnaz goes out alone. Restlessness. Although this time I'm little less worried as I know that you are alone you have Asad and you both can take care of each other. But It's a mother's heart after all right?" Jannat sighed as she patted Firdaus's hair lovingly.

"Yes Ammi. I understand your concern. Don't worry about me and yeah I would take care of Asad. You all go safely and take care of yourself. Happy and safe journey Ammi and Elnaz." Firdaus said promptly as she was feeling guilty that her mother in law was stressing about her.

"Khudahafiz my child."

"Khudahafiz" she waved at both of them as they moved out of the house and got settled in the car.

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The dinner was ready. It was half past 10 in the evening. Asad was on his way towards his home. Deep within his heart he was happy that first time he can consult his wife without any obstacle. It's not that he found his family as a burden or something and more so his family was educated and they never interfered in between their matter until it was necessary. He was excited and anticipated at the same time. He had this opportunity in his hand and he didn't want to let it go like that. On the other hand, Firdaus completed her assignment and cleaned the messy house with the help of maids. She had even arranged the dining table. Turning around she checked if anything was left to be sorted out when the bell rang. And to be honest it was not just the bell but it was her heart also that was thudding along. She checked if she can find Sumaiya Appi but she knew that they were off to bed. All the maids where off the duty by 10 pm. So, she quietly made her way towards the door and cautiously opened it. On seeing in front, her she felt that the hairs on her neck stood up and her legs were starting to slightly shake. A lump formed in her throat as she gazed at Asad who was standing in front of her with a few buttons undone so that his chiseled chest was visible, his hair damp, his coat hanging on his other arm but that was not that what affected her the most. It was the look in his eyes. Carnal. Lusted. Intense.

"Hmmm? I.." she stuttered unable to form any coherent word at that moment.

"Can I come in Firdaus. I'm all wet now." He piped in huskily. She shivered as the cool breeze hit her face but that was not it made her shiver. She thought that he meant something else. Did he? Ya Allah!! Am I becoming pervert now a days. Kill this hormone! Arrrggg!! She mentally chided. Asad could see that how flushed she looked as if he had kissed her endlessly and passionately so that she didn't had a single ounce of oxygen to breathe. God! If she is affected with so little of his not-so-much- attempt then how is she going to deal when she comes to know of what he wants between them. He smirked at her and closed the door behind him while she quickly went to the kitchen so that she can have some time to herself to clear her mind out of such perverted thoughts. But poor her, she didn't know that she was not wrong, he purposely made an attempt to seduce her so that her brain can conjure up with emotions and thoughts. After all emotions hamper a person's thinking. And by making her feel attraction he wanted to make her feel his love or more so realize her that she loved him.

Soon Firdaus you would be begging me. Once I'm forgiven you will.

Soon doll face.