KABANATA 3

KABANATA 3: Set up

Matteo Point of View

Hinilot-hilot ko ang aking sentidu when I started to stared my computer. There are many necessary indications for my company and fuck, this is bullshit. I barely had enough rest for it kaya halos wala akong tulog dahil sa ang daming aasikasohin sa kompanya.

Wala na akong maaring gawin sa buhay. Im to old, and I wanted to be married.

I did not do anything so I decided to be more busy working. So I always here at my office everyday. Except bar, women, wine, and especially in the prosperous time. Edelbario company is popular and many of them want to enter the company but I have no intention to talk to those who invest for the company. Invest? What for? I could barely the things here for my own money.

Some years I searched for Mary, but I do not see her until now. Tinanong ko ang apat niyang kaibigan subalit kahit sila ay walang alam kong nasan si Mary ngayon. I sent my spy para sa apat niyang kaibigan, lest they lie me. Maybe they hide Mary for me or they know where it Mary it could be now. Pero ang sabi nila sakin ay nagising silang wala si Mary sa kama nito.

I asked Clifford, at ang sabi daw ni Mary ay babalik sya sa Gregoria para mag-bagong buhay. Pumunta ako sa Gregoria at ang sabi ng mga kaibigan niya doon, ay hindi umuwi si Mary.

Am I crazy to find someone who can not find? Am I crazy to find the woman I hurt? You do not have accounts Matteo, and this is your fault. I want Mary to go back with me. For what for? To hurt her again? Damn... I do not know why I miss that girl anyway.

It's hard to imagine that she loved me for quite but I finished it to struck.

Yes I admit that I miss her. But I always impressed upon my mind that she's one of my playtime. But my heart says I love her so much. Although I always deny myself that I don't really loved Mary. But my heart says I love her, and that is true.

So now where is she? Why did she leave? I probably hurt too? Pero para saan? Bakit ako nasasaktan sa pagkawala niya? Diba ito naman ang gusto kong mang-yari? Damn... Matteo accept tha fact that Mary will never ever came back again. But I cant!

I close my loptop then lean on the backrest.

I gently closed my eyes while imagining the face of Mary. Her smile, her sweet face, her red lips. Super perfect lined. The thick of her eyelashes, and her pointed nose is more splendor to frame her face. She's very beautiful at hindi iyon ipagkakaila.

I'm the first man to got her. I took her Virginity but damn it! Tila hinahanap-hanap ko si Mary.

Mary baby, until now I'm still crazy for you. I miss your lips. Your cares, and your cuddle remained glued to me after all this years.

I will find you Mary! I have to correct the wrongs I have done. Let us corner for this, and I will do anything at hinding-hindi na kita papakawalan pa. I promise! Hinding-hindi na.

My eyes remained closed.

I initiated open my eyes when suddenly theres a knock on the doorposts. Dahan-dahan akong umayos ng upo.

"Come in," Usal ko bago bumukas ang pinto. It's Lorin my secretary.

"Good morning sir," Inangat ko ang ulo ko at tinignan sya. May dala-dala syang iilang papelis na pipermahan ko. And this what I hated the most. "Sir, ito na po 'yong iilang pipermahan mo.." Nilapag niya ang makapal na papel sa desk ko. Honestly , I dont need this. Sayang lang ang efforts ng ibang kompanya dahil sa basaruhan lang naman ito mapupunta. I don't need their investment and project. I have lot's of money and I don't need thier poor company. In short, I don't need help.

"How many is that Lorin?" Ma awtoridad kong tanong.

"There are 50 companies sir," Sagot niya sa mahinang tono. Until now she still afraid of me huh? Natatakot sya dahil one time ay nagwala ako dito sa office. I lost Mary, and I really feel the anger that time.

Isa-isa kong tinignan ang mga papel. Tsk.. Meeting invitation? Proposal? Suggest meeting? Reguest meeting? Financial involvement and project? Stupid. I don't have time for this, their poor little company.

"Throw it," Itinulak ko ang makapal na papel. Hinilot ko ang aking sintedu.

"But Sir, kaylangan----" Inangat ko ang ulo ko saka sya sinmaan ng tingin. Once is enough, once I said it, and I don't have to answer that fucking question.

"I said throw it to the trashcan. Did you ever heard me Lorin? or paulit-ulit nalang tayo?" Giit kong sagot. Im tired of this, I want Mary. I need to find her. This is bullshit!

"Yes Sir," Natataranta niyang kinuha ang mga papel sa mesa ko. Sumandal ulit ako sa swivel chair. Nanatiling nakatayo si Lorin sa harap ko. I forgot!

"You can go," Iminuwestra ko ang pintoan saka sya tuluyang umalis. Marahan akong pumikit ulit. I want to rest, but in Mary arms. I want her to be with me again and over again. Bakit ako nagkakaganito? Bakit hindi ko sya magawang kalimutan. Damn.. Matteo ang dami munang babaeng natikman pero bakit si Mary parin ang hinahanap mo?

Suminghap ako!

Inabot ko ang phone sa gilid saka tinawagan ulit si Lorin.

"Lorin bumalik ka sa office ko," Paos ang boses ko sa pagod. Binalik ko ang telepono. I don't want company sinking. Kailangan kong ayusin ang sarili ko bago ko hanapin si Mary.

Ilang sandali lang ay bumukas ang pinto at bumungad sakin si Lorin. Her foots step dilecate and rang into my ears. Naramdaman kong nakalapit na sya kaya minabuti kong inangat ang aking ulo. She still shaky and I don't like it.

"Any appointment?" Saad ko saka binaling ang tingin sa loptop.

"Yes, Sir. Hmhmhmh you have meeting this afternoon with BIG, thats all, Sir." BIG? They always push their company to tuckle about mined huh? That's booring. Kong gusto nilang kumuha ng mga supplies at construction workers sa kompanya ko ay siguradohin nilang malaki ang ipapatayo nilang builing. Edelbario company, want's bigger summary. I wan't their company description. Nakakawalang ganang makipag trabaho sa mababang uri. I want mall, building, tower, any kind of project basta malaki. Grocery? Shop? Resort? ahotel? Fucking poor. They just wasting my time.

"Cancel it, and don't ever accept their request again." Bagsak boses kong sagot. "Any emails?" Dugtong ko bago sya tignan. Dali-dali niyang binuklad ang kanyang note.

"There are lots of intended company sending their emails Sir. It came from---"

Historical company,

Beranda company,

Churchill chicken company,

Time high,

Silidender,

Goodfellow,

Foundation,

Alemania Montano company

Haminez company,

Carreol University,

"Stop.." Bulyaw ko. Nagkaumbabaga ang kilos ni Lorin sa takot. Pinilig ko ang utak ko. Did I heard something?

"Can you read it back,"  Iminuwestra kong saad. Nag-simula nang mag-basa si Lorin. Pinagdikit ko ang mga palad ko at minabuting makinig ng mabuti.

Historical company,

Beranda company,

Churchill chicken company,

Time high,

Silidender,

Goodfellow,

Foundation,

Alemania Montano company

"Enough," Marahan kong sagot. Alemania Montano Company? Bakit ngayon ko pa narinig yan? Shit.. Bakit ganito kabilis ng tibok ng puso ko? Come on Matteo, ang daming Montano sa buong mundo. Don't expect to much about it. How come? it's possible Mary can build her own business, or maybe company. You must be crazy Matteo.

"May I have that profile of Alemania Company." Inilahad ko ang kamay ko at inabot sakin ni Lorin ang puting papel. I started to read the letter, and it seems they want cement, contruction supplies, and construction workers for their plan to build a builing? What kind of building? Is this one of those poor contentment? Tsk! Not interested. I know this is not Mary. But, my question is how often Mary is back? It seems like a good way to get grants to meet this Alemania company.

Binalik ko ang tingin kay Lorin.

"Cancel all that emails except that Alemania Company. I wan't you to response them, and please Lorin you have to looking forward to reschedule my time. I want to meet the owner of Alemania. Contact them with arrangement schedule so that I can arrange meeting for them.." Wika ko.

"Acknowledge, Sir." Si Lorin saka ako sumenyas bilang paglabas niya.

I started specializing my mind.

I don't know but something in this company catch my attention. Montano? Shit I have to meet them as soon as possible. I've given up trying but this time, I could come down!

It's so good to see you back, and I hope it's you Mary. You will never ever disappear in my eyes again. I will lock you in my room, and sway you until the last lyrics of my song.

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