chapter three

Maris's pov

It's been three days since I last heard from Jude. I didn't call him because I didn't want to seem clingy to him.

I headed to school in the morning because I had a couple of classes to attend and a big quiz to study for. The more I thought about that night, the more worried I was. I was worried that I have started developing more feelings for him than before and I was scared.

Students chattered amongst each other in the lecture hall and everyone were in groups chatting about what I didn't care to know. I ignored them listening to SummerTime Sadness by Lana del Rey with my airpods.

I found my way to an empty desk and sat down before I turned off the music.

I ignored them listening to Mr Luke's lectures.

My cell phone vibrated against the surface of my desk and I glanced at Jude's contact photo. I slid open his message.

"Hey let's not think too much about last night. let's act like it didn't happen"

My heart sank into my stomach. I was confused.

Why would he be so quick to to forget about last night? I was in deep thought before Precious my friend tapped my shoulder bringing me back to reality.

"Are you okay''

"Yh sure"

I lied as I shifted my gaze to the lecturer. Of course I couldn't tell her what happened.

I angrily grasped my books and cell phone pretending to be okay but my inner demons stacked my shoulders like red solo cups, I took permission from the lecturer and lied that I wasn't feeling okay and that I had to go.

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The moon streamed through the window entering my room and was the only light source. A white tank top and blush pink satin underwear dressed me underneath the cold comforter. it sucks how he was so quick to make it clear that we forget about that night. Don't get me wrong I wasn't trying to push him into a relationship with me but I thought he might like me.

I seized my phone and send him a text

"are you up?"

However his probably sleeping at this time and won't see my text.

ping

"Yeah why did you change your mind about coming over" he replied.

I guess I was wrong about him being asleep.

"no I'm still in bed I can't sleep"

"why?"

"nothing...just tired"

"you want me to come tuck you in?" he asked.

I grinned replying his text. "Maybe?"

"Well I wish I could come but it's late"

"Well you can come tomorrow. I don't have lectures and my roommate won't be around" I replied.

"I will I promise"

I blushed. he has always been sweet to me to the extent that most people who knew us thought we were dating.

"Thank you Good night, Sweet dreams 😘 " I said as I turned off my data.

I was planning to speak to him about that night when he comes over tomorrow.

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it was a Saturday morning I went for morning mass and when I got back to my lodge. I decided to call my best friend peculiar because I needed someone to talk to concerning I and Jude. After cleaning my room and doing my laundry I was craving oats and decided to have that for breakfast, Later that morning Jude called me to remind me of him visiting and after that I called peculiar to talk to her.

"Hey"

"Ah Maris how are you doing"

"I'm good and you"

"How's school"

"As stressful as always, anyways I called you because I wanted to talk to you about something"

"What is that?"

I told her everything starting from when I met Jude, how we've been good friends and the night we had sex. I also told her how I have started to develop feelings and she then told me that I just have to ask him how he feels about me, tell him about my feelings and then know his reply I thanked her and then I waited for Jude to show up.

Later that day as I was doing some exercise from my Chinese textbook I heard a knock on my door.

"Who is that?"

"Me"

I smiled as I already knew it was Jude I went to the door and opened it to let him in.

"Welcome"

As soon as he walked into my room he pulled me into his arms and gave me a tight hug I smiled as I inhaled his Cologne.

"I got you something" he said as he handed me a box of chocolate. he always knew how to make me smile.

"Thank you" I said as I smiled.

"you're welcome"

"I made macaroni would you have some?"

"Yeah sure"

I dropped the box of chocolate on my side table and headed to the kitchen to heat up the food and then serve him.

After he ate we talked for a while and I decided to bring up the topic.

"hey there's something I want us to talk about"

"okay I'm all ears"

"I understand you said that we should forget about that night and act like it didn't happen but truth is I really have feelings for you and I really want to know whether you feel the same way about me I'm not pushing you into a relationship though"

"well truth is that I don't want to be in relationship for now cuz I have a lot of things I'm trying to achieve so let's just be as we've always been"

Deep down I was hurt that he didn't care to tell me how you feel about me but I decided to also forget that I can act like he never happened cause I feel like that's the best thing to do.

"okay I've heard you"

"are you okay" he asked

Seems like he could see the tears building up in my eyes.

"I'm fine" I said as I faked a smile.

Is this the end? Is this how our friendship was going to end? I don't want to loose him for any reason whatsoever.

Thank you for reading 🙏

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