Willingly Yours
Yi Ren took the stage with the guitar, tune it a little before strumming it to a tune and sang
Heartbeats fast, colours and promises
How to be brave, How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubts suddenly goes away somehow
one step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid i have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
Time stand still
Beauty in all he is
I will be brave i will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breathe every hour has come to this
One step closer
Darling don't be afraid i have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
All along I believe I would find you
Time had brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
One step closer , One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid i have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
And the music continues....
As he sang he look only at Ray which made him feel uncomfortable, Ray was overwhelmed not knowing how to respond.
Yi Ren disappeared after that day when they completed the launch. Er Ge said he wasn't well...and he had been wondering what happen yet he didn't want to entertain his nudging feeling ignoring it. He felt something amiss, not seeing Yi Ren and the unsettled heart tugs in deeper and he looses it out to his daily dose of hitting out on the piano and singing his heart out. While he felt relieve and surprise to see Yi Ren, he knew he shouldn't lead him on if he wasn't sure how he would deal with it.
There was a grand applause and whistling after Yi Ren finishes off. Ray excused himself early from the group, he had to walk about 20 minutes back to his hotel. As he walked back, there were many things that came through him, was it coincidental that he is here or was it another mission from his brother and he got tired just thinking about it.
This was his trip, his space, his recovery from his harden cruel heart of keeping matters of the heart at bay until he sorted out his launch.
They had been absolutely professional throughout ignoring what had happen but as days go by, he could not ignore it, the feeling.....it slowly turned into misses that he didn't not want to think about and will not allow it. And seeing the person tonight here he wanted hold him back, yet he tugged away that forbidden yearning.
That was Ray - controlled, all aligned to what is right and wrong in his thoughts...yet the struggle he had been arguing with himself of being irresponsible.
"Don't avoid it" He was startled as he turn around. He was trying to open his hotel door with the key card but it dropped. He must been drowned in his thoughts to not even notice ...Yi Ren had been following him.
"You look disturbed" Yi Ren said smelling of a heavy alcohol breath.
"You should go back, it's late"...Ray close back his door behind him.
"You are not offering me to go in?" Yi Ren picked up the key card from the floor and tap it at the door, opening it and walking in.
"Yes your brother sent me again and I'm here" He offered to say
Feeling angry Ray blurted "thank you i am fine you may leave now," he opened the door to be pushed back by Yi Ren slamming it down starring deep into his eyes ....one that is filled with passion and yet a little sadness.
"I'm disappointed, I would have thought you would think more of me that just your brother's friend whom does favour for your family, i stayed away from you to get you out of my system, but i end up here after asking your brother your whereabouts"
Ray didn't want to listen - he was just struggling to push everything away. "Ah Zhen don't mess up again....you've got it all sorted now" He remembers what his dad said, yet his rebellious heart now wants to break free.
He saw Yi Ren's eyes and his immediate reflex came through. Ray immediately used his fingers to wipe Yi Ren's wet eyes standing in front of him feeling sorry for making him feel this way, it was an instantaneous reaction.
When he realises how awkward was that, he retracted his hands only to be held back by Yi Ren pulling it back onto his cheeks feeling Ray's hand. Their eyes locked at that moment. The intensity of feelings that were exchanged through those eyes were overflowing.
Yi Ren could not just stand still, he move forward and pulled Ray in for a long embrace....and they stood there releasing the misses that had chained their hearts silently.
Ray did not react as Yi Ren made his move....he let Yi Ren claim those lips of his as Yi Ren pushed him onto the door that closed behind them.
Ray was trying to stay composed, he tried to hold it together but ended up responding to Yi Ren's kisses. His heart was somehow yearning to let Yi Ren know how much his little heart misses him.
Yi Ren pulled away and starred at him ...."I miss you, a lot...why did you not leave me any message or call me even if I kept away from you?" Ray didn't answer, he simply did not know how...
"I'm not sure how do we move forth" Ray offered....
"Then let's migrate if it helps" Ray look up at Yi Ren. "I'm sure you came here for a reason....to understand what is it like to be able to freely express yourself?"
Yi Ren offered the answer as he continues to nibble up Ray's neck causing Ray to feel arouse at his actions..."Ahh Yi Ren no...let's talk about it first"
"Don't want to loose another night" At that he claimed Ray's mouth again, this time passionately invoking Ray's senses as Yi Ren move him towards the bed.
Slowing pushing Ray on to the bed, Yi Ren knew Ray needed convincing, hence he worked through to let Ray discover what he wants through his touches and kisses.
As Yi Ren pick up his pace completing where he left off last ....he unfasten Ray's belt and remove Ray's clothes altogether. Just two of them lock in kisses and embrace, the touches of their skin lustfully burn their kept desires and releasing moans desperately leaving Yi Ren satisfied to Ray's respond. Yi Ren move to stroke Ray, his hand taking his warm length carefully below in his hands stroking slowly, and him feeling it harden as he continue to kiss the breath out from Ray's mouth moving rhythmically with his hands . "Aaaaa!...Yi Ren....,I"
"Feel it, take your time" Yi Ren dive down and picked up the pace with his mouth now "Yi Ren !! No! Ah,,,,ahh!" Ray was moaning Yi Ren's name not able to control it. Yi Ren felt he wanted to to just swallow Ray in taking him in fully.....what he felt when he first met Ray, just unwinding it here.
Ray arch his body to follow that of Yi Ren's move, his hands slaps on to the bed, gripping on the bed sheets twisting it as his heart beat pump faster and the built up continue to escalate "Yi Ren!! Ahmmmm...Ahhh!"
Ray peaked and exploded uncontrollably loosing himself. Ray sat up pushing Yi Ren away from divulging in swallowing what was dripping of from him.
"How was it?" Yi Ren whisper gently. Yi Ren push him down for a deep penetrating kiss before Ray could manage to let a word out, instead he was filled with moans when he felt Yi Ren harden self rubbing against him, and his moan and cries was for Yi Ren to know how Ray felt. Ray tried to steady his breath conscious about the mess he made. As he calmed down he saw how much Yi Ren had tried controlling himself.
"You need to release, worried looking at Yi Ren..." Ray said.
"I will...willingly.." he whispered back as he moved Ray on his four "into you" he continue his words as he bite into his nape and planting marks all the way down to the two cheeks. His words froze Ray "what do you mean.....?"
"I'll show you" as he continue kissing the valleys in between the two cheeks sending shocks into Ray as Ray reach back to push him away. Yi Ren hold his hand down and continue until Ray's moan could be heard throughout the room and he carefully insert a finger in penetrating the tight circle.
It must hurt a lot Yi Ren thought as he saw how Ray had suddenly tighten up and as he insert more fingers, Ray was biting his lips turning around to look at Yi Ren.
While Yi Ren feels bad seeing Ray struggle to swallow the pain, he wants Ray desperately, Ray's first has to be Yi Ren. He fasten up his pace to shorten the pain. Once Ray loosen up, Yi Ren pushed in his harden trunk, forcing it to slide in to Ray, ripping him wide as he scream out Yi Ren's name from the pain.
Yi Ren taking him in gently in the first few thrust then picking up the pace. He was crossing of his emotions about Ray. He had long wanted this keeping it in buried his heart....and that now that he has him, taking him in fully, he is appreciating each moment, each thrust, savouring Ray's first time with him, taking his time to affirm his heart as he push in deeper hearing Kay's moan becoming desperate and Kay's breath heavier.
"Yi Ren! I.can't sta,,,nd,A.ny. Lon.ger...ahhh! Yi Ren! Ahh! And as he call Yi Ren's name, Yi Ren himself was lost in his own movement thrusting it harder and faster.
It went on ...Yi Ren hearing himself yearning deeply as the momentum escalated 'I want him so much! ahhh! I want him more ahhhh, more' and he thrusted harder with such speed and strength that both their bodies started to move on their own as they climax uncontrollably.
Yi Ren pushing one last hard round "Ahhhh Raay!" And Ray screaming indecently as he releases for the second time, both letting their heart beat pump through until it is complete and they collapse onto the bed into each other's arm....
Yi Ren pulled Ray's trembling body into his embrace and quietly comforting Ray down until his breath stabilises, Yi Ren pulled him in for a kiss "I love you Ray". Ray hasn't felt such immense complete feeling enveloping him just beautiful into the night...for the first time. He truly wants to be in Yi Ren's arm, no regrets of what had just transpired willingly giving in to Yi Ren tonight.
Shyly he said "thank you for your love....and the song you sang...when you sang it I was ....moved, it sounded so real waiting for me for a thousand years."
"It is ....I have been waiting all along, not letting you go anymore especially after tonight" with that he pulled Ray tighter into his embrace as they fell asleep in each other's arm.