so he sees me

I rapped my fists on my work desk for the third time in frustration and this time  around I got an angry glare,"sorry".You would think that after this much time with this sublime, comely guy that am obviously smitten by something should happen,you know like a spark or something at least that's how it's usually done on my favorite romantic telenovela,well who am I kidding,he obviously not into me ,I mean who would want a girl with five kids and ummm whose late husband was literally his friend,a girl could dream. but why does he call me ; sweetie! I guess that is another name for best friend ,horror! Your girl has been friend zoned.Its been 19days since we started working together and he hasn't as much as tapped me,well unless you would count that one time he gave me a pat on the back in a happy mood after I convinced a client to make a payment of £205,000 to us.yeeyy !! Point mia.i steal glances at him but he never for once caught me in the act because we'll of course he  doesn't look in my direction he probably doesn't even notice me.Its like cupid arrow has finally hit me because I would never had thought myself to be the catching- feelings type , especially after spending the last eleven years of my life with the same guy, making babies.who could blame a girl ."my stomach is rumbling,are you guys going to eat or what"james groaned,chris looked up at me and his gaze met mine and for the first time our eyes locked,for some seconds it felt like time stood still and everything stopped moving,but he quickly averted his gaze and said he is good,I have some leftover chicken salad in the fridge from yesterday so I said no,so james picked up  his jacket and bolted out of the room.well,I decided I have had enough on the screen,my eyes were starting to hurt anyways,I yawned and got up, stretched,I was even more exhausted than usual,I have been working for six hours stretch,only taking bathroom breaks,I headed for the fridge,took out my salad and ate humming in apathy that I didn't notice when he walked up behind me"hey",shit!!! I nearly jumped out of my skin."Did I startle you?"Well hell yes!"yes hummm it's okay" I  murmured cursing under my breath."would you be free on Sunday?" I replied in the affirmative,"I was wondering if you could come along with me to a wedding ceremony" chris added.like a date,okay I definitely didn't see that coming,did the apocalypse happen and all the women in the world dead, because that is the only way I imagined he would ever notice me,even so.i turned around to meet his gaze and quickly averted my eyes,I can't trust myself to look into those eyes,no I can't.he leaned in closer this time and asked" is that a yes"?I nodded like a remote controlled robot and he smiled,oh Lord not that smile please," I will pick you up from your place" he enunciated with a triumphant smirk "I will be looking forward to it"Dumb!! He left me standing like a riveted entity and strolled across the hotel suit to pick up his jacket and his car keys, "wear something nice mia,I will be waiting in the car " he added,snapp!! He is my ride today since my car is still at the work shop,I dumped the remaining salad back in the fridge,I hadn't even had the time to finish it up, quickly put my things together and raced downstairs to join him in the car it was an awkward ride to say the least,he kept smiling to himself for reasons best known to him,and I tried very hard not to meet his gaze while stealing glances at him.thank heavens I have to stop at the mart to pick something up because I don't know for how much longer I could hold my breath"thanks for the ride" I managed  as I hastily stept out of the car, closing the door behind me as I strolled into the supermarket.For a moment I forgot what I was there to buy as I stared blankly at the shelves yeah!! a bowel of ice cream for the twins,I pranced to the fridge to pick up a two litre can and headed straight for check-out,when someone tapped me from behind"hey how have you been, mia"just the last person I want to see, hmm considering his outrageous suggestion the last time we met,story of my life." How have you been" my foot,guess he expected I'd be dead by now" hey paul,how is your family, it's wonderful seeing you but am kind of in a hurry" I replied as I walked past him to check out without even waiting for a reply..It must feel good to be on the receiving end of infamy I thought as I lay down on the bed feeling exhausted and accomplished at the same time.my mind  wondered back to chris and i cogitated on today's events as I drifted off to sleep.