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"What happened?" Anthony asks as I settle into the passenger seat. "I…did something…fucking…stupid." I say in between sobs. "What?" May asks. I sob for another minute before I am able to speak again. "I wrote a letter." I say. I don't want to tell them everything because it is so embarrassing. I mean I wrote a guy a fucking love letter that I didn't want him to see. "To who?" Anthony asks. I don't want to tell them. But again I have to. I inhale deeply. "Kevin Hends." I say. I pause another moment. "It was a…love letter." I say, quickly on the last two words. "You wrote a love letter to Kevin? The guy you talked to once?" Anthony clarifies. I nod. I can feel the blood rushing to my face. "I am so embarrassed that I just want to crawl under my bed and die." Shit. I am so fucked up. "Oliver it is ok." May comforts me. "I wrote a letter to a guy I talked to once. I dropped the letter. And I might have forgotten to tell you." I hold back tears. "He found the fucking letter!" I scream so suddenly that Anthony, who has been driving, jumps and swerves into the other lane for half a second. Thankfully the lane is empty but it scares the shit out of us. "What the hell dude!?" Anthony screams at me. "Shut up Anthony!" May snaps. "He found the letter?" She turns her attention back to me. I nod tearfully. "Holy shit." May and Anthony say in unison. "Holy shit." I mutter after. "My life is over." I feel like my heart is sinking to my gut to never come back. "You are going to be ok." May says to me as she leans forward in her seat to pat my shoulder. I put my hand on my shoulder and place my hand on hers. "We are here for you." Anthony says without taking his eyes off the road. "Let's go to May's house today." He says. "Why?" May and I ask at the same time. "She has the best comfort food." Anthony replies. "Is that all you think about in a time like this?" I ask. Anthony turns to look at me. "Oliver this really is not the time to dig deep into things. You really need us at this point. I can tell. And we are going to be the best fucking friends to help you get through this shit." He says. We laugh.

We stay at May's house for about three hours before Anthony drives me home. "You gonna be ok?" He asks me. I nod. He leans over and gives me a hug. "Just text me or May if you need anything." He says. He releases me and unlocks the car door. "I'll see you on Monday." I say to him. "See you then." He replies. I get out of the car and close the door behind me.

I walk to my room in a haze. It feels like I am a stranger in my own body. I don't feel anything except the pain of embarrassment. I close my bedroom door behind me. I walk to my bed and drop face first onto the mattress and fall asleep.