Pride

I am a proud person. In the sense, if I do something, that is punctual, classy and recognizable by people. Any steps I do in my life is goodly planned and aimed in a direction, it can never fail. People say pride should be given up sometimes. I think it is not the case. Only a new effectiver perspective has to be done. Nonetheless here is the new factor. The guy came to me the other night... He is a flag. Definetly a flag. And I am not opposed by the idea of having a good, long-lasting relationship.

Sounds great, is it not the case? Well... My talk with him should be longer if that is... I mean, people will not just do everything for me, then praise me for it.

I have no idea about even what his name is... Though, let it begin. Alex makes a real relationship with a human being, what is deeper, than a hello or a thank you!

This will be awkvard... I should deeply explain him, the visitor, myself and, that I want to approach him as I am, though he said, that he need time, I want it as soon as possible... Yeaah, these are the parts when a protagonist die...

So I will be brave and start a conversation, what turns into a skit then into a conversation again and in the middle, I collapse from embarrasment.

I mean the male part of humanity should go to the girl, yet I go to a boy. If I were a girl, I would be called a pushover wannabe. Though my luck is here. I know all the boy stuff. I played games, shot rifles, was a handyman, I can do anything. I had etiquette lessons for the sake of Creation...

-Me: Soo yes, your friend turned out was my friend too from back then and he only came by to make me sign a paper. I hope you did not get the wrong idea, since he is only a good friend, who I definetly will evade meeting in the future, since only work connected us and a short-term one.

-Guy I might like and makes my face more red, than a strawberry: Oh, yeah? He was that type though. Kinda nice, but he was evading unnecessary contact. Also he dodged all questions, but asked personal ones all day. I only met him a few times, but yeah. He was always training and talked like an older dude. I hope you did not misunderstood me back then, I mean yesterday, I only did it, because he asked me to, it was not like I wanted to make you drunk and hit on you as the night went on.

Yeah... I will be turned down at this rate. No problemo, not a single one. First guy I talk with. No need to like get him or whatever. It is not like a small fry, like him would and could entertain me or what and it is not like I have to have a harem. So get it together, talk with him, then off to someone else. WHERE HAVE MY PRIDE FLY OFF ME WHAT AM I TALKING?

-Me: Sooo yeah. Also it is really awkvard, since we have nothing major in common, do you want a cigarette? Merlboro, the strongest one, useful, when shit happens and practical when you just enjoy the view for 5 minutes.

He was laughing so hard, that he was keeping his hand on his stomach. Yeah a girly me should not speak like this. I sound like a wannabe idiot onenighter after the 15 minutes you wanted and could do... Also I am the odd one, that I am smoking this young, but no laws for me in my book of rules. Also, I offer a cigarette to a minor... He just came out from his egg and still does not gets, what is happening. Oh... But whatevs. Until I do not make a joke of myself and hsve my pride, nothing happened to cry about.

-The guy: Yeah, thanks, I want one, I smoke the same brand, though you are like those tsundere characters confessing love, though you do not know manga or anime, what I am talking about, forget it.

-Me: I kinda dig it like whatawhat. Like from slice of life to shounen and shojo, all things man, I did not have any hopes, that someone other likes thos stuff.

-The guy: Okay, but say it to noone, these people will eat you up and hang you to dry while crying, that you are the "anime kind".

Hmmmm. Too good. I mean, I wanted fastly, effectively and perfectly. But this guy is just starting to be in the level of a spy, who makes you trigger happy, he is even having abs, biceps, you know, the looks you ever wanted. Too good. I should have asked 2tails. Though have nothing to fear, max I go to someone else and say, that I just wanted to apologize and it is cool and dandy.

That is how I keep my pride. Just a note: Yeeah, plan failed, if you have too much training like me, you become someone, who, if hears anything falling, thinks, that it is a bomb, though it was only a cherry seed...