Theodore's anxiety

When an omega gets nervous, its body exhales pheromones. The same happens with other emotions with different hormones being released to the world as a secret message. Everyone would smell it and understand that something is going on in the mind of the omega, as well as attracting alphas to itself.

Thus, an omega had to be very careful when going to study or work. Being in places full of people, regardless of their classes, could cause a real hell when pheromones are released. It is indicated that the person takes suppressor drugs in order to control such hormones.

Omega girls suffered a lot because of this. From abuse to prejudice about their vulnerability.

Omega boys then suffered twice as much.

Theodore swallowed the second pill to control pheromones because he could not calm down at all. To make matters worse was a mixture of emotions that even turned his stomach. He was confused by Gabriel's sudden request. He was also anxious for the end of the day to come. There was fear that something would go wrong and friendship would be lost, but there was also the euphoria of finally kissing the guy that he loved.

He had never been in such a catastrophic state in his life, not even when he had his first relationship with Jake. The calm was simply unfeasible, his mind worked a thousand an hour without rest. The icing on the cake was worrying about the smell itself being exhaled in a closed classroom.

To avoid unnecessary risks, he had chosen to take the second dose of the drug that day.

He had not been able to look at Gabriel for the rest of the morning. The heart beat so fast and uncontrollably, that it was necessary to resort to distraction to go to the world of the moon. He surreptitiously took his Ipod and headphones, placing them on the Soundtrack of High School Musical. While listening to the first notes, he continued to copy matter from the painting forgetting completely what was happening around him.

Or rather, forgetting the presence next to him until the break.

― Why are we eating out here?

Nicolas turned to his friend and sighed heavily as he bit the purchased savory.

― I don't want to be on the same roof as that asshole.

Arching his eyebrow, the omega sat on the lawn below the Tabebuia stretching his legs, shooting his best friend with his gaze. Since what happened on the court Nicolas had not opened his mouth to comment. Theodore had not had the courage to question him.

― You know you're going to see Milles at practice this afternoon, right?

― How could I when you just reminded me?

Turning the natural sandwich wrapped in his hand, Theodore sighed in not feeling appetite that morning. He was too nervous to eat anything. Realizing he was about to think after training, the blond had snorted trying to change his thoughts. But his mouth had released words that should also remain stuck in his head.

― Why did you do it? You're not afraid of anyone finding out, or Milles knowing...

― So should I let that vulture kiss you? ― had retched Nicolas with coldness ― Sorry to intrude, in that case.

― That's not what I meant, you know that. Besides, Gabriel was there, too.

— What makes you think the junior vulture would help you? Oh, was it because he covered your mouth? ― Nicolas had peeked his tired eyes at his friend, noticing the tips of his ears turning red. Rolling his eyes, Nicolas had eaten again ― You're making a fool of yourself.

― Why?

— You like him so much, that if that guy asks you to borrow a rubber, you're gonna want to deliver a whole box. You'll be all happy just because he gives you attention, playing with your feelings.

Theodore had swallowed with such an accusation that he would not escape reality. Each action of Gabriel was a reason for a passionate sigh of the omega, this was already routine. Only things were not quite so. Nicolas wouldn't know the alpha was curious about kissing other boys.

Well, if he knew then that would be a reason to call Theodore a fool.

― The difference between me and you is because I like someone, while you kissed someone for whatever reason.

― Anger, impatience, killer instinct, saving my best friend, call what you like.

Stroking Nicolas's shoulder, the omega had forced his best friend to stare at him so he could give him a friendly smile.

— Don't take any chances because of me. Unlike me, you're more discreet and I'd rather keep it that way. If Milles finds out, I'll find a way to shut him up.

― Let he find out, I'm not hiding it for fear of the shit that comes out of his mouth. I'm just doing it to stay on the team. But... thanks.

Widening his smile, Theodore was relieved to see a lazy little smile on his friend's face. Soon after eating his snacks, Nicolas laid his head on the lap of the omega and then took a brief nap enjoying the soft breeze of early autumn.

Leaning his head against the Tabebuia flowered, Theodore had again put his headphones to listen to music and enjoy that serene moment. As much as he could keep calm would be better. But thanks to the medicine he had taken the most, sleep had embraced him forcing his eyes to close from fatigue.

Closing his eyes and his head tipping to the side, the omega fell asleep immediately. He had not dreamed of anything, unless he remembered, but felt his whole body vibrate as if the soul went out while he slept. A very profitable rest that had been interrupted by a desperate Nicolas to wake him, since they would have missed a whole class after the break.

Returning to the classroom under the prying eyes of his classmates, Theodore even forgot the reason for his nervousness. He still felt very sleepy and took advantage of the last classes of the day to sleep. Then he copy someone's story, their eyes were too tired to be open. And the chemistry formulas didn't help keep him awake.

Crossing his arms to lay his head, the omega fell asleep for the second time.

The sign ending the morning classes generated buzz among the students who left the room. Theodore had woken up to the mess of his colleagues, yawning lazily at the realization that only he and Nicolas, who had also slept, remained.

Getting up from his wallet to go to the other side of the room, he had kicked the chair where Nicolas slept without much force.

— Nico, wake up. Come on... ― Receiving only grumbling in response, Theodore began to shake his friend's arms tightly until he saw his tired eyes open. ― Nico the practice, you're late.

Immediately the dark eyes widened with fright, checking the time on the wristwatch.

— Holy shit, I overslept. ― Quickly the little one caught the backpack throwing his stuff inside him, closing the zipper ― I'm going ahead, if not the coach kills me.

― I'll see you later...

Theodore watched his friend go running down the aisle as if his life depended on the speed of his feet. With his hands in the pocket of the black social pants, the omega opened a slight smile when he remembered that he should also hurry to go to the gym.

And then a slap in the head.

After practice he should go behind the school and wait for Gabriel.

Because they would be.

So much effort that he had to forget that little detail thrown to the trash, the heart of the blond omega was racing again. He had not yet kept his material, and between the sheets of the notebook he had found one of the tickets he had exchanged with Gabriel.

― Was it not a dream?

Taking your hand to his chest, he felt the heart muscle work hard. His legs seemed to turn to paper being unable to keep him standing when he recalled the unusual request of earlier.

By heaven, Gabriel wanted to be with Theodore.

Wait, don't get serious. It would help your new friend heal a curiosity about what it was like to kiss another boy. The alpha had been confused by Nicolas.

Isn't that right?

Regardless of why Gabriel made the request, nothing changed the fact that Theodore had accepted.

They would stay.

How should he proceed? A little kiss would be enough? Couldn't he be bold and kiss him with his tongue... Oh heavens, what was that heat?

Covering his mouth with the back of his hand, Theodore walked from side to side without taking the memory of the day they almost kissed. In that same classroom, on a rainy day and a romantic melody ringing through the shared headset.

It wouldn't be the same. Definitely not.

Unlike that day, the two boys would be well aware of what would happen. They wanted it to happen.

By heaven, should he keep your hands off Gabriel and just give him a little kiss? It would be the safest, wouldn't it?

Messing up his hair, Theodore grumbled sitting on the empty desk and resting his feet on the chair. The desire grew more and more in his chest becoming uncontrollable. If he touched any part of Gabriel's body, the omega knew he would be unable to control his impulses.

He wanted that alpha for him.

He wanted to kiss him until he could taste him.

He wanted to feel Gabriel's warm hands touching his body.

― Calm down... calm down...

Trying to take a deep breath the omega felt its own smell spread intensely through the classroom. Widening his clear eyes in despair, he hugged his own arms trying, uselessly, to calm his own body.

He should go to court to fulfill his duties as an assistant. But going in that condition was impossible. He had taken two pills and yet his smell escaped, it would generate a mess on the court. He needed to calm down.

Choosing to stay in the classroom, the omega raised its head to the window yearning for a breeze that could relieve the intense and sweet smell. And there he remained motionless until the cell phone began to beep with the arrival of messages.

He didn't read any of them, he just watched the time. To help time pass, he removed the book "Eclipse" from the vampire saga to read. It opened on the marked page and allowed itself to enter the world of literary fantasy.

After a long time Theodore was calmer, managing to get out of his wallet to store his material and leave the classroom.

He had dragged his feet through the corridors taking care not to be seen. But the school seemed deserted to his relief. When he left the main building, he turned around the school wall being in the most isolated garden. Away from the entrance of the school, there was the place of couples.