I love you

Olivia's pov

I stared at him and didn't know what to say to him .

I was the one who wanted him to stay away from me ,I was the one who hated him and yet I can't see him in pains because of me .

What I said to him must have really hurt him a lot and I have to show him how much I was sorry .

"Go to bed,it's late".he muttered out those words and tried moving away but I held his hand again 

"What is your problem".he spoke calmly but I knew he was hurt .

"Can you please stay here ?" I pleeeded 

He stared at me for a while before speaking up 

"I can't,I don't want to".he muttured out those words like he meant every bit of it.

I did not say a word rather I held on to him.

He stared at my hand on his hand before staring at me .

"What do you want ?" He asked firmly

"Please stay here".I beggeed while staring at him 

He hissed and roughly ran his fingers through his hair before speaking

"Alright".he mumured those words and sat on the couch.

I let of his hand and sat on the bed opposite him .

He look elsewhere but did not meet my gaze on him .

"You should go to bed it's late,I'll sleep on the couch".he said those words and pick up a pillow from the bed .

"Goodnight" he mumured those words and lay on the couch with his back at me .

I stared at him and saw the serpant tattoo on his back and it's fascinate me .

I stood up from the bed and walk up to him,I squat and brought forth my hand to caresse the tattoo but I was scared .

I took in a deep breath and ran my fingers on the tattoo .

"What are you doing ?" He mumured softly .

I did not say a word rather I went on and ran my fingers on the tattoo with amusuement.

"Was it painful?" I asked 

"What ?" He asked 

"The tattoo,when it was done was it painful?" 

He hissed softly before speaking up 

"This is a permanently tattoo ,it can't be removed my any chemical so it's painful".he muttured out those words in irritation , it was obvious I was irritating him but I won't give up .

"Does Rita have it?" I asked out of curiosity 

"No,can you please go to bed and sleep ".he muttered out those words in irritation 

Realizing his mood I stood up and sat on the bed while I stare at his naked back .

I switched off the light but still couldn't sleep ,I just sat on the bed staring at his back and he did not make a move even when  the lights were put off .

I sat there staring at him untill I heard his voice .

"Why are you not sleeping?" He asked with his back at me .

"How did you know I'm not sleeping?"

He hissed and stood up from the couch,he went for the light switch and put it on .

He walk up to me and stood before me with folded arms .

"Why are you awake?" He said those words while staring at me .

"I can't sleep ". I mumured 

He move away from me and I could see him take a deep breath .

"Why ?" He asked while avoiding my gaze 

I nervously bites my lips because I didn't know what to say to him .

He groan and stared at me for a moment before walking toward the bed .

"I'll sleep in this end while you sleep at the other end ,don't worry I will never touch you not even with your permission". hearing those words I felt sad and heartbroken .

"Do you agree?" He asked 

I nod my head but did not say a word .

He climbed the bed and shifted to the other end of the bed .

I stare at his back at me before climbing on the bed .

I lay on the bed while I face his back and kept on staring at his tattoo ,he has a perfect body and I couldn't resist the urge to touch it .

I moved closer to him and touch his back .

He flip  me over and I was laying on the bed with my back while he was on top of me .

"What do you think you are doing?"he spoke in an angry tune

"Nothing ".I mumured in fear .

He stared at me for a while before letting go of me .

He sat on the bed with his back at me.

"Go to bed".he muttured out those words as an order .

I lay on the bed and force myself to sleep,in few minutes I woke up sweating profusely and a strong headache in my head.

I hissed and took a deep breath , another dream again .

I've been having nightmares since aunt's death .

"How long have you bee having nightmares?" I heard Rona's voice in front of me .

He put on the light and I saw him seated on the couch staring at me like he was trying to pirece through me .

"Since my aunt's death ".I mumured

"Have you seen the therapist".he asked 

"No ".I shakes my head .

"Go to bed we will see the therapist by tommorow".he said those words as a command.

"Aren't you sleeping?" I asked while staring at him .

I took a better look at her and noticed he hasn't been sleeping.

"I'm not sleepy ".he mumured 

I stared at him but he removes his gaze from me .

"I stood up from the bed and walk up to him ,I sat on the bed and stared at him .

"I'm sorry ".I mumured

He stared at me but did not say a word 

"I didn't mean what I said ,all I said was because I was angry with you for telling me to stay away from you ". I mumured

"I did it for you ".he spoke up 

"I don't want you to do such things for me".I mummured in anger .

He hissed and look away .

"I'm big enough to know what is good and bad for me and you don't have the right to ask me to stay away ".I spoke firmy.

He stared at me and I could see a small smile on his face.

"What's funny".I mumured in anger 

He chuckled softly and stood up from the couch .

He sat on the bed besides me and place his fingers in my hair and gently caress it .

I hiseed and closed my eyes as I felt his touch.

"Come ".he pulls me to himself and I sat on his laps staring at him .

"I'm sorry if I wasn't there when you needed me but I promise I will make it up to you".he promised.

I nod my head and smiled at him .

He smiled at me and gently kissed my forehead but I wanted more .

"What's wrong ".he asked while staring at me 

"Nothing".I mumured and look away .

He turn my face and made me lock eyes with him .

"Tell me what's wrong".he pleaded.

I swallowed nervously and didn't know how to say it to him .

"You know I will do anything for you ".he expressed those words like he meant it .

I took in a deep breath before speaking up 

"I want you to kiss me ".I whispered hoping he won't hear me .

He chuckled and ran his fingers through my hair .

"Is that all ?" He asked 

I nod my head 

"Alright".he did not like those words finish from his mouth before he took hold of my neck and kissed me so softly and tenderly.

The kiss wasn't sexual but pure and full of love and care. 

I place my hands on his shoulders and deepens the kiss .

He pulls me more closer to him and kissed me so passionately before breaking the kiss .

We broke from the kiss and I couldn't look at him ,I felt shy and rest my face on his chest .

He chuckled softly and gently stroke my hair .

We sat there for a while and none of us said a word untill I spoke up 

"You know Rita is a nice girl ".I mumured

He chuckled softly but did not say a word 

"She is just influenced by bad friend ,but with the right friends she will make an amazing person ".I spoke up 

"I know that, she is my sister,she was just a normal girl like everyone but after she discovered our dad was murdered ,she because bitter and aggressive ".he said those words while caressing my hair

I kept quiet and did not say a word.

"We need to sleep,come on ".

I stood up from his laps and he led me to the bed .

I climbed on the bed while he did the same .

He lay on the bed and opens his arms to me .

I smiled and moved into his arms that felt like the most saftest place in the world .

He gently stroke my hair and I closed my eyes to sleep but I heard him saying something but I couldn't hear everything apart from the last words he said before I drifted to sleep 

"I love you little bird,I'm fucking in love with you and it's scares me ".