Signed a Way My Soul

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"still no pulse"

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"liz... liz enough the patient is being declared dead minute ago..let go"

"What! No! his his wife is outside waiting for him! he can't die!! They need him"

"Liz I'm sorry but he's dead... we tried are best, it was his time"

Take deep breath.... now let it go

"I need fresh air..."

They say the first time you see someone die it'll hurts you a lot but nothing will hurt like that again.

Well let me tell you that it's pure bullshit.

The first time I saw someone die It was 7 years ago, and not anyone it was my mom.

And even after 7 years, it still hurts like a bitch.

I tried .. but I should've tried harder.

How I can possibly be doctor if I keep letting people die.

surely I didn't know how to save my mom.. I was only 13 I didn't know what to do, but now I'm a fucking to be a doctor and still I let people die! maybe I should just quit, I will be doing them a favor, or doing me a favor it's win win for both ways, I just can't stand the pain anymore...

(Sound of vibration)

can't I have a minute to breathe!

"Hello dad"

"Where are you?"

"And where would med student would possibly be!"

" you playing smart on me now!"

" of course not.. I'm sorry.. it just I had a long day.."

" yeah yeah, listen I need money and a fast"

" I have none! two weeks ago I gave you my salary!! How am I gonna get you another money!?"

" I don't care! you just have to bring me the damn money! this people will kill me they are not to play with. I don't care how you gonna get it borrow it, steal it, slut around, whatever just bring me the damn money"

" ok ok, I'll see what I can do"

Ladies and gentlemen, my beloved and caring father.

Could this day get any better!

Now where the fuck I'm going to get more money!!!

FUCK!!

looking at the long way down as I rest my elbows of the edge the rooftop.... maybe i should jump from here so I can finally have peace.....peace! Hah yeah like I would have peace I'd be sheeped straight to hell for being  fucked up "almost" doctor

"Liz.."

"Liz!"

"Hum... jack! I'm sorry I didn't hear you calling" "I know" he said as he approachs me. resting his back on the edge he tilted his head back lookig deep into the sky as if he was trying to find something

"It's alright.....so tell me, what's so special about this place? you always came here"

"the quietness helps me stay sane " and the thousand image of me taking the jump...

"I'm sorry you had to go through that...This is life liz. one person die other get born...there's nothing we can do to stop people from dying"

"I know, it just... I wish I could've done more"

"what you're doing is more than enough, but death is inevitable... you'll get used to it with time, I mean it took me year to adapt to it, you probably would take bit longer cause you're too emotional and stuff"

"Oh,really!I'm emotional and stuff!!"

"Well, lately... yeah you are! wait! liz you're not pregnant, right?" how did he become a doctor that behind my understanding!!

"Of course I'm not you moron!"

Unless books could impregnate me, coz that's the only thing sleeping with me

"Thank god! I mean you would make a totally amazing mom, but just you're to young for that responsibility"

"Of course I am! dummy. Now would you please change the subject"

"Hm...oh yeah! I rememberd I came here to call you cuz Dr. karrper been looking for you"

I gave him the coldest look. we've been talking for 10 minutes and now he remembered!!

"Well Thanks for telling me so early Dr Randoles"

Him wearing a grin knowing exactly what crap he just put me in

"Your most welcome Dr McCartney"

The time fly fast specially if you had no time to think, now am on my way to home..yay home.

Who am I kidding? I'd rather stay all night than to be alone there.

7 years ago this house was my happy place.

Looking at it now, wave of sorrow hit me, sorrow for my lost.

Her death have changed everything

My life is hollow without her i have no one, even dad have abandoned me, drunk all day and gambling all night. the only time he talks to me is when he wants money.

As I enter the front yard I see the front door is a slightly open, well I guess dad came early today

"I'm home"

I don't know why I even bother!.. I guess it's just a habit

Two huge guys appear in front of me the minute I put a foot in the living room. shit!

"who are you? what the fuçk are you doing in my house! I'm calling the police"

I reach for my bag, but huge arm hold my wrist

"Not so fast little one, you don't want me to accidentally snap your neck don't you? huh! That's what I thought" I'm gonna die! I'm gonna die! god!

"W who are y you? What d do you want from me?"

I stuttered choking fighting the tears back

"I assume you're the daughter"

said an attractive old man coming down for the stairs. he have an interesting accent and he was wearing a long coat -definitely expensive- and by the look on his suit I can tell it was made by famous designer. in his hand he was holding a Gentleman's Cane, black with big red ruby in the head. I bet you $50 it contain a sword...I wonder if the ruby was really one?... WAKE UP YOU MORON ! you're about to be killed and all you thinking about is his appearance!! I took deep breath "it depends..."

"On..?" he replay lifting an eyebrow as if he didn't expect my words

"weather I end up dead in a trash dump if I say yes"

He's now standing in front of me, his face is lit'up with amusement

"we are not here to kill anyone ma petite, we're not a killer, it's just not the way we work"

I point a finger to the gigantic man holding my wrist behind my back

"this dude clearly don't know that"

He chuckles and looked at the gigantic man behind my back straight in the eye and just like that my wrist is free

"I apologize on the behaviors of my men, they just carried away a little bit"

"a little bit you say?! He threaten to snap my neck that's definitely not a little bit!"

"he was only trying to do his job and you as I heard was trying to call the cops" really! he's justifying his trespassing!!

"well excuse me for trying to call the police cuz that's not the first thing a normal person would do when there's strangers in his house"

"well technically its not your house, it's your father's and since your father owed me a lot of money this house and everything in it is mine now, because he haven't paid me a penny, and I've been extremely patience" What!! no! he can't take my house! it's impossible. this is a sick joke. "No. you can't take my home! it's mine !! I have nowhere else to go! if it's about the money just give me more time I'll pay you back, whatever it costs"

"I'm sorry ma petite, but your father has already signed the house paper"

I am soo ready to emancipated from this monster! my god! what should I do? I have nowhere else to go I'm done I'm definitely doom how could he do this to me! his daughter! the only family he have left!! given away my house! our house and all the memory of my mom! I won't allowed this, I must do something I can't just let it go away

"Please. just please what can I do ! I'll do anything! I'll work for you, I'll pay you back every penny and more, just anything please"

"I'm sorry...."

Before he could finish his words one of his men came to him and whisper something in his ear. clearly whatever this dude told him is not happy news, because he put deep frowned

"Merde! get the guys to take him home, tell them if they need to use power I allow it, that fils de pute has reached my patience limit"

Who ever this person I pity him

I as hell wouldn't want to get him angry, so I'm not going to open my mouth until he talks to me.

shit! he's looking at me. I'm doomed.... wait second is he checking me out! Oh hell no! he's totally checking me out !!

"How old are you ma petite?"

Shit!

"I'm 20"

He keeps staring at me as if he considering it

"Do you have boyfriend?"

Fück.

"No?.."

"Your not one of those homo right?"

"Did my rainbow hair offended you?"

This dude is getting on my nerve

"I'll take that as you're not?"

"10 points to Lucius Malfoy"

"I wouldn't be too sassy if I were you"

Shit, he's right I totally forgot. I swallow hard and put on my sad puppy look

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to disrespect you, it's just today was long day and now I believe it's gonna be a long night too"

"It's ok, you know you haven't tell me your name yet"

"Elizabeth, but my friend call me liz"

"Elizabeth... your name matches your face both are beautiful"

I feel the heat rise on my face, fuçk! I'm blushing in front of him I turn my gaze to my feet

"T thanks" dear earth please swallow me

I heard him laughing so I look at him to find his face so close to mine he put his hand up my head and messed up my hair

"So cute, he'll definitely be full hands with you, that's good"

"He? Whose this "he"? ... on second thoughts don't tell me I don't really care, all I care about is my house"

"First it's mine not yours, second how much do you really want this house?"

"Are you giving me back my house!!"

I couldn't help but to smile, I'm gonna have my home back

"I didn't say that, but I believe we could make deal"

"Yes please, just give me little time and I promise you I'll pay you back"

"Humm....no I have no time left"

"Alright, what do you want?"

"Straight to the point that's what I like, well you said, and correct me if I'm wrong that you're willing to do anything to gain your home back"

"Correct, I said anything but I didn't mean anything "anything" there are few things off the anything list"

"Which are? ...."

"Nudity, Members sale, drug dealing, prostitution, law breaking.....i guess that's all, other than those I'm cool with it"

"Fair enough, what if i tell you that what I have in mind doesn't contain any of those or any abuse in anyway"

"I say you got deal"

I gave him my hand to shake on his word and when he saw my hand he smirk and extend his hand

"Bienvenue dans la famille ma petite"