Thousand and one excuses

Kim Anderson's point of view [POV]

In bed, I kept thinking about the same thing again and again.

I was thinking and beating myself up with the idea that I still loved Carl.

My thoughts were distracted with the vibration of my phone.

It was a text message.

-Hey Kim,thousand and one thousand and one excuses Earl.

Don't forget you have a photo shoot for the Runway magazine cover tomorrow. Try your best to be here on time and look astonishing as always.-

I raised my eyebrow after reading the message....I almost forgot about the photo shoot.

"Thank you Earl" I smiled.

With that, I switched of the side lamp then there was total darkness.

~*~

The buzzing sound of the alarm woke me up.

I opened my eyes reluctantly...i groaned as I got up from my bed. I flickered the alarm to turn the annoying sound off.

I was still sleepy. I didn't have enough sleep last night. Thoughts of Carl clouded my mind.

I staggered to the bathroom like a brainless Zombie.

My head was aching for sleeping late last night.

The cold breeze of the morning made me shiver.

I needed a hot bath.

After the bath, I came out a bit refreshed but a cup of coffee would do more magic.

Right then I heard a knock on my door.

"Come in!" I ordered.

It was my nanny with a cup of coffee. As if she read my mind.

That was just what I needed.

"Good morning Kim"

"Good morning nanny"

"You look unwell. What is the matter dear?" That was one of Nanny Mae's many qualities. She could feel it when I am troubled.

"Its nothing Nanny. Just didn't sleep early last night. And I'm also nervous about my wedding."

I lied!

"Its just normal dear. Let's hope everything comes of successfully." She added then she made her way out.

Seven O'Clock. Gosh I was getting late for my shoot.

But I didn't know what to wear.

After minutes of deciding,

I settled for a crop top with a faded cut out jeans and a pair of louboutin and carried a Chanel classical bag.

I decided on a makeup free face that morning. I wasn't in the mood.

I checked up on my son after having my breakfast then I headed straight to the agency.

I didn't know what to feel since I will be having my wedding shopping too after the shoot.

When I arrived at the location, I was led to the dressing room by Melanie my assistant. She had to come there early to make sure of everything I will be needing is provided.

We can't miss out in anything. This was a world known magazine I was shooting for.

The shoot began after the dress up and make ups.

The outfit I wore for the first section of the photo shoot was a custom made Dior number encrusted with beads made with precious stones.

Leroy was already there when we were done with the shoot.

"Hello Dear"

"Hey, are you done with the shoot? Can we go now?"

"Yes honey"

Leroy is a very persistent guy.

He knew if he hadn't come there himself i will make up a thousand and one excuses just to avoid the wedding shopping.

I know I've not been fair to him. All he has done is love me passionately but I don't return the love.

He is very kind and has been there for my son and i for the past ten years. It was only enough that I marry him even if I don't feel the same way he feels about me.

I just hope with time I can learn to love him.